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Yes I go every two weeks but I feel progress is very slow if any and I am just dying inside from lack of company

I think I have a disorder. The last time I was involved with someone was 1993. This is so embarrassing for me because I just don't feel normal. People always said "it will happen when you least expect it" and it never has. So here I am 45y/o and no one has even glanced my way since 1993. I shut down around men. I don't know what to do because the only thing I ever wanted was to have a love in my life, to get married and have a family and the years go by and I can't make it happen. I feel like such a failure because I look around and everyone seems to be able to attract people to themselves but not me. I hate going to family stuff because I am that spinster. Crying as I write because of the desperation. I am not a bad person. I am funny and intellectual and have many other good qualities. I just can't attract a man romantically and my life is passing me by without someone to share. For those of you who are on this forum and can even manage to find someone to date, good for you because it's at least a chance. I can't even get that far. Hoping to hear from those who can relate. Thanks.

Thank you for your replies it's very reassuring. What makes this so bad for me is that I have been in the medical profession for 20+ years and now I read medical evidence for a living. Not only do I google I google case studies and medical journal articles. I got the idea of hernia from the ultrasound tech and fixated on it. She asked me if I had any pain with heavy lifting while she was doing my exam and the place where I hurt is the exact place of a hard to diagnose rare hernia. I ran away with it.

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Hello friends, I have had this pain in my side pretty consistently since 3 weeks. I went for an ultrasound and it came back normal and now I've convinced myself that I have a rare type of hernia in that area. The hernia that I am speaking of develops between muscle layers and therefore may or may not present with a bulge. It is very hard to diagnose. Now because I made such a stink about it to my dr she wants me to go to the surgeon to be evaluated (which coincidentally I had made an apt with anyways). The thing is that I feel absolutely crazy for taking it this far. What if they say they have to do exploratory surgery all because I am so anxiety ridden. I do have a pain in my side and I am still going through with the appointment but I find myself wondering what will start hurting on me next after this is resolved and what if its only a pulled muscle? I am telling you I feel so nuts right now and yet I can't stop my thoughts of "what if I am right and I had that and I didn't get thoroughly evaluated?" OMG help me please.

hello friends, went for a pelvic ultrasound today and the tech did a real good job. She did my lower abdomen first and it didn't seem like she concentrated on any one spot. Then she asked me to show her where my pain was and I did and she went very thoroughly over the area she asked me if the pain gets worse with heavy lifting and when she was finished she said she had to check the images and left the room. I was just in there for an abdominal us yesterday and she didn't do that. I am suspecting she went to talk to the radiologist. She stayed gone like 10 minutes and then came back and told me I could go. Has anyone ever had an experience like this? With the question about lifting I thought she may have seen a hernia but my pain is right next to my right hip bone upper. Wouldn't that be a weird place for a hernia? Now I gotta wait the whole weekend to find out what's going on.

Hello Friends, they followed through and I am scheduled for the pelvic US today.

I went to an appointment for an ultrasound today and when I got there the tech didn't even get close to the area of my pain with the wand. I asked her what she was doing and she said my doctor ordered an ultrasound of the abdomen which only checks the kidneys, liver, pancreas and spleen. My pain is below my waistline and the doctors keep describing it as flank pain. Its abdominal pain below the waist I don't know why they wanna keep insisting I have kidney problems! So I went through with that appointment and then I called the doctors crying that I still had pain in my side and needed a lower abdominal exam (pelvic) I spoke to the nurse and she told me among other things that my appendix would be visualized ( peoples appendixes are right below their rib cage?) and that maybe I didn't describe my pain well enough to the doctor. In other words it was my fault that the doc did not order the right exam or that the tech performed it wrong and to take it up with them. So finally I convinced the nurse that I need a us of the pelvic and she said the doc would fax the order over to the imaging dept. So I call up and the girl who answers tell me that they are still waiting to see if the docs gonna order it. What? They told me they were gonna order it. I don't wanna spend a bunch a time finding a new doctor to order this exam. I am so distracted right now. I hate that I have to go through others to get what I need. Btw the upper US was fine (I knew it was gonna be).

Hello friends. I am tired of this. For 5 years I had headaches and I was finally able to get that figured out. Then it was chest pains and that got sorted out and now my doctor has sent me to get n ultrasound of my abdomen cause I've had this pain in my right side for almost 3 weeks now. The ultrasound is tomorrow. All I can about is that I have ovarian c****r. I have almost all the symptoms and if it's c****r and it's giving me pain it may be too late. I am truly frightened and have no one to talk to. If anyone has had this or experienced with it please talk to me. Thanks.

