AlexN7 0 Posted June 13, 2013 Thanks for all the good energy guys! It's been a while since I last posted and wanted to check in, I have a HUGE challenge ahead today. I'm in a class for real estate and I will be required to sit in the class for 5 hours today! If you read my first journal you know I get very anxious in classrooms but I'm not going to let that hinder my ability to try my best. I was anxious earlier in the week because I was behind on my studies but I've caught up and am confident I'll do great. This will be the 1st of 4 sessions throughout the month, each 5 hours long then followed by a 3 hour test session once completed. It is going to be my toughest challenge since unofficially diagnosing myself with anxiety disorder and agoraphobia. What gives me so much hope is that my situation is unique and I can still do many things that theoretically I should have trouble doing. Also, I havn't had a full on panic attack and have always been able to either control it, or take myself out of the situation until the anxiety came to a manageable level. With that being said, it's going to be interesting to see how I handle being in a class for 5 hours with other students! Wish me luck everyone! I will be back to let you guys know all the details once I return! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Gilly 1086 Posted June 13, 2013 Good luck Alex, I am sure you will nail it! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
AlexN7 0 Posted June 14, 2013 So I just got back from my 5 hour class and let me just say one thing..........GREAT SUCCESS!! I cannot believe how well it went tonight. All day I was up for the challenge but semi anxious. Time seemed to be flying to the hour I had to be there, I was trying to be relaxed and collected but ended up being damn close to running late! I arrived there about 20 mins early. Walked into the main office and asked where the class was being held. I was in a totally unfamiliar place so everything was new to me as I was then lead towards the back and up a flight of stairs. I was the 2nd person there so I had pretty much the whole room to myself, Which chair did I chose??? The one closest to the exit of course! Lol! I greeted the teacher and she noted we would begin at 6pm (15 minutes from then) and within those 15 minutes students came pouring in! In the beginning I was anxious of course, and as the students came rushing in the anxiety level rose but never reached a point were I was going to panic. I just weathered that initial storm and surprisingly enough no physical symptoms began. I was anxious but it was a perfectly normal "1st day of school" anxiety so to speak. Towards the end I was almost completely relaxed and at ease, it was really amazing for me. The teacher was nice too she described her and her family saying she had an autistic son (aspergers) so she's already accustomed to tending to special needs of people. She also told us all to "feel free to use the restroom or stand and stretch or even eat during the class" and after she said that it was like she set me free and anxiety had no power over me. I thought to myself wow that's great, even though I had already told myself that if I felt an attack coming or felt like I needed to get out I'd just walk out and go to the restroom. The funny thing is she noted that she's pretty good at knowing what type of illnesses people have such as PTSD, I wondered if she'd ever guess what I had because clearly on this night I am victorious and anxiety/panic/agoraphobia had no effect on ME! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
jonathan123 2368 Posted June 14, 2013 Hi Alex. SUCCESS! Whoopee, you've cracked it. Well done. Without perhaps realising it you have ACCEPTED how you feel and, in spite of the lurking feelings, you have done what so many would like to do. You say you were anxious. Of course you were; who wouldn't be; perfectly normal in the circumstances. But you did not allow it to stop you pressing on and completing the task. Meeting some nice helpful people also helped. What great strides you have made. Acceptance, Perseverance and Determination will always succeed. Good luck to you and keep up the good work. J. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Gilly 1086 Posted June 14, 2013 Go Alex!! Always great to see success Keep up the good work, very happy for you ! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites