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Really lost my cool today: sore throat and then panic

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Today was a very bad day. 

Let me preface this by saying I'm having a very unsuccessful time quitting smoking. I've done it before but I picked it up again about six months ago and it's been hard to quit. I did a stupid thing and I fished a pack I'd tossed out of the trash can (gross, I know) and smoked a few. 

Now I've got a sore throat and I'm convinced I've basically killed my self. 

Whether that's what kicked off today's panic attack, my first in years, I don't know, but I had a BAD one. Totally convinced I was having a heart attack. Had to drive home from work in a state I can't even describe but I just KNEW I was gonna get in a wreck or just stop in the middle of the highway or do something crazy or something terrible was going to happen. 

I don't even know. 

Well, now that my heart attack fears have calmed down I'm now certain I put salmonella in my lungs and throat and will be dead soon. 

 

I dont even even know how to chill this one out. 

Also: long time reader, first time poster. Hi!

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2 hours ago, DefinitelyDeadThisTime said:

Today was a very bad day. 

Let me preface this by saying I'm having a very unsuccessful time quitting smoking. I've done it before but I picked it up again about six months ago and it's been hard to quit. I did a stupid thing and I fished a pack I'd tossed out of the trash can (gross, I know) and smoked a few. 

Now I've got a sore throat and I'm convinced I've basically killed my self. 

Whether that's what kicked off today's panic attack, my first in years, I don't know, but I had a BAD one. Totally convinced I was having a heart attack. Had to drive home from work in a state I can't even describe but I just KNEW I was gonna get in a wreck or just stop in the middle of the highway or do something crazy or something terrible was going to happen. 

I don't even know. 

Well, now that my heart attack fears have calmed down I'm now certain I put salmonella in my lungs and throat and will be dead soon. 

 

I dont even even know how to chill this one out. 

Also: long time reader, first time poster. Hi!

Hi!!! Welcome!

Don't beat yourself up because you are having a hard time quitting smoking. You made the decision to quit and that alone is a huge step so Pat yourself on the back. 

Ok.. to make you feel better I will tell you that when I was pregnant with my son I threw some fries in the trash then immediately regretted it so I scooped them out and devoured them. :( Not mine finest moment. I was terrified that I would get sick and the baby would also... But nothing happened. You're ok. You learned your lesson. 

Panic attacks while driving are scary. You made it home and you are past this panic attack and tomorrow is a whole new day. One day at a time with the smoking... You got this. Hugs. Glad you are here. 

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