I am bad at titles

[Tcsduo 10]

I also am not the best with words, but what I want to say is for about the past 9 months my anxiety has been at an all time low. After thinking for the longest time on why I had been feeling less and less anxious I came across a video that my cousin had sent me. During the time leading up to September last year I was working my ass of to get better, and that reason was I had a goal. My friend had a wedding that he asked me to be a part of. At the time I said yes I was having massive panic attacks everyday. I didn't want that to happen while there, so my goal became work to rid myself of panic attacks. Well I pretty much managed to do that. I used my goal, and a strong mindset of "I know I am okay, the things I am worrying about have been disprove en through tests." I would just say that in my mind over and over again until I felt calm. Even this morning I woke up with my left hand being numb. I began to worry, and could feel my heart racing. I just thought to myself, "I have some neck issues, and I know that I laid on my left side all night." I checked my heart rate, and while it is high because of weight issues I was at 82bpm. Still one of the craziest times was when my roommate asked if I was alright because I hadn't been freaking out the past week. At which point I realized I hadn't had a panic attack or anxiety for well a week. I was shocked almost into a panic attack lol, but I kept calm and carried on. Right now I have been fighting on and off with crippling depression (Woo!) but I am trying my best to win that fight til I can get back to see a psych or therapist. During this time though I have a few goals that I want to do. Just to make sure I always want to say them in my head or write them down when I can. So these are my goals sorry, but gotta stay on track. 1. Become successful at trading to provide for myself a means to a nice life. 2. Learn to speak and read Korean. 3. Travel to South Korea, UK, and Japan. I am aiming to do the first goal by the time I am 30. Sadly the depression has slowed me down, and I have been told that I am crazy by a few people. I have a cousin though who helps push me though. Anyways the one thing I have noticed is that over the 9 months I have had issues where anxiety has popped up  I just kept repeating my goals, and my mantra in my mind til it passed. I have been able to do things that I wasn't able to do last year.

 

Here is the youtube video though https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fqHGVtrPT_0 It is 30 minutes long, but honestly it is worth listening too.

 

Sorry for the poor well everything regarding the English language, and my ability to butcher it like no one can. (Hooray American public school system.) but remember Focus on your goal! Everyday think about your goal! and if you are a Shia LeBeouf fan Just do it!

[jonathan123 2368]

Hi Tcsduo.  Yes, good advice, but I would question his use of biblical quotations in regard to making money or having a better life. He quotes the Sermon on the Mount which is a blueprint for good living. When Christ spoke of gain and loss he was referring to spiritual gain and loss not material. "What does it benefit a man if he gains the whole world but loses his soul". To suggest that  biblical quotations can be used for making money and being a good salesman is missing the point entirely. A man can be poor materially but rich in spirit.

As Christ said to the rich man, "Give all you have to the poor, take up your cross and follow me". "Let the dead bury their dead". The rich man went away because he was 'very rich'. People who constantly seek material gain are the 'dead' to which Christ referred. There are many poor people in the material sense who have love and understanding in abundance. There are many materially rich people who are full of hate and envy and to whom acquisitiveness in their sole aim in life. This is all too much of a generalisation. This guy is himself conforming in that he is falling for the idea that we all start equal with equal opportunities. We don't, and that must be plainly obvious. A rich man's son who goes to Yale or Eton has a far better chance of getting on than a poor man's son. In anxiety we have lost touch with our inner selves, our real selves. The idea in the West is that we always have the opportunity to prosper if we are enthusiastic and have a goal. But what about the disabled, physically and mentally. The poor on the streets who have been abandoned by society; rich societies. The people, who through no fault of their own are living on benefit. There are no opportunities for them when unemployment in their town is running at 60%. Society has a lot to answer for when in the richest countries in the world people still go to food banks to be able to sustain life while the people with a 'goal', the bankers and others, walk away with a million dollar bonus. Society suffers from anxiety in its worst possible form. Is it any wonder that we individuals feel the same?

I agree about  having a goal and that what we have in our minds will materialise in our lives. My recent article 'Mind and Brain' says exactly that. But I was referring to anxiety not material gain.

To me a good heart filled with Love and compassion is worth far more than all the big bank accounts. Of course we have to live and when working earn a living. There is nothing wrong with ambition unless it gets out of hand, which it can so easily do so that we ride roughshod over our fellows to get 'there'. What this guy is talking about is the American Dream. It is the same dream here in the UK and all over the Western world. Having a goal is fine but not to the detriment of our integrity as human beings, compassionate human beings.

I wish you well in your studies and in your goal. If it helps your anxiety then it has to be good.    Jon.

[Tcsduo 10]

Hey Jon, I have to agree pretty much with what you said 100%. I will say when I was typing this out my main thought was more or less just came from a thunderstruck type moment where it all clicked in my head from  having a goal is when I felt my best. I was not really taking into account the quotes too much, and while one of my goals in life is to make money and well be rich. It is more my aim to help those who are poor after having a poor upbringing myself. I have sadly yet not had a chance to read that article, and probably going to do so after posting this haha.

 

Again thank you for your time. Tim

[jonathan123 2368]

Hey Tim. I do understand and I know your heart is in the right place or you wouldn't be on this site. Thanks for the reply.     Jon.

[Bones0013 43]

Hey duo! Haven't talked to you in a long time. Glad to hear you are doing good. Congratulations!

 

Jon, you hit the nail on the head. Glad to hear when someone understands meanings of the bible! People can easily take scriptures out of context.

[jonathan123 2368]

Hi Bones. They can and they do. Sayings from wise men are good no matter what their religion, race or location. I look at the teachings of Christ, not as a religious exercise but because, to me, they have the ring of truth. I believe He was a master psychologist and knew what made mankind tick. This applies to Buddha, Krishna and Mohammed and many others. The total distortion of these teachings are what has led to our present predicament. When people criticize Islam they should first read the English version of the Koran. I find no violence there neither do I find anything about killing innocent people.

But Muslim fights Muslim. Christian fights Christian. Why do we do it to each other? Distortions in the teachings of Christ led to the Inquisition and other atrocities committed in His name. All the great masters knew fear and anxiety. They saw it for what it was and gave blueprints for living a good life with compassion and understanding. What happened? People got hold of it and used it for gain and power. One of the real tragedies of mankind. I believe anxiety exists because we have lost touch with our true selves. We have no foundation on which to steady ourselves. Our house is built on the sand of materialism and greed. "Do unto others as you would have others do unto you". Simple words but how many do it? 

If we REALLY understood what was being said then anxiety would vanish, but we pay lip service to the teachings and they become meaningless.     Jon.