I am so sorry you are having to deal with all this. My granddaughter deals with anxiety attacks and it always comes in different ways. She has found that she has to busy her mind and her body to keep them at bay. She has to either get out and walk (get fresh air), get with others that she is comfortable with, or throw herself into cleaning. Her counselor suggests she keep a "Thankful Journal", writing down things that happened that day that she is thankful for, just to get her to focus on the good things happening around her. She really thinks that is very helpful. I hope you can figure out what is most helpful for you.