Discussion of Phobias. A phobia is a persistent, irrational fear of a specific object (spiders, snakes, etc) or situation (crowds, open spaces, etc). Accompanying this fear is a strong desire to avoid the object or situation.
Hi, I hope you're all doing well. Over the past two years, I have been terrified of bats and rabies, and that fear has been ruling my life. I've been to the ER three times, gotten a full run of rabies vaccines because I found a mark on my hand while walking through the forest, freaked out because I thought a bat had bitten me after walking directly over a wasp nest and being stung, and just tonight I've been terrified that I'm going to die because I found a faint scratch on one hand after being outside at night and hearing some chirping noises. I was hauling splintery wood around with my bare hands before that, but I guess that explanation isn't good enough for my brain. I'm just so tired of this. Sleep is a relief in that I can at least stop worrying for a while.
I don't want to feel this way any more. I want to be able to hike through the forest and go camping and even step foot outdoors without hyper-focusing on any little sensation on my body, or to make it a day without running the same situations through my head a dozen times, searching for things I could've missed. Knowing that I could get an injection and that I could be immune to dying in a completely preventable way is the worst feeling in the world.
Have any of you been in a similar situation? Was there anything at all that helped? It seems like I'm cracking up, and that my brain is just choosing to ignore the real world. I'm afraid to lose control. I've been told I should see a therapist, but I don't know where to start. Does anyone have any advice?
Thanks for listening. I'm sorry if this post comes out sounding like a rant or something. I hope your day / evening's going well.
The brother was here yesterday. Girl he works with is doing with Covid. How it all came about is how a lot of cases are happening now. Her parents go to Spain this time of year every year. They went as planned with a few friends. This girl and a friend of hers went too. The girl came home. Gets a call from her parents who are still in Spain. They have all come down with Covid. She goes into isolation. Bit too late for that. Reason she came home early was for a wedding. Turned out she had Covid too. As did many of the wedding guests sshe had mixed with. My own brother was a close contact as they car share going to work. He did self isolate. Was tested twice and got the all clear this week. More or less shows you that people are doing things that they should not be doing. Holiday to Spain? Spain has a lot of cases. Was a risk that could have been avoided. But a risk that has lead to over 20 people coming down with Covid. 20 who all knew each other.