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  1. Been eating tons of fiber. Nothing's working. I did finally just pass another small stool after eating dinner, but this is the worst constipation I've ever had. 36.
  2. This is BAD. Haven't had the urge to go at ALL today. I suspect the minimal stools I passed the previous few days were whatever was left on the left side of the colon, and the cancer on the right side has completely blocked everything else. Forgot to mention my urine output has also been restricted, despite drinking TONS of water.
  3. If it doesn't change it's not cancer. Also, there's no evidence that "odd" moles are any more likely to have melanoma arise from within them than "typical" looking moles. Most melanoma starts "de novo," meaning it was melanoma from when it first appeared on the skin, but occasionally melanoma can arise from within a nevus. However, as I said, there's a lack of evidence that "irregular" nevi are any more prone to that happening. If you've had it for ages, and it's not changing, nothing to worry about. At least, not any more than all of your other moles.
  4. This has been going on for a week or two now. While in the "technical" sense I'm not constipated, as I still have bowel movements every day, the amount of stool I pass is nowhere near as much as it should be given the quantity of food I eat. I'd say it's at about 30% of what it should be. I don't care about what the internet says...this is abnormal for me. Particularly because I can't figure out reason for it.
  5. Whenever I eat certain foods, I tend to get this milk-like aftertaste that I never used to get. What would cause this? GERD? Esophageal cancer? Throat cancer? As I said last year, I have had a few instances of waking up with acid in my mouth since the start of 2019. I have also had problems swallowing at times when eating, but this comes and goes and seems to occur when I'm transitioning from eating one type of food to another. I have also had a clicking in my throat when I swallow since (I'm serious) I woke up after a dream where I was screaming at a vending machine. Ever since then, the clicking never went away. Something's scraping against something there. I think this was in 2018.
  6. Problem is it's probably too small to even biopsy. They'd have to wait for it to grow.
  7. Not with the texture of this. If it were on the surface of the skin I would figure it's a keratinizing I could pick it off. Feels like a grain of sand is in there or something.
  8. When cancer spreads to the lymph nodes, does is grow on the lymph nodes? The sense I get is this is cancer that is growing on the outside of the tonsillar lymph node or something, which is why I feel this tiny, hard bump. I don't think lymph nodes themselves are only 1 millimeter or so in diameter even when they're healthy, so I would think this has to be a growth.
  9. This might be hard as a rock. I can't tell. I can't get a good feel of it because it's so small. The smallness and general feel of it is what makes me think this is probably cancer. I would guess it's about a millimeter in diameter. I don't even know if they would be able to biopsy the thing because of how small it is.
  10. I have all kinds of permanent shotty nodes in my neck (have since I was a kid), but what worries me about this one that I just discovered is it's much smaller and has a different, disconnected sort of feel to it. It feels like a tiny pebble that's loose in's much smaller than the size of a pea. I'm not even sure what to compare it to. It's like a really small seed or something. Not even sure it's a lymph node and not just cancer of something else in that region.
  11. I don't understand this. Just a couple of weeks ago, I was noticing how my upper abdominal asymmetry didn't seem as noticeable as I remembered it being from about 2 years ago, despite the lower abdominal bulge that I discovered within the last few months. Now it seems to be noticeably worse than I remembered it being. Is it just that I had forgotten how I had palpated it before? Or is my body somehow able to actually create symptoms like this? Seems far-fetched. But here's the thing: I also developed unexplained bruises on my thigh (worst I can remember having) just a few days after contemplating whether or not the spontaneous hypertrophic scars on my shoulders/upper back/chest might actually be from an indolent form of leukemia. I have had minor recurrent unexplained bruising that appears around once per year for the last several years, and it was always over one of my knees. But just a few days after thinking about leukemia again, out comes the worst unexplained bruising I can remember...and in a different location. I understand psychosomatic symptoms, but I don't imagine your mind can do that.
  12. Never seen them on my thigh before. I've been seeing them on and off appearing unexplained above my knees over the last 5 years, but never to this severity and never in this location.
  13. See what I mean? I just develop non-stop real, abnormal symptoms. I've been noticing unexplained bruises on and off for the last 5 years. Been noticing petechiae since 2014...since 2010 if you include this time I had them on my gums and thought they were a sign of periodontitis. I have this, plus an abdominal obstruction that leads to visible paralysis, plus a thin, horizontal bulge in my hypogastric region, and that's only one of at least two places of asymmetry, as there's asymmetry further up towards my belly button as well. I wonder if these things are all related (swollen organs from indolent lymphoma), or if I have multiple types of cancer.
  14. When you see it, how noticeable is it? When I'm lying on my back, I can see a portion of my right abdomen lift up and stay there for a few seconds, then descend. It's always the right side, although I think when I first noticed it a year and a half or more ago I saw the left side doing this occasionally as well.
  15. In the context of having noticed asymmetry further up (the part that naturally sticks out below the belly button sticks out slightly further to the right), as well as visible paristalsis, about two years ago, I just don't understand how I'm still alive. I did read that right side colon cancers can be asymptomatic for a lot longer because of the size of the colon there and the stools being liquid. But this doesn't really seem in the region of the cecum. It starts at around the epigastric vein and goes horizontally in towards the center of my abdomen. It seems to align more with the small bowel. Then again, I'm not sure how reliable those diagrams are when it comes to human anatomy.
