I relate to you so much. I have barely left home in 3 years. I have PTSD, panic disorder, constant anxiety, and agoraphobia. I left my high powered executive job 4 years ago. I lost absolutely everything....my home, my car, my pets, my phone, my bank account, my retirement. I don't know how to get back up anymore. My boyfriend (who I have lived with for 3 years) definitely resents me. I can barely move. My health is terrible. I'm on 5 different medications and I don't know what to do. I have had so many therapists I can't even count. I ABSOLUTELY lost who I was. I don't resemble myself at all. I'm SCARED to death. I wish I had something positive and hopeful to say, but all I've got is that I know how you feel. I am here, brand new to this group, because I'm looking for support, a way to get better, and to not feel like I'm the only person in the world going through this, because I feel like I am and I feel very alone.