Every minute is unbearable

[cutecat25 14]

I am suffering from severe depersonalisation. This is the worst I have ever felt,

I dealt this this symptom for over a year, but I don't remember it being this bad.

Now it's back, and worse than ever.

I don't feel like I'm in my body. I feel numb and distant, like I can see myself doing something, but it doesn't feel like I'm actually doing it if that makes sense.

Then I was in the shower, and it didn't even feel like it was me in the shower, it felt like someone else's body.

Also having weird, strange existental thoughts.

Is that crazy or what?

Do you think this is anxiety, or another mental illness?

I am so worried.

This also started on day 3 or a new anti depressant, and I haven't felt the same since.

I feel like no one has ever felt this bad before:(

[Holz 64]

Ello hunni,

Ur not alone I suffer it so bad I kinda used to it bow haha, don't focus on it (easier said than done) but the more u focus on it the more u will notice it. Kts one of the worst symptoms I get and it makes u feel so scary and alone doesn't it?

Here if ya need me hun x chin up

[jonathan123 2368]

Hi cutecat and Holz. YOU ARE NOT ALONE. This symptom is so common in anxiety. Unreality and depersonalisation is one of the most common of symptoms. It is because we are so caught up in our own little world of suffering that everything else seems unreal. And cutecate, it is not a symptom of anything other than anxiety. People with real mental illness can rarely talk about it let alone post a very legible write up about how they feel. Yes, others, many others have felt the way you feel now and have recovered. The symptoms frighten you because you are afraid of them. Sounds silly and it is so obvious but we do flog ourselves, don't we? They are nothing to be afraid of if we accept them and don't fight them. "IT" loves it when you get all wound up. Don't let "IT" have its way. Calm acceptance is the answer but it is not easy. Nothing is easy in anxiety but it can be done given the will. There is that great pool of courage we all have to draw on. It is not just given to some and not others. We all have it.     Jon.

[Dcakes 5]

Hi Cat

Im here with it too and having pretty bad anxiety. Your are not alone. Breathing helps and talking to friends helps and just giving yourself small goals helps too. I have been feeling depersonalized for about a month now and its horrible. I upped my medicine and Im not sure if it is helping or not. We must just take it day by day which feels impossible but I think I am trying to hold on to as much hope as possible which is very hard . Ill be online tonight if you want to chat