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I think I have had this long sausage lump in my right side for years but cannot be sure. I only remembered it as recently I've had a bit of pain on and off in that area and felt it while examining. I got an upper abdominal scan done the other week for the pain and that was normal, but they never scanned my lower portion where the lump is. I spoke to a Dr yesterday. She was so rude. Just said I'm not a Dr and I'm not qualified to diagnose myself (which I wasn't diagnosing myself, hence why I made an appointment) and then she said its most likely my colon but to come in an get examined. I went into a different Dr today and she said she could feel what I was talking about and because I was skinny it could be my bowel but she referred me for an ultrasound anyway. The thing is the ultrasound is a pelvic one which I already had one done earlier this year and that only looks at the reproductive organs. She said the bowel can't really be seen on a scan, but surely a huge solid mass/tumor could? Ugh so frustrated. Seems like I may have to get a invasive procedure done such as a colostomy just to be sure. Im terrified of general anesthia so that would be my last resort. I cannot understand why a ultrasound or even abdominal CT scan couldn't see the bowel/or a tumor. Just so scared that I'm allowing this thing to grow and slowly kill me. I hope it's my colon, but I doubt it. I can feel lumps on the left side too but I think that's stool as it's separated and tends to change shape after a bowel movement. This one on the right is permanent. In certain positions I barely feel it other positions it almost pops out it's so prominent. I don't think it's a hernia as it's not visible to the eye and is more of a long sausage/tube rather that a pouch. Also the Dr examined it with her hands and never mentioned a hernia. Does anyone else have this long intestine type lump?

Movable lumps in inner bottom lip I developed a canker sore two weeks ago which has caused me to investigate my mouth and find a list of things to worry about. The sore no longer hurts, but I can still faintly see it. I also gave discovered loads of movable lumps inside my bottom lip, I don't know if they are glands, or if the canker sore is the dreaded C word and has now spread throughout my lower lip. Throughout this i also discovered two glands one on each side of my inner cheek near my molar. I went to a dentist and he referred me to an oral surgeon, even though he said they looked okay and he wasn't concerned. My boyfriend has all these things in his mouth too (I've looked), but I feel like mine are bigger. I'm 29 and a non smoker, but I'm still terrified of oral cancer. 😞

Hi everyone. To cut a long story short, I have been through a traumatic time recently. I had to make the most difficult decision of my life as a result of my anxiety (sensitive topic so won't mention it here), and weeks after this decision was made I had a panic attack that let to feelings of derealisation/depersonalisation. This was 3 weeks ago, and despite meditating, exercising, taking herbs/supplements, increasing healthy fats into my diet such as walnuts, flaxseed and avacado, going about my day in as normal way as possible, the feelings are still there. I keep having thoughts that the world isn't real, that everything I knew/had a connection with is a figment of my imagination. I feel at any moment I will go insane. I used to deal with this constantly many years ago. For the past 6 years its been a symptoms that has come and gone, but not impacted my life very much, so to have it back 24/7 makes me feel hopeless, as if i'm back to the beginning of my anxiety journey again, and that maybe this time it's permanent. Has anyone else felt with way for weeks/months at a time? And did it eventually pass? Thanks in advance!

Last year my male co worker started showing interest in me. I didn't have any feelings for him at this point (and had never had feelings for a guy at all in my 27yrs of living.) But after a while of him texting me and showing me attention at work, I had a dream about him. It was nothing weird, he simply lived next door to my mum (in the dream) and that was it. But for some strange reason that changed everything for me and my feelings for him became extremely overwhelming and unlike nothing I had ever experienced before. He continued to text and call me, despite me never making the effort to reach out to him first. I also would often ignore his calls on purpose and then txt him later to apologise for missing his calls. I also cancelled plans with him a few times. Anyway because of the covid lockdown we couldnt really go anywhere, so our first two meetups were at his house. The 2nd meet up we slept together, and it was after that, that things changed between us. He called me once after we slept together and that was it. He was never the 1st one to reach out again after that. Funny enough I accidentely called him twice while scrolling through old messages and he tried calling back both times. I also messaged him asking him for an explanation, and he said he was sorry that i felt that he took advantage of me and it was too serious of a conversation to have over text and he wanted to meet in person to talk about it. Anyway the day of the meet up came and he text me to say he slept in and that he would call me after I finished work. He never called. When i see him at work he always tries to make conversation with me, and tries to be kind to me. He even asked me if I was angry with him, which seemed like a stupidly obvious answer. When he tries to talk to me at work I act so dead and cold towards him, even though my heart is absolutely shattering inside my chest. I have tried moving on, I keep busy by going on trips, going to the gym, working etc I've even started online dating, but keep finding myself meeting up with guys that look like him. I truly feel like I love him with my whole heart and soul. I regret not putting in as much effort as he did. I regret ignoring his calls and cancelling plans. I regret never messaging or calling first. But I also regret ever falling for him in the first place because he has caused me the most unbearable pain and I honestly dont know if I will ever recover. Funny thing is he has no idea I feel this way about him. Even though we had a "relationship" i never told him I liked him, and never expressed my true feelings to him, and at work I act so cold and disinterested that he probably think I hate him. When im on dates with other guys, all I think about is him, when im at work all I think about is him, hes the first thing I think about when I wake up and the last thing I think about as I fall asleep at night. I have tried everything in my power to get over him. What am I meant to do? I am so depressed. How do you learn to unlove someone? Especially when you have to see them every week at work.

