I don't want to fall asleep.

[taking.infinite.chances 0]

I don't want to go to sleep. There's school in the morning. I'm going to fake sick but I do it so frequently my parents get mad. My dads old and I stress him out when I miss school. He has chrones disease so stress makes him have flares. I have two very little siblings and I don't want them to have no dad. My parents love me and are very good people. They are trying to get me help. If I miss more school they might be taken to court. I have friends but people at school don't like me. I have a reputation as an annoying bitch. I have been unable to change that as hard as I try. If I go to bed then ill just wake up and have to go to school. Staying awake buys me time. I know I should sleep. But I'm just not letting myself.

[Gilly 1086]

Hey taking, I have Crohns Disease, I was diagnosed when I was 12, I'm now 41. My parents were considered old when I was born, everyone thought my dad was my grandad. It's great your parents are getting you help, I know you feel like you are causing them stress but being a parent is stressful, my Mum and Dad had to cope with a lot of stress over me, and they did cope, my Mum has Crohns too, not as severe as I had it, she didn't even know until I was diagnosed. You're Dad will be alright. I was like you I hated school, I was off a lot sick but when I was ok I didn't want to go either, it felt awkward because I was absent so much, kids would ask me questions, poke fun at me. I used to do all the things you do, stay up as late as possible to put it off. My parents were threatened with court too, until they had a meeting with the head of school and explained my illness. Anxiety is an illness too, you have caring parents, that's really good, together you will get through this.

[LawrenceBell 3]

You are very lucky to have such parents like yours. Not sleeping really do give you more stress and cant focus on the day ahead. Dont bother other people. You have your own business, at least you friends by your side. It doesnt matter if you only have few friends as long as they are true to you. 

[Steve4AM 14]

   I'm an insomniac, I was once in a similar situation.  ( Still am. )  Not sleeping enough is not a real escape from problems -

it will make you feel more depressed, which in turn will separate you more from your fellow students.

   I'm going to tell you what I wish I could tell my high school self - don't waste your youth being depressed and separated!

It's a common wish to be popular, but most people center on a few good friends - have fun with these people and study hard - college is much better, and you want to get there, trust me!