RLP 0 Posted July 24, 2019 I am so sick of myself. I am so sick of thinking I ran multiple people over with my car and didn’t notice. I am sick of thinking I filled out paperwork wrong and will be arrested. I am sick of thinking I will do something awful in my sleep. I am sick of counting things on my fingers over and over. I am sick of having to turn around halfway to work and making sure I didn’t burn my house down. I am sick of it all. To make matter worse something was wrong with the drive up ATM machine today and I messed up the amount I entered and now am panicking thinking that the cops will come arrest me for fraud tomorrow. I cannot afford my daughter’s medicine and I just known it’s my fault because of something I must have done in my youth. Or that I was stupid to have a child when I should have made more money first. I am sick of it all. I cannot turn my stupid brain off. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
MobileChucko 23 Posted July 25, 2019 Hi RLP!... Well, your post speaks volumes to me. I don't have to even read between the lines that you have reached a "bottom". That is what we call it in A.A., Alcoholics Anonymous, when a person reaches the end-of-the-line, and turns to anyone and everyone for help. Are you getting any professional help? If you live in the good old U.S.A., I am pretty certain you can find counselling to assist you, through your health insurance, or your work's human resource department. There may even be meetings in your community for people with OCD, 12-Step meetings that have helped millions of people all over the world, with all kinds of addictive and other mental health problems. You sure aren't alone in this. I have some OCD myself, and sometimes it's worse then others, but my psychiatrist told me it's good to have a touch of it, and most of the time that is all I have. Find some help, my friend, and the very best to you... Chuck🐈 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
RLP 0 Posted July 25, 2019 @MobileChuckoWhat does your doctor mean by “it’s good to have a touch of it”? I just contacted my insurance and they are emailing a list of in-network providers so I can get some help. Thank you for taking the time to respond. It doesn’t seem like many post in the OCD forum. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
MobileChucko 23 Posted July 26, 2019 Hi RLP!... That is such great news that you contacted your insurance company, and are going to get some help with your OCD! What my psychiatrist meant by it's good to have a little bit of OCD, is that it can make you more precise, more detailed to doing certain things. I imagine that many famous artists and musicians had or have some OCD. Well I wish you the best at getting your life more under control. Have a good night... Chuck🐱 1 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites