AlwaysAMama 0 Posted May 2, 2012 Hello everyone! I am from Tennessee and have suffered from anxiety and depression since I was a teenager. It has affected my life in many ways but the hardest part I have had to deal with is how it affects my 5 kids. Since going out is a struggle for me I feel like maybe my kids are deprived of a well rounded childhood. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Gilly 1086 Posted May 2, 2012 Hey and welcome to the forum Oh wow, you must have your hands full there, don't be too hard on yourself that has to be hard work for any mum never mind a mum with anxiety and depression, but I understand why you feel like that. I don't have any kids but I know my husband has to miss out on things because of my disorder. I find myself over compensating in other ways to make up for it sometimes. Nice to meet you and I hope we can be of some help Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Jailynnsgrandma 0 Posted May 2, 2012 Hi, It is nice to meet you. I have often felt the same way about my kids life. My kids are older now, both in their 20s. Looking back, I do think they had a good childhood, even with my struggles. I think as moms we always feel a lot of guilt over any shortcomings we feel we have. You can only do your best. No one can do more than that. Try to give yourself a break and not be too hard on yourself. Hugs, Jailynns Grandma Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
JOYCICLE 654 Posted May 2, 2012 Always mama, You and I need to have a talk . I got very close to letting it run my whole life a couple of years back. I had to step back and look at what it did to my kids and the shame of it pushed me out of the 'closet' and into the world ! We will help you . Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
JOYCICLE 654 Posted May 2, 2012 Shame may not be the right word here, but I was so disappointed in myself and felt I was letting them down. Several things happened at once to put me on the road to recovery. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
AlwaysAMama 0 Posted May 2, 2012 Joy, I know what you mean. I think that is the point I am at now. My husband has recently become very sick and can't go any where because of a PICC line. Well he used to be the one to push me so now I am back to only leaving for doctor appoinments, to pay bills and grocery shop. Sometimes I count the days since I have taken my younger kids out somewhere and I am ashamed. Thankfully my older kids go to school daily so they socialize that way. And when I realize the little ones have been home 3 or 4 days in a row I try to take them to the park or to grandma's. I know some people who post every day on facebook about all the things they are doing or places they are going and I don't think I will ever be able to do that. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Gilly 1086 Posted May 2, 2012 Mama, (hope its ok to call you that) I know exactly how you feel right there. I'm a carer, my mums paralysed. I've not had 1 day off for almost 3 years. It is so hard and it is depressing to think of all the things everyone else is doing. I thought my anxiety held me back, and it did. But now I feel like I've been put behind a brick wall because I just can't do much at all, I can't go far, 2 or 3 hours max and mums needing me. That's why my butt is glued to the net so much, I live vicariously through others, maybe not healthy but I make the best of what I have. And these people here, like joy above^ who I feel lucky to call my friend help me so much, give me hope and lift my spirits. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
JungleJulia 235 Posted May 3, 2012 Welcome Mama Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