Thankyou John! I will reach out to him, and hopefully he can give me an explanation. Appreciate your response!

I've had anxiety surrounding relationships and commitment my whole life, and as a result never allowed myself to get into a relationship. This year at work, one of my co workers started showing interest in me, by asking for my number, talking to me a lot at work, texting and calling me and suggesting we hang out outside of work. At first I didn't have feelings for him, but then I had a dream about him and that changed everything. After that dream I became obsessed with him. We hung out at his house twice recently, and sorry if this is tmi, the second time I went to his, we were intimate with eachother. Now since that day he's only called me once. I don't know if he's lost interest as over the last couple of months he's usually been the one to make the effort my calling and texting first and when he would call i would usually not answer due to anxiety, and call back later. There were also a couple of times I cancelled/rescheduled us hanging out. So maybe he feels i'm not interested? I saw him at work yesterday and it was so awkward. He didn't really say much, but I guess I dont blame him as there were other staff members around, but if wouldve been nice for him to call or text me to explain why hes been so silent lately. Our last interactions together were fine, we never fought or argued and he seemed to be enjoying his time with me. Now i'm doubting that. I feel so anxious and depressed. My life has been unbearable lately with health and financial problems, and having him show interest in me bought me a glimmer of hope during a really dark time. Now instead of helping me through this painful time in my life (he has no idea of my personal struggles) he's just added to the pain, making it almost impossible for me to get through the day, because my anxiety is so intense. My obsessive thoughts have been hell. I can't stop doubting he ever liked me. Re reading old messages, replaying memories of him in my mind. My mind tells me that all our positive interactions with eachother never happened at that I made it all up. 😞 I can't believe I finally open myself up to love for the first time in my 27 years of life, and end up getting hurt like this. I truly like him, and I hate that i've invested so much time and emotional energy into someone that obviously doesnt like me back. Everyone else I know are in happy, stable relationships, I finally get a taste test of what that's like and it doesnt even last more than a few months. It's so cruel. Im not like other girls where I can easily develop feelings for a guy. It takes a lot for me to feel something, and I can't imagine feeling this way about anyone else again. 😞 I'm not sure what to do. The fact that there's no genuine reason for his loss of interest, and how our last experience together was a positive one, is what kills me the most. If something happened to make him loose interest, then I could be a little more accepting of the whole situation, yet, there's something inside of me that still hopes that things will work out between us, which I know is wrong. 😞 Friends have told me I should call him and ask him for an explanation, but I've always had trouble being the first one to reach out. Sigh....sorry for the long post. Just not sure where to go from here.

Ive had one at the back of my right shoulder for almost two years. When i first found it, i got three ultrasounds, blood work and got a specialist to look at it, and they said it was okay. But it sometimes feels bigger/smaller, and i havent had it tested for years. Has anyone else had a swollen lymph node that never went down?

So for the past year i’ve been living with a friend of mine and it’s been perfect, but now the lease has ended and we have to leave. I’ve been looking for apartments for months now, and it’s been extremely difficult. Living with a stranger, although it would be cheaper, it would be too much for my anxiety. Everyone i’ve spoken to about it just cannot understand why I can’t suck it up and live with people I don’t know. But to me the idea itself causes me to go into a panic attack. Is it normal to feel that way about living with strangers? Or am I just being high maintenence? My second (and only other option) is to live alone, and even that causes me great anxiety. I love being myself for periods at a time but the thought of being alone 24/7 particularly at night makes me super anxious too. This whole situation has made me feel so down and depressed. A majority of people these days lives with strangers, it’s such a normal part of our society, so why can’t I get it together and find a shared house to live in, instead of stretching my finances to live alone, and become isolated and lonely. 😞

So I recently got a second job as a casual aged care lifestyle assistant. I start in two weeks but am already having severe anxiety over it. Not so much because i’m nervous, but because the manager told me that I have to be available until 3.30 pm and my other job starts at 3.00pm. In the interview she suggested that she could make the shifts more flexible and allow me to finish at 2.30, at least in the beginning. But now she’s saying that after the first two weeks I have to be available until 3.30, which would mean having to delete some shifts from my current job which I do not want to do. I’m so torn. Even though my current job (kitchen assistant in an aged care home) isn’t the the most respectable or highly qualified job, it’s familiar to me, and the everyday routine of going there, working with people i’ve known for years brings me comfort. And you all know how important that is for an anxiety sufferer. Do you feel that I could try and negotiate with the manager at my new job? I’m hoping that after the first two weeks of trial shifts she might like me enough to be a little more flexible, but i’m worried she won’t and then I might have to give up a majority of shifts at my old job. :( Any advice would be appreciated!