Hi I work in the medical field and I have seen enough serious imaging to know how doctors and radiology personnel react to serious imaging. If the medical personnel are imaging someone and they see something life threatening on a scan you wouldn't even be leaving the table you are on. They call the ambulance to come get you where you are lying. From what you say they let you leave the facility without comment and what's more the MRI says everything is normal. Its reassuring that the neurologist wants to see you tomorrow. That's a sign of a good doctor, in the meantime reassure yourself that you have made it this far, you have had pressure in your head, you were able to talk to a neurologist who ordered an MRI, you were able to go through with the MRI and now you will be able to see the neuro tomorrow and find out what the next step is (if any). Things are moving pretty quickly and before you know it tomorrow will be here. You can do this.

Hello friends, So I stopped having chest pains and so now I got this pain in my right side that started the week I was cleared of cardiac issues. So I have been having this pain off and on and strong since Tuesday. So last night I decided to go to ER at 4:00 am because I was scared that I have a hidden appendicitis. I say hidden because the only symptom I have is pain. No nausea, no vomiting, no diarrhea just pain and the pain was bearable its just I was so scared. So I went down there and it was great no waiting but I was seen by an ARNP. She didn't take any blood and she instantly ordered a CT scan. I asked her if there was another imaging she could do because ive had so many ct scans and the radiation is too much. She says like what? I say like an ultrasound. she says an ultrasound of what? I'm like my appendix or whatever organs are down there in the abdomen she says they don't do that because I guess they wouldn't know what to look for. She also said I should just go home and wait it out. So I have to wait until the potential deadly infection gets worse and ruptures before you will take me seriously? I hate the ER at 4 am. The staff are tired and snippy. This lady didn't take my blood she didn't do a thorough exam and she wouldn't consider other testing to get to the root of my problem. The only thing they did was test my urine which did come back positive for UTI but I have had UTI before even with kidney stones and the pain does not localize to the right side like that. She pressed on my stomach half heartedly and I didn't have and pain with that and I told her I was afraid I had appendicitis. She told me she has never seen an appendicitis that didn't hurt when the stomach was pressed on. She gave me a prescription for cipro and send me home happy to be rid of me I guess. So I came home and now I don't feel safe. My side still hurts but a little better than yesterday and the only thing that gives me solace is that its not getting any worse but I am still afraid. Also to note I have had this pain before and it lasts a little while then goes away. This time it has lingered. I was looking into the fact that I have a malfunctioning ileocecal valve. Just scared of appendicitis though

Hello Friends, I am looking into having weight loss surgery and part of it is doing a bunch of tests. So far I have cardiac clearance and did the nutritional meeting. I still have to do an upper GI series (which I am terrified of) and I did a psych eval today. I was not cleared on the psych eval because I was honest to the evaluator about my concerns regarding mental health after surgery and because I said I had anxiety with medical procedures. I asked questions as to how people cope with not being able to eat for comfort when the surgery is done. That concerns me and is why I am seeing a food addiction therapist for more than a year now but she said she didn't feel comfortable writing the psych eval for surgery. That is why I had to see the counselor from the surgeons office. So now I have to go back to my therapist and tell her to write a letter stating that she thinks I am emotionally stable and that therapy will continue after surgery. What bothers me is that most people don't present the way that I do because they don't have this blasted anxiety and they sail right through the process because they are either unaware or they lie. It seems my life is always that much harder because of stupid anxiety. Not that I want to sail through this process if I am not ready, I just wish it wasn't so difficult sometimes. Just wanted to vent. Thanks.

That is great news. I hope that if they do have an answer you get immediate treatment and relief

I get pains in chest and back also but don't know if its msg related. My pains can range from dull to sharp and come in waves. It comes on like once a year and I end up in the hospital thinking its my heart. But I always end up leaving with anxiety pills and a referral to see a GP about it. How do you know its from MSG? I ate at a Japanese restaurant on Friday and was in hospital on wed night. Msg doesn't last that long does it. Otherwise I eat at home.

In reply to the meds, I am very afraid of meds too. If I have to take a new med, I will do it in front of someone I trust, or I keep my phone in my hand and I have even debated taking them in the er waiting room. Just so that if anything happened I could get help right away.