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[Ellebel 64]

Hello old and new friends!

I have not been here for a while. Last time i check in i was having some serious breastcancer fears while nursing my (very colicky) baby. It was a rough time. I ended up with my therapist for a new round of counselling because the sleep deprivation, baby that cried all the time AND weird symptoms just made my life so hard. I am back to check in with you guys. How are you doing? How are all the lockdown situations or covid- measures treating you?  Here it has been tough, but it did provide me with some unique one on one time with my baby, as i have been home for a year + due to covid. Trying to see the positive 😉 

Me being back here doesnt mean i have been better. On the contrary. I feel like i am going from one fear to another. Yesterday it was ALS again en now i am obsessing over a mole on my back. Oh well. C'est la vie!  Despite my fears i am trying to enjoy more. Life is short..  the longer you live, the shorter it will feel (or so im told), so i dont wat to waste away in fear. I am trying with some mindfullness and meditation. Any experience anyone?  It's not a huge succes yet, but hey every extra minute of peace and enjoyment is precious right?

I am especially curious how @Holls is doing?

Lots of love ❤️

 

Ellebel

[Ironman 49]

Welcome back,

You have to first look at what you have accomplished - and it is understandable that it would cause stress that could aggravate anxiety.  Anything can happen in that, so you can tell something is up.  If the mole is something you have had for a while, then nothing would just appear out of nowhere.  A mole itself is usually not cancerous, though.  The ALS fears are probably the muscle issues with stress and having a baby.  Your issues are likely tied to stress and not anything else. :) 

[jonathan123 2322]

Hi. Ellebell.  I remember you from old. Welcome back, and I am so sorry you are feeling stressed again. As you say, such is life. But it need not be so. Babies often pick up anxiety if their parents are anxious.  An anxiety 'atmosphere' can cause a baby to to be fractious and often cry a lot. Now this is not your fault, so get that idea out of your head. It's just how things are at the moment. I don't doubt you are a good mother in every respect. It's good you are having counselling again. There is no real substitute for good one to one counselling with someone you trust. Mindfulness is a good way to concentrate the mind. We don't do we? If we brush our teeth we are thinking about what we shall have for lunch!  As Buddhists say, when you walk, walk, When you sit, sit, but don't wobble. Concentrate on the task in hand. Meditation is also good in anxiety, but it can be difficult to keep one's mind on one thing when anxious. You will win through again. You have the right attitude. 

It's not a huge succes yet, but hey every extra minute of peace and enjoyment is precious right?

Yes, absolutely right. In anxiety we often appreciate the quiet times and the beauty of this world more than would a person not suffering. Anxiety people are sensitive people. They pick up negative feelings and emotions from others so easily. An argument of some form of altercation can upset them for days. That's why it's so important to try and live in a calm atmosphere, not always easy.

Good to have you back.. Best wishes.

 

 

[Ellebel 64]

So right Jonathan!  And yes baby picks up stress easily.. that is sometimes very conflicting as him crying causes more stress and so on haha. But i try breathing exercises and i feel like mindfullness and meditation are very helpful indeed! I also read a book that i found very helpful! Its about ACT therapy. Very helpful for me at least 😊. So yes still anxious and fallbacks, but also Enjoying and appreciating more😊.  How are you?

[Holls 1479]

On 4/29/2021 at 3:45 AM, Ellebel said:

Hello old and new friends!

I have not been here for a while. Last time i check in i was having some serious breastcancer fears while nursing my (very colicky) baby. It was a rough time. I ended up with my therapist for a new round of counselling because the sleep deprivation, baby that cried all the time AND weird symptoms just made my life so hard. I am back to check in with you guys. How are you doing? How are all the lockdown situations or covid- measures treating you?  Here it has been tough, but it did provide me with some unique one on one time with my baby, as i have been home for a year + due to covid. Trying to see the positive 😉 

Me being back here doesnt mean i have been better. On the contrary. I feel like i am going from one fear to another. Yesterday it was ALS again en now i am obsessing over a mole on my back. Oh well. C'est la vie!  Despite my fears i am trying to enjoy more. Life is short..  the longer you live, the shorter it will feel (or so im told), so i dont wat to waste away in fear. I am trying with some mindfullness and meditation. Any experience anyone?  It's not a huge succes yet, but hey every extra minute of peace and enjoyment is precious right?

I am especially curious how @Holls is doing?

Lots of love ❤️

 

Ellebel

Ellebel!!!! Just saw your notice. I don't get on hardly at all anymore. I'm doing well, I got a new job at the very start of the pandemic 🥺 it's been a wild, hard ride so most of my attention has been focused on that. Luckily it's part time and I work from home! 

I am sorry to hear that your worry is jumping from 1 thing right to another. Is it any wonder though with all that's been going on? Our minds always go to old worries when we are anxious hence that pesky als fear.  You have zero to worry about. Then throw in hormones after baby and I have to give you a pat on the back !!! You are doing an amazing job and your baby is so very lucky to have you as a momma. When the worries come in, pack your baby up in a wrap or stroller and take a brisk walk to clear the head. Your mind can run away with lies so fast.. don't let it. Biggest, warmest hugs. You are healthy and amazing! 💕💗💜🧡❤️💙