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  1. Thanks @Bobnnat, it's weird, I know all these things but I can never quite convince myself 🙃 I've been doing so well with my anxiety recently, I'll fight through this bout too. Appreciated. Thank you @MARC, you've helped me many a time, thanks for always giving a dose of reality 🙂 @MotherOfMaya you're not alone feeling kidna hypocritical, haha, I feel like that all the time! It's crazy, and I don't mean this bad to anyone at all, but isn't it odd how sometimes you can see what other people are worried about and go pfft, it's clearly not anything serious, then it gets to yourself and you're at panic stations, haha? I'll have a look at that book and blog, and I really appreciate everything you've said, I needed it today ❤️ hope you're good, and we'll all get through this together x
  2. Hiya guys Majorly anxious today over some twitches I've had. I keep getting them in my upper arms, and it's freaking me out. I haven't done much during lockdowns, I know it's probably just lack of movement etc, so muscle fatigue, but there's constantly something at the back of my mind saying it's something more. My arm is a little sore, and so many articles (that I've read in the past, I've not googled anything in months) say that pain isn't associated with the main disease I'm anxious about (we all know the one), so I guess on some level that's reassuring, but I can't quite get it out of my head. I've been twitching for over a year now, in different body parts, so it's most likely anxiety/lack of movement (I've also put on some weight, so could be that too), but I hate being anxious all the time. Not sure what I'm looking for here, just had to get this out.
  3. Hi @MotherOfMaya, how are you? I've had the same kind of mass, but under my arm, and they're always benign! Dr's usually advise to have them removed just so they don't get uncomfortable if they grow, but it's always completely up to me. You'll be a-okay, it won't be for serious health reasons, it'll most likely be for aesthetic and comfort reasons they're saying you should get it removed. If you ever need a chat, my messages are open 🙂
  4. Thanks Joe, I try that sometimes and it works quite well, I might need to put more focus on it. Really appreciated 🙂
  5. Hi guys After a good few months, my health anxiety feels like it's coming back with a vengeance. If you've seen my previous posts, I had major anxiety surrounding ALS, I had body wide twitching etc, and was convinced I was dying. This went on for over half a year before I eventually calmed down, I do still get the twitches, but I'm pretty sure it's anxious related as it's never fully went away, but has definitely lessened, and gets worse when I'm really anxious. The issue is, for some reason I've been really anxious recently (I'm starting a new job soon, I'm guessing that's why), and it's made me very twitchy, which in turn has made my health anxiety flare up again, and now I'm worried about ALS again. I know it's so unlikely, and it doesn't get better, it only gets worse, so it's 99.9% not, but there's just always this little voice in my head. I'm not googling, I'm keeping busy, I'm way better than I was first tie in around with this stuff, but I hate that I'm letting it get to me again. Sleepless nights are becoming a staple, and I don't want that going in to my new role. Does anyone have any advice or tips to help calm myself down? Just anything really. Thank you for reading ❤️ have a lovely daaaay x
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    Bone lump

    Hey everyone Thank you for your replies! My arm is still a little achy, but not as bad. I do have a small bb sized lump under the skin on my arm, haven't made a gp appointment yet due to work but will do so soon. Health anxiety has been so good for ages, don't know what's spurred this on. Hope you're all well x
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    Bone lump

    Hey guys Been a while since I've posted, but my arm has been so sore recently, and I've just noticed a lump near my wrist. I'm really scared, it's probably just a muscle thing, but my mind can't stop racing. Not sure why I'm posting it here, not much anyone can do, I'll probably make an appointment with my gp on Monday, but I was feeling better for so long. I hate this. I never seem to get better. Sorry, hope you're all having a good night x
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    Foot pain

    Hey, this isn't so much my HA, as something that's happened as a result of it. When I was really scared about having ALS, I would do dumb self test kind of things constantly. I'd walk on my tiptoes, on my heels, bend my toes etc, amongst other things. I specifically done this on my leg foot a lot throughout the day (don't know why, just my preferred one apparently, haha). My left toes were twitching for a bit, I'm guessing from the strain I put the muscles under from all of that, but it's now mostly died down (it still sometimes happens after I walk a lot, but I'm assuming that's because it's still healing, it's no where near as constant), but the sole of my foot now feel a lot firmer that the right one, and I have a pain in my heel sometimes if I over stretch. I also have this weird tingling feeling in the ball of my foot ALL. THE. TIME. Yet again, I think it's potentially my foot healing from monthsssss worth of me overworking it, but I'm just wondering how long I should stick with that before I do see a doctor? I don't want to annoy them with something silly, but the back of my mind is obviously doing the whole HA thing where it's like "what if?". Hope you're all well ❤️ sorry for the ramble.
  9. Bit TMI, sorry in advance 😅 I've been taking some antibiotics recently, and I thought you could drink on them, but I learnt last night you can't...had a few drinks and ended up incredibly ill, vomiting a lot. Today I've felt okay, bit hungover but nothing major, but I just went to the toilet, and my stool was incredibly dark. Not quite black, but definitely dark dark brown. I looked it up, and a lot of things say it could indicate internal bleeding, so I'm scared I've really damaged my stomach with how violently sick I was. I've not eaten/drank anything black, taken any iron supplements, or anything for heartburn which can apparently cause it, so I'm just a little scared. I'm not in any pain. Any opinions?
  10. Hey, I'm so sorry you're going through this, I fell down the exact same rabbithole, have a little look at my past posts. B12 and D deficiencies can 100% cause twitching, anywhere on the internet can confirm it, and doctors have told me it too, so not sure why your doctor said that. It's a super common reason, so don't pay attention to that. But even if it isn't them, the fact the twitching is now body wide is highly irregular for ALS, it usually progresses slower, and in a very clear outwards way, so for talking sake your foot, then your leg, upwards etc. It also doesn't get better, like yours did after physio. You're super young to have such a thing, and it's mega uncommon, so I'm sure you'll be just fine ❤️ Heightened stress has frequently been shown in conjuction with BFS, which is benign twitches bodywide. Annoying, but not deadly. Or, it could just be all the stress you're under, like mine was! I had body wide twitches constantly, I was so so scared, but when I stopped googling, got some therapy, and started my anti anxiety meds, I'm now so much better. I had some toe twitching, but I sit about 85% of my day, so I've had some physio to help and it's done wonders, so I know it was just the stress and anxiety in my body translating in a super odd way. Always a message away if you need anything, but please don't stress too much, keep your mind busy and time will fly 💕
  11. Hi Jerry What Jonathan is saying is so true - due to my anxiety, I was super tense all the time, I had excruciating pain in my back that just linked into everything I thought was wrong. After getting my anxiety to a manageable level, I thought it'd go away instantly, but it takes time for your body to undo the effects of anxiety. I went for a few deep tissue massages (I thought massages were supposed to be relaxing 😅 they done the job though!) and had a few sessions with a physiotherapist (she used to be the physio for a football team down my way, she was fab), and honestly, the difference it made was amazing, the lasting effects of the tension melted away. Work on your anxiety, and the rest will follow. Coming to this forum means you suspect anxiety is the cause, lean into that and work on that first, and you'll be amazed the changes that come from it. Hope you're feeling well 🙂 x
  12. I'm only 25, so I don't get anything from the GP, but I do frequently check myself. I actually went to the GO yesterday and she's not concerned, she's given me some antibiotics for the lump under my arm, and some moisturiser for the skin issue, so hopefully should be okay soon! Had a twitchy foot today right enough, but think it's just from sitting around for work, or the antibiotics I'm on (lymecycline? Seen cyclines can exasperate twitching, so idk). Hope you all had a wonderful new year if this is when you celebrate it 💖
  13. Hi CCC 😄 Hope you had a good festive period! What is it that's brought you here, what is your anxiety affecting exactly? Your GP is your best port of call, anxiety is such a common thing these days, there's nothing taboo about it! You don't need to take medication if you don't want to, there's loads of avenues! I'd start there 🙂 Personally, therapy and citalopram are what have helped me. Mindfulness has been a great help too, check out the Headspace app! I love their sleepcasts (she says at 3am...we'll ignore that 😅). If you ever need a chat, always here!
  14. Hi Jerry, I hope you managed to enjoy the festive period, I'm sorry you've been feeling this way! I have quite bad reflux, and I frequently find that it can give me a small cough, or I burp loads after eating/drinking something which triggers it. Anxiety and reflux can both give the illusion of something stuff in your throat too, it's amazing what the brain can trick you into thinking! If a Dr has said in the past month that there's nothing wrong, I'd start trusting them and looking down other avenues. Maybe invest in a comfier pillow, I sleep with a pregnancy pillow as it stops me from sleeping on my stomach, and gives me better neck/head support than a regular one, and it's also great for your back posture! Maybe contact a physio for some neck exercises? I work in an office job too at a computer all day, so I know firsthand that a good physio and massage can do wonders! Please don't worry about writing your will, or dying, and please speak to your Dr regarding your anxiety surrounding this situation, they should hopefully be able to help get your mind at rest, and help you move forward. Always here if you need a chat!
  15. Getting them a lot in my knee area these past few days, so annoying.