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  1. Yeah, I also don't know of anything that "work" works. I do stick with some old standbys like drinking warm liquids and taking hot showers. I'd also recommend drinking a lot of water. Get well soon!!
  2. If you have reflux, I think what you could be feeling is gas pain in your chest. I don't have reflux, but I have had similar sounding pain and I was told it was probably gas. I think could be why it changes when you move.
  3. Those kinds of days are definitely hard. It can feel like things just pile up. It seems like you have a lot on your plate. Are you able to compartmentalize your day? That often helps me when I'm feeling overwhelmed. It also helps to break down the day into smaller portions: minutes, hours, and so on. I focus on staying positive for an hour or so. It makes the day seem less oppressive.
  4. I'm trying to really be mindful today of what I'm going through. I'm really going to focus on employing self talk. The onset of this episode of anxiety didn't just pop up. There was a defined beginning that occurred after I had a person experience with the disease I'm worried about. I need to stay mindful about the fact that I have had real bouts of HA. Yes, it has been awhile (several years) since I've had anything stick like this, but the experience is not new. Conversely, I have experience and tools to help navigate this. All this being said, it seems easy enough, but in practice it can be hard. I ended my day feeling pretty good yesterday, but I could feel the anxiety lurking around in the corners. The twitching is probably my biggest worry at this point. I'm going to keep reminding myself that anxiety and stress cause twitching. The brain can manifest twitches and spasms very easily. I woke up in the middle of the night and felt a brief twitch in my left arm and it unsettled me, but then a short time later I had a similar twitch (slightly longer in duration) in my right leg. I'm going to really work at this today. I know working past this is not something that happens in a single day. It will take time, but I'm going to do it.
  5. I went through a period where I had the same anxiety. I actually lost weight because I was afraid to eat certain foods as I didn't want to swallow them. There has already been a lot of great advice mentioned in this thread, but one thing that helped me get over that "lump in the throat" feeling was to realize that swallowing is a fairly complex automatic function. We normally don't think about it - we just do it. When we start thinking about the process of swallowing, however, we start not only noticing the process - but it can be easy to then focus on certain aspects that don't feel right.
  6. Yes - best of luck!! I've had a lot of luck with CBT. I'd go as far as calling it a life changer.
  7. I also experience some of my worst symptoms in the morning. It's a hard way to start the day for sure. For a very long time I tried to cram the door shut on what I was feeling, but I've recently started to "listen" to my anxiety when I get up. It has really helped me.
  8. I'm primarily worried about twitches in my left arm, but I've noticed them elsewhere. It feels like I have more of them in my arm, but I think (and hope) I'm just noticing them more than in other places. It can sometimes just be a single twitch and sometimes it is rapid burst of twitches - almost like a quick spasm. It can also be a persistent twitch, but it doesn't last long - maybe a few seconds - though it always feels longer. I definitely feel like I'm hyper sensitive to any little movement that doesn't feel normal to me and also that I can have a twitch in my leg and I can just let it go, but if it is in my left arm then it is proof that something is wrong with me.
  9. I have had a very similar sounding twitch. I remember going through a lengthy spell where it was a near constant thing. It was in my left hand right between my thumb and index finger. It would sometimes twitch and would sometimes jerk. I didn't think it would ever stop (and I was afraid to even mention it to anyone) and then one day it just did. It's interesting that you describe the strange pulled tendon feeling. I have something similar in my right calf. I've definitely felt it before (several times over the years) and usually associated with ALS fears. It feels like the muscle is tight/weak. It comes and goes, but always in conjunction with the worry about my arm. It gets to the point where I start overthinking how I am walking. I'll trip or feel clumsy and I will immediately associate it with weakness in my leg. It feels like what you're experiencing might also be anxiety related.
