PennyPanic 268 Posted November 6 So like I literally live in absolute terror of my own skin. I found a new cherry angioma (benign...I have lots of them for decades) and that freaks me out. I have a new small scratch on my knee (no clue where that came from) and that's freaking me out. It's scabbed over on my knee with little scabs. Literally no clue...though a friends cat sat on my lap for hours this weekend and their little claws could have dug in (the cat loves me and never wants to get off my lap) and/or my little dog is always scratching and stuff...or whatever. I recently went (yes again) to the derm because I found another sketchy spot...that he burned and cauterized...it's taken a while to heal, there's still a small scab left...and that's freaking me out. Any blemish, imperfection, freckle, whatever that's new is freaking me out - and since of "of a certain age" and have lived in Florida my whole life...and gotten loads of sunburns from before people ever wore sunscreen.... I completely realize that this is NOT okay and NOT normal. I can't go every week to the derm...it's not right. I'm just terrified y'all...literally terrified of separation from those that I love. Terrified. My mother-in-law is doing very poorly...she's likely to pass soon and is suffering a lot. My own mother is not doing so hot either. My husband had a freak accident a few months ago which required surgery and months of physical therapy. Thank God he's okay...but he has permanent damage from it. My dog is old. She's mostly in great health for her age (God bless her) but she has her issues and her recent checkup had me freaked out. I'm just tired y'all...tired, scared and trying to keep everyone alive including myself. Of course add to the the horror of the last few years world wide and scary news all of the time. Thanks for listening. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Ironman 182 Posted November 6 1 hour ago, PennyPanic said: So like I literally live in absolute terror of my own skin. I found a new cherry angioma (benign...I have lots of them for decades) and that freaks me out. I have a new small scratch on my knee (no clue where that came from) and that's freaking me out. It's scabbed over on my knee with little scabs. Literally no clue...though a friends cat sat on my lap for hours this weekend and their little claws could have dug in (the cat loves me and never wants to get off my lap) and/or my little dog is always scratching and stuff...or whatever. I recently went (yes again) to the derm because I found another sketchy spot...that he burned and cauterized...it's taken a while to heal, there's still a small scab left...and that's freaking me out. Any blemish, imperfection, freckle, whatever that's new is freaking me out - and since of "of a certain age" and have lived in Florida my whole life...and gotten loads of sunburns from before people ever wore sunscreen.... I completely realize that this is NOT okay and NOT normal. I can't go every week to the derm...it's not right. I'm just terrified y'all...literally terrified of separation from those that I love. Terrified. My mother-in-law is doing very poorly...she's likely to pass soon and is suffering a lot. My own mother is not doing so hot either. My husband had a freak accident a few months ago which required surgery and months of physical therapy. Thank God he's okay...but he has permanent damage from it. My dog is old. She's mostly in great health for her age (God bless her) but she has her issues and her recent checkup had me freaked out. I'm just tired y'all...tired, scared and trying to keep everyone alive including myself. Of course add to the the horror of the last few years world wide and scary news all of the time. Thanks for listening. It sounds like you are internalizing all of the above stress and it's causing more distress. You need to take a deep breath and step back to see what is really going on. WIth anxiety, we have the ability to scare ourselves pretty easily - it keeps the anxiety going in a vicious cycle. 1 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
PennyPanic 268 Posted November 7 4 hours ago, Ironman said: It sounds like you are internalizing all of the above stress and it's causing more distress. You need to take a deep breath and step back to see what is really going on. WIth anxiety, we have the ability to scare ourselves pretty easily - it keeps the anxiety going in a vicious cycle. You are absolutely correct, Ironman. I almost think I cause myself to freak out as a coping mechanism for all the other stuff going on. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
