I need help

[Jenny77 0]

I'm a 37 year old female in the grips of anxiety and depression I am jeopardizing a new job because I don't want to go back. I'm afraid of what everyone is saying and thinking about me. I live alone. My life sucks I'm broke I'm so Lonley I moved a long ways away to be with what I thought was the man of my dreams now we've broken up I'm depressed can't get out of bed can't sleep I'm scared.

[Jase 15]

Jenny, im sorry hun. What you just wrote sounds so much like what im going thru myself at my new job. Im debating on quitting my new job and returning to my old employer but it means I'll probably wind up losing my medical (which I still havent used) and my new place which ive spent the last 6 month working hard to get/make perfect. Im very depressed and angry at myself and the way that I cant come to grips with any aspect of my life. Im 44 yo and im as confused and scared as i've ever been.. sorry, I didn't offer any help, my emotions/thoughts are in constant turmoil. :'(

[Jenny77 0]

Jase thanks for your reply sometimes it just feels good to know I'm not alone. I too feel in constant turmoil. I wish I loved me more and could just get my life in order finally. I feel like I'm never going to be good enough and the problem is when I start to feel like this it's almost impossible to break out of. Thanks for taking the time to reply it means a lot I hope your day today does have some peaceful moments for you

[kozza 6]

Hi  So sorry you are on your own dealing with this. Have you any family or friends you can phone, maybe one of them can come to stay?

 

I have found going into work can sometimes help. \just remember everyone else prob have their own problems or are talking about what was on tv last night and not you.

 

Maybe a trip to your doctors will help, talking to someone might take the edge of it for you. 

 

I know how you feel with insomnia, I am in the middle of a horrible bout and it takes its toll on your body and emotions. My body is so tired and seems to ache in a different place every day but I still cant go to sleep. The doctor has given me 7 sleeping tablets to take on alternate nights to try and kickstart my body.

 

Hang in there, when you break up the first bit is always theworst.  xxxx

[Jenny77 0]

Thank you Kozza

I so needed some words of encouragment. I'm sorry to hear about your insomnia ...you've probably tried everything hey ...I find the wrist is when I'm anxious or stressed and I'm so much so of both those things. I've been praying for what felt like all night for rest but at the last minute I just coukfbt fight the anxiety. So here I am home. I tried to talk to my mom but she just doesn't understand and really doesn't "like talking to me when I'm sad" that's when I need her most hurting inside and out

[Jase 15]

Jenny I wish I could help u, I, wish someone could help me. Im lost

[kozza 6]

Jenny - any friends from home you could ring?  It would be a shame to lose your job when you have just started. Do you think you would like the job in other circumstances?

 

Jase- Have you tried the doctor? If you are that low maybe some medication would get you through. Again , it would be a shame for you to lose the job and place you have built as your own.

 

xxx 

[Dcakes 5]

Hi to all. I feel for all of you as I experience these feelings. I'm in a return of anxiety myself and it's so scary and uncomfortable. Is there anyone at work you could talk to about what's going on? Just so when you go to work you know you have some support built in?