I don't want to go to sleep. There's school in the morning. I'm going to fake sick but I do it so frequently my parents get mad. My dads old and I stress him out when I miss school. He has chrones disease so stress makes him have flares. I have two very little siblings and I don't want them to have no dad. My parents love me and are very good people. They are trying to get me help. If I miss more school they might be taken to court. I have friends but people at school don't like me. I have a reputation as an annoying bitch. I have been unable to change that as hard as I try. If I go to bed then ill just wake up and have to go to school. Staying awake buys me time. I know I should sleep. But I'm just not letting myself.