  10. I had a minor (it felt worse at the time) disagreement with my girlfriend yesterday. It started not long after I woke up and wasn't resolved until early evening. It consumed me during those hours and I can't recall experiencing a symptom during that span of time. I might have, but I was able to clear it from my mind and move on. It wasn't until that issue resolved itself that the worry started to creep back in. The twitches don't come around that often. Just enough to keep me off balance. They don't stick around very long. Usually just a quick telegraph of twitches and then they're gone. It feels like I can usually make them stop. I'm not new to HA, but I'm still "amazed" at how the brain can take over and manifest itself. I know that what I'm feeling is most likely anxiety, but I struggle to accept that. I'm doing the best I can, but I agree that using self talk to continue to tell myself that what I'm feeling is anxiety and not the disease I'm worrying about helps. It helps a lot and I hope that if I can keep doing it (and knowing I will fail at times, but sticking to it) that this worry will fade.
  11. I'm still "amazed" at how my brain can manifest something like a twitch. It almost doesn't seem real, but it happens. I can go through periods where I don't think about it and it doesn't happen and then just a fraction of a thought and it happens. It doesn't take much.
  12. I hear you. It feels like a fine balance. There is a hope that asking questions will give us something positive, but questions also breed additional questions. There was a time where I was going to the doctor every couple of weeks for a variety of things I thought I had. I would go and I would ask the questions and I would leave feeling better, but very soon new questions would develop and I would be right back where I started. That said, I do feel there is a benefit in sharing experiences and fears. I have definite questions about what I'm going through right now. I want to ask if I should be worried about this and that and I want someone who knows more than I do (at least I perceive they know more than me) to tell me no, that isn't what this disease would look like. I'm afraid to ask. I'm afraid to go in search of my own answers. I've been done that path and it is a bottomless spiral once you start searching for symptoms.
  13. I'm really, really sorry. That was not my intention. I have added a warning to the title.
  14. Ugh. I feel like my health anxiety is returning after several good years. It was really bad 5-10 years ago. I went from one crisis to the next and then I went through a divorce and life got very difficult and I found that my HA faded into the background. It has occasionally reared its ugly head, but for the most part I've been able to control it using self talk. Just over a month ago, a family friend was diagnosed with ALS. In fact, I was present when she made the announcement. I remember thinking that I hoped it would not trigger my HA and for several weeks it did not, but then it did. My logical mind can draw connections between what I experienced and what I am feeling. For instance, the symptoms I am worrying about mimic the symptoms she described to us. I know I was not thinking about this disease prior to her diagnosis. I've become aware of a twitch in my left arm. I'm aware of twitches in other parts of my body, too, and when I feel those I tell myself it's normal. When they're in my left arm, however, they're sinister. They appear every now and then and in different parts of my arm: my shoulder, my bicep, my thumb, and so on. There appears to be no rhyme or reason. They do not last long: sometimes a single twitch, sometimes a series of 5-6 twitches and then they're gone. They're just enough to remind me to worry. I'm also aware of a dull (and sometimes more than dull) pain in my arm. Our friend had talked about their being pain associated with dying muscles. I'm also finding myself thinking about loss of strength. I can't say I've experienced this, but I've become acutely aware of every little twist and turn with my arm. I was actually "testing" myself in the shower this morning by holding up my arms to see if my left felt weaker than my right. I can logically trace connections and tell myself this is why I am feeling what I am feeling. It makes sense. I have a close experience with someone who has the disease I am now worrying about and then I start mimicking the symptoms they had. That said, my illogical brain also kicks in and I find it easy to dismiss what I know to be true. It has not become a full blown obsession, yet. It is pretty much a constant thought in the back of my mind. I can go periods without thinking about it or feeling anything, but then it pops up. If I'm preoccupied I'm less likely to experience anything. I've managed to avoid Google up to this point. I'm hoping that just relating my experience will help. I used to be a very active member of this forum when I was going through the worst years of my HA so I know it can help to just acknowledge what I'm feeling. Any positive thoughts or words of wisdom would be much appreciated!!