Alice95

Hi guys, im Alice in 20 I've been using this site on and off for approximately 2 years and I cannot thanks the volunteers enough of how much it has helped me in the past. My my life has changed massively in the 2 years all for the better however the dark days I do have are becoming darker and more frequent. ive only ever believed that I suffer with anxiety heart palpitations restless panic attacks fleeing/avoiding certain situations. My most recent symptoms are tingling like pins and needles in my back arms and feet and a twitchy neck really strange it's almost like a muscle spasm but my anxiety causes it! Recently im leading to think that I suffer with depression which is very new to me I'm not one to lay in bed for days on end but I'm always very tired and don't have much fun doing anything. I'm very numb and it scares me that I won't ever be normal to be honest I don't know what normal is anymore. I have no emotion like I don't enjoy my life there's so many things I wanna do but my anxiety hinders this. I I believe I have depression because I've been getting bad thoughts and really low self esteem. My head and my life just feels empty it's really hard to explain my head just feels all alone even though I'm surrounded by loving and supportive people. Does anyone think this is depression or something that is related to my anxiety. Any tips on how to get myself out of this rut would be greatly appreciated and if anyone wants any help on anxiety please let me know I will let you know my techniques and tips thankyou rememeber: what you think, you become all my love, Al xxx

hi all, havent been on here in ages, loving the new look! There was a time in my life that I would come on here every hour of the day and look at all the symptoms and people's questions and relate them to myself and it got to a fixation and so now I only try to come on here when I need advice on a particular thing. I was starting to get my anxiety on track but then I was made redundant 2 weeks ago so think I have been very nervy and on edge since! But I have a new job now so that's good! Im worried as on Saturday night my mum and dad are going away for the night and I'm at home by myself all night with just my boyfriend. He doesn't know how to cope with me when I'm anxious only my mum can deal with me and ive not stayed away from her since my anxiety has started. I physically don't know how im going to stay there all night without having a breakdown. Can anyone suggest any help please. Also girls I dunno if Any can relate to this but I find it very hard to breathe when I'm anxiety and my bra feels like it's constantly digging into my chest and hindering my breathing xx please give advice x all my love xxx

Hi all, Thankyou so much for your replies! I went yesterday and I did it! I know if I hadn't of gone I would have only made my anxiety worse so overcoming yesterday was a big deal for me in my journey of over coming this all my love alice xx

Hi all, I have to go to a wedding tomorrow and it's 2 hours drive away from my house. I'm so anxious and really worried about going incase I start having heart palpitations and feelings like im dying having heart attack etc. I'm so so scared I don't want to go but it's my boyfriends mums wedding so I can't let him down. Can anyone give me strategies/confident so I can get through this day without any stress. Thankyou in advance xxxx

Hey hun my friend had a brain tumour/brain c****r and still does. I can assure you that the pains she had before she was diagnosed was unbearable you wouldn't be able to do anything! Don't worry if you are anxious go to the doctos to make yourself feel better and put your mind at rest. Try slight improvements like diet and make sure you drink 2 litres of water a day do that for a week and I bet your symptoms will ease! X good luck x 'what you think. You become' xxxx

Hi all, Haven't wrote on here in a while. I'm doing well at the moment just booked another appointment with a therapist. I have started going gym and earlier I lifted a weight and got a soaring aching pain through my left upper arm. I presumed I had pulled a muscle so went home x now I'm worrying that it's early symtoms of a heart attack Please please please help me what should I do x thanks, alice x

So ive been suffering with anxiety for a year now. However this constant chest pain, stabbing pain, tightness pain in my left arm are continually there on a day to day basis. I feel like some days im not here like I need to pinch myself to make sure I am and that im breathing like depersonalization I guess? Ive been ill with a cold and have asthma so has been effecting my chest could this make me have chest pain or is it the anxiety? I feel like I'm never gonna be normal. I can't be away from home cause im obsessed that im gonna have a heart attack. Ive had 7 day heart monitor and few other tests and everything came back fine So now what? All my love Al xxx

I start a new job tomorrow in an office and I'm so nervous because what if I get really anxious and everyone thinks I'm silly dunno if I can sit at a desk all day! Help xxxx

Hey guys, I only really come on here now if I'm very anxious to try and put it at bay, however I do like to give an update on how I'm doing. In terms of attacks ive been doing really well i even manage to go out and get drunk now!!! Who would of thought, two months ago I hadnt drunk in an entire year and now all I wanna do is go out with the girls and have a laugh its great. Although I still have to drive everywhere so If I wanna go home then I still can. The only thing with drinking is I can then get emotional easily and the next day when I'm hungover I find myself more irritated and anxious. Ive been out of routine due to waiting for a new job to start, at my current job im on the go on my feet all day at this new one im going to be at an office desk, I'm worried I will be more anxious as I won't know anyone and I'm not used to sitting still and being patient. My ex has been giving me grief and is mentally making me unstable so much so that I did cut myself the other day, but to be fair he told me he was gonna kill himself so I was hurting, it was very very stupid and I'm embarrassed. I'm finding IT hard to control my breathing as feel like I breathe really shallow and sometimes concentrate too much on breathing that I do it all wrong. Also teeth grinding how do I stop doing it all night long trying to get to sleep im a nightmare. Tips and tricks please share with me. Can I ask you all to pray, that a very good friend of mine has been diagnosed with a rare c****r, she needs us all to get her through this with our prayers she's only young but she's very strong, and she will beat this. All my love xxxxxxxxx Al

Hi ash, I wanna reassure you, someone very close to me has just been diagnosed with brain tumour/c****r and she had lots of obvious symtoms, severe headaches repeatedly etc, you really have nothing to worry about. Anxiety can create 100's of symptoms but none which can do us any physical danger xx All my love x

Having an anxious night feel like my hearts gonna stop and gonna have a heart attack? Does anyone else get this x x ive been really strong recently with regards to my anxiety but this week im having a few difficultjes again need to get a grip. Xx.

I went doctors and they said they think it's just a cyst but have referred me to the breast clinic just to be safe. It hasn't gone down at all but I am late on by a few days x xx x x

This evening ive been very anxious and just before going to sleep have found a lump the size of a pea on the very left of my breast high up though inbetween my breast and my armpit, it's very sore do u think this is breast c****r, or a blood clot or something serious Health anxiety sucks

Hey guys haven't wrote on here for a while so time to do an update. I used to come on here everyday for support and check everyone's symptoms and how they were coping however now I feel like I'm actually helping myself I'm doing things I want to do and not feeling as anxious don't get me wrong I still have my moment but I don't feel as though there's no hope anymore. I've ditched my horrible boyfriend and got a new job! Also for many of you that have read my posts before you know that I didn't drink due to fear of having a panic attack and being drunk so wouldn't be able to control it.. Well on Saturday night I went out with the girls got drunk had an amazing time and stayed out till 2.30am - I couldn't stay out past 9pm usually so I was quite proud of myself was nice to let loose and have a dance! I still have a long way ahead of me but guys believe me when I say this journey isn't an impossible one, at times we feel hopeless and scared but this journey does have a good ending for everyone with the right attitude. Sometimes we have to get a grip and get on with life otherwise next thing we know ten years will have gone by and we will still be worrying about something that's never actually happened. Live life don't stop. 'What you think you become' Quick question I still have trouble with teeth grinding and foot shaking to fall asleep my ankles constantly ache and my jaw is so tight and painful any tips? Thanks, All my love, Alice x x x

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