  16. Your friend had the acute form, I'm guessing. I'm wondering about exactly how long the chronic form can take to progress.
  17. I'm starting to wonder if the asymmetric areas of my abdomen/the slight horizontal bulge I recently discovered in the hypogastric region might be from lymphoma, as that would explain how I can still have normal bowel movements but still have a mass present (I would assume a swollen lymph node or more that pushes things out). I have had so many symptoms over the years that I have long wondered if I had some kind of indolent form of lymphoma or leukemia. On and off night sweats. On and off petechiae (just a few of them at a time; individual ones in different locations...not a rash). I have had plenty of "shotty" lymph nodes all over my body over the years. I remember around 10-12 years ago, I would get extremely itchy every time I took a shower. That eventually went away. I also get spontaneous hypertrophic scars (elevated, pink) on my shoulders/upper back/chest, and have been getting them since around 2003 or so. I have never been able to find anything online about this, but I have seen mentions that lymphoma and leukemia can cause skin tumors. Whenever I lie down flat on my back in bed, I feel like it's somewhat of a struggle to breathe fully. It seems more noticeable when I have anxiety, though, of course. I have also thought this might be from a hiatal hernia, since I had twice woken up with acid in my mouth last year (incidents about 6 months apart). And for several weeks, I had a feeling of something pressing on my neck, which I thought was eventually went away and hasn't really least not in a way where it lasted. During the several weeks where I had it, it would go away after I slept, and then return as soon as I got up. In 2018, I remember feeling way more bloated than I should have after I ate a meal, prompting me to suspect it was ascites...which was also what started me palpating my abdomen and eventually finding asymmetry. In 2018, I also noticed spontaneous brown spots appearing on my face literally overnight, as well as spontaneous indented scars. I also have a ton of sebaceous hyperplasia on my face. I wondered if this stuff was all paraneoplastic signs. I have on and off periods where I see a sparkling floater/shooting star drifting across my line of vision at random intervals of once or twice per day (went for an eye exam and nothing found except normal aging). In either 2018 or last year, I had a 3 week period of hyperacusis in one of my ears. When I bend over, I feel an unnatural amount of pressure in my head/sound gets muffled...seems like blood doesn't fully pump to my head. I feel like I could pass out/die if I stay in that position. I have a visible pulse in my abdomen. Every once in a while I wake up with dizziness. I have gone through periods over the last 14 years or so where I'll feel like I'm sinking (like in an elevator) while I'm standing...this seems to happen mostly when I'm on an upper floor somewhere, but I have also had it in the shower. I also have a slight cough/mucus in my throat that seems to go away if I breathe through my nose (I don't think it's Covid-19). I don't have it when I wake up. My body is just a complete mess. I have had a million bizarre symptoms most of my adult life.
  18. I can see my abdomen moving around involuntarily (kind of like my testicles do). I think I started noticing this about it when I first noticed the asymmetry a couple of years ago. Is this normal? Is this just because I'm skinny? Or is it a sign of cancer? EDIT: OH, FUCK. IT'S NOT. GOOGLE SAYS VISIBLE PERISTALSIS IS ALMOST PATHOGNOMONIC FOR INTESTINAL OBSTRUCTION. I've had this for around 2 years at LEAST.
  19. Think my only hope is it's a hernia. I don't think there's any other survivable reason someone would feel asymmetry in their abdomen. I don't think different organ alignment leads to any palpable asymmetry, since there are layers of stuff in between the skin and the organs.
  20. Location is lower right quadrant, 3 inches below and to the right of the belly button. What's in that area? I read that colon cancer can cause masses anywhere. I actually had a colonoscopy 10.5 years ago, which turned up clear (internal hemorrhoids).
  21. I Googled this and found a mention to tumors, of course. I've been worried about abdominal asymmetry for around 2 years now. It seems to have gotten worse. My abdomen is now a complete mess of asymmetry to where stuff doesn't line up the way it used to. I don't know if it's related to losing some weight recently because of covid-19 (not eating as many calories because I rarely go shopping and don't purchase certain items I used to), but the relief I felt yesterday noticing corresponding veins to the slight bulge I felt on one side seems to have been misplaced, as the cause of those veins bulging more may be a tumor.
  22. Last year I had this weird bout of hyperacusis that lasted 3 weeks. I thought it was either a brain tumor or an acoustic neuroma. Then one day I woke up dizzy, took a shower, and noticed that I was no longer getting the "fullness" feeling in my ear that I would get every time from the noise of the shower. The dizziness went away and it was mysteriously gone. But in recent weeks, I've been noticing a lot of instances of tinnitus in the same ear I had hyperacusis in last year, and it came to a head when it came on in a dream and I woke up with it. It seems to have normalized now, but I think this might be heading in the direction of eventually becoming permanent. Don't want.
  23. All over the place. I didn't get a ton of them...just one here and there. I remember the one where I first went, "what's going on?" was on a toe. But I can get them just about anywhere. Arms, calves, feet, neck...sometimes on the inside of my lip.
  24. I haven't seen any about it. But I first noticed them around 2014, so I figure at worst it's some kind of chronic form of something.
  25. I've had them for a few years now. Leukemia and lymphoma are among the many cancer concerns I've had.