No one can hear my cries

[butterfllyflyaway 3]

I am on anti depressants and klonopin for anxiety.  Some days are better then others, but today I've had to drag myself out of bed to cook and clean and feed my  children.  Because if I don't do it, it won't get done.  We got a snow storm.  They want to play and build snow men,  instead of telling them my whole body aches from this perminent cloud over my head... I fake a smile and throw some snow balls.  They happily go In for cocoa and I go back out to shovel the walkway with gusts of wind so strong that no one can hear my cries. Then I wipe my face,  and go back in to watch cartoons under the blankets and snuggle with my two favorite people In the world and remind myself how lucky I've got it. But like I said, some days are better than  others.  

[Clopes 11]

Definitely a good day to stay in bed but life always does seem to go on. I was with you shoveling today. Not much fun. Sounds like you had some good company as well.  The world sure does feel different when it's snowing and blowing 50 out. Takes the breathe right out of you. 

[Pistol Star 18]

I hear you Butterfly,

I have young childrens too, it's very demanding but rewarding at the same time. I know that it's hard living with high anxiety, even a mundane task can seem like a mountain. Like you, even when I'm not feeling good, I spend time with my childrens and I have fun with them, smile and laugh even if I feel miserable Inside. I never complain in front of them, I want them to be happy. And you are right, we are lucky to have them and some days are better than others.