Dennis 1 Posted February 6, 2017 Hello! How y'all doing today? I found myself back on this forum after a couple years when we shared helpful advice on my anxiety related worries. I've been battling with a huge challenge for a year now. I believe some of you might relate to this – let me tell you. I was doing good in my life – working my ass off at school and work, traveling, being healthy, going to gym, having a girlfriend, etc. In a time frame of two years the pushing and too little sleep burnt me out eventually. Learned my lessons there. I went to the doctor and it was diagnosed as a burnout. Now here I am, trying to get myself back in life so to speak. I've been recovering for almost a year now and been careful about my diet, sleep hygiene and now I've started taking walks in the morning. I do a little yoga and meditation daily and try to write down my thoughts every now and then. The process is taking longer than I could ever imagine. The thing is I feel fed up with surviving on my own and being tired all the time; the constant trying and trying and it feels close to not progressing at all. I'm battling with my final work at the same time to get graduated from school but the work feels so huge and difficult that it eats me inside. I can barely work with it for one to three hours per day. I've been depressed battling with all of this – therefore I feel "stuck" at life. I can't even think about my future because I feel like I'm drowned in my school work and recovery, and I can't find the energy to do more of it every day. Sometimes I skip doing the work because I feel so exhausted just waking up. And I feel this recovering and unfinished work is prolonging my future plans because I can't deal with them both properly. Life is in a stand-by mode at the moment. I just want to feel energized and motivated again and be done with my graduation – to continue my life. I see no light in the end of the tunnel right now. I'm not totally sure which category this issue exactly goes to but I hope some of you can relate in your own way and share some thoughts. We're in this together. Any thoughts? Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
JOYCICLE 654 Posted February 6, 2017 Stuck. That's curious. I think I know what you mean but not sure I would have thought to phrase it that way. Sometimes it feels as if the entire job of ' living 24 hrs' in a day is devoted to just anxiety and how to win, how to beat it, how to survive it. It's as if there is no other 'job' to do but that. All day, all consuming, exhausting job it is. Find a good therapist and get to working on that angle and it may free up some of the other time you are spending pacifying or fighting with anxiety. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Bterflymom 155 Posted February 7, 2017 You have a lot of activity on your plate, maybe too much to concentrate on your work. I would be tired if I did all the things you do and then try to do schoolwork on top of it all. Perhaps just for now you should pare down some of that extra activity and concentrate on school. Once that is finished you can always go back to all of your physical activities. Good luck, you're on your way Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
LoveIsAnAction3 1 Posted February 7, 2017 I remember writing my masters thesis years ago, I felt the same way with it, that is was a large overwhelming tasks with little to no guidance. A lot of expectation was on you to come up with ideas and progress them with your own research and other ideas. Some days I did 3 hours work, some days it was zero. Looking back, my mistake was that I took the independence of it a little too seriously and should have been more involved in discussions with other students and professors. Eventually I finished though a little longer than expected. I think what helped was to create a detailed plan with my own milestones and meet those deadlines. This kept me on track and help me see the big picture, when I would actually finish. The weight of the task seemed did daunting and too much at times, but after completing each milestone (sometimes late), the weight slowly gets less and less. AND I totally recommended talking and discussing with any fellow colleges about the issues you face, you'll be surprized how many others are going through the same thing. Hoping the best for you. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites