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[Jennifer 0]

Hi I'm Jennifer. I didn't know this site existed so I'm thankful to have found it. I have had anxiety for many years but panic attacks have became much worse for me in the last couple years if I think I will be left at home alone. I live in a small town and could go to events here but it has came to where I won't love home unless I walk across the street to my daughters. I have 3 daughters that I feel like one of them needs to be with me at all times. I know my problem is effecting them and I hate it. I have seen one doctor that came to my home and I'm too scared to take the medicine because of fear of what will happen to me. I know there is hope out there because I want my life back 

[Kylie21 357]

Welcome to AC! 

I hate being alone too . So know ur not alone lol as cliche as that sounds ... If meds frighten u maybe try other things that u are more comfortable with . Do you see a counselor /therapist ? Journaling ? And this site can def help . Look up Claire weekes books they are very helpful .  You can gain life back . But whatever triggered this had to be dealt with . And never try to go back to the way it was . Hoe we use to be got us to the anxious state, time for w new and improved YOU. And I, sure your girls love you and want u better to and understand that u need them . Support systems are Important, don't lose hope u can come out on the other side of this happy and good again , just remember it took time to get this way it will take time to retrain ur brain to be in more of a non anxious state . Best of luck . We are a great community it's here and always here to listen . 

[Cubmanben 134]

Kylie really hit the nail on the head on a lot of points Jennifer. Anxiety is a challenge, no doubt. But the challenge isn't to go back to where you came from, it's to move forward and forge a new and better life for yourself. There are a lot of people who just muddle through life and don't ever take the time or make the sacrifice to really take stock in themselves and where their life is at and where they want to go. In a strange way, anxiety gives us all the chance to assess who we are and what we really want to get, because there's no short cuts here. The way out of anxiety is learning to understand and accept your feelings. It's dealing with the panic and learning to let it pass. There's some work that goes on in that process, and everyone here knows it. The end result though is a really great thing, and you can and will get there!