I have had these two lymph nodes for a few months now. I’ve had three ultrasounds on one of them and a full blood workup, but haven’t had the other checked yet. I’m seeing a specialist next week and i’m absolutely terrified. Has anyone else had swollen lymph nodes for a long period of time and it was nothing serious?

Did he ever get them biopsied?

I’ve had two ultrasounds and a full blood work up and everything came back normal. They even said in the second ultrasound it had gone down a little bit. I’m terrified to get a biopsy, but i’m also terrified just to leave it. Has anyone else had one that lasted a long time, but it ended up being nothing?

I got another ultrasound on the shoulder lymph node as well as one on my neck (because i could feel a lump there) the ultrasound came back saying the lymph node in my shoulder has gotten smaller and that my neck appears normal with no swollen lymph nodes(even though i can still feel a lump when i touch it). The dr also did extensive blood work and said everything was normal. He said come back in a month for a review but everything looks fine. Should I accept this?

Three weeks ago I noticed a small lymph node on the back of my right shoulder. I got an ultrasound and they said it just looked like a reactive lymph node. At the time I had a ear piercing infection, but it's been three weeks now and the ear piercing infection is better, while the lymph node is still there. I'm terrified of having to get a biopsy as I know that's the only way to determine if it's benign or not. Has anyone else had a swollen lymph node and it turned out to be nothing?

Dr said its not ms, but is sending me to a Neurologist just to be sure. I seriously can't take any of this anymore. I've been dealing with so many health symptoms over the years, it just seems to be never ending. And i'm only 25, and lead a very healthy lifestyle. Has anyone else had white spots found on their brain before? And it been nothing serious?

Dr said its not ms, but is sending me to a Neurologist just to be sure. I seriously can't take any of this anymore. I've been dealing with so many health symptoms over the years, it just seems to be never ending. And i'm only 25, and lead a very healthy lifestyle. Has anyone else had white spots found on their brain before? And it been nothing serious?

About two weeks ago i started getting a burning prickling feeling in my arms and legs, After about a week it started to fade (its still there a little bit) only to be replaced with extremely weak limbs, to the point where it feels difficult to walk or type. One of the blood tests tested for autoimmune conditions and it was all normal. If you were in my position would you push for a brain scan, or try and accept that all the blood tests were normal?

For the past 9 months i've been dealing with terrible bladder symptoms, burning,stabbing pain etc, now this past week the bladder symptoms seem better and i have a new even more horrendous symptom. Burning nerve pain and tingling in my arms and legs. I've already been to the ER for this and all my vitamin levels are normal so now my dr is testing me for autoimmune disorders. i'm terrified. I'm only 25, i've dealt with my fair share of symptoms and now i have this awful 24/7 symptom. I hate how my body does this. In a split second it will create a symptom and then the symptom becomes constant.

What does yours feel like?

The last three days ive been dealing with this sensation as if little droplets of heat have been falling on my skin. Ever since it started it's been constant. i had this three years ago and it went away, but i'm terrified that this time it wont go away. Anyone else had this?

Thankyou for the information. The dr did send the urine for culture and it came back normal. Did your constant full bladder sensation ever completely go away? Would you say your able to live a normal life?

I realise now how ungrateful I must have come across in this post. These past three weeks i've been dealing with some physical health issues, and it has really put things into perspective. I cannot believe a couple of months ago I was complaining that I felt low and depressed because my vacation of a lifetime was over. I'm glad you had a nice night out with your friends, maybe you can try and organise to get together once a month?

One evening, three weeks ago I started feeling as if I constantly needed to urinate, even after I had emptied my bladder. I went to the DR, did a urine test, which showed microscopic blood but no infection. A week later the DR retested and the blood had gone, so he sent me for an ultrasound. My bladder and kidneys appear normal, but the ultrasound did show an ovarian cyst which i'm currently getting checked out. It's been three weeks and i'm still dealing with this constant full bladder sensation. I've been reading about people with interstitial cystitis who have dealing with this for 11 plus years, and now i'm convinced i'm going to have to live with this symptom for the rest of my life. I already deal with countless other physical symptoms, and the thought of having to live the rest of my life feeling like my bladder is full, is unbearable. I can't understand how at 24, most people my age are at the prime of their lives, healthy and happy, where as I seem to be constantly dealing with some sort of physical symptom. Has anyone else dealt with a constant full bladder feeling, and had it get better over time?

Thankyou for your replies! It's been a rough week, I know I should be grateful for the experience, which I am! But I just cannot help but feel down and confused. I thought this trip would help me find myself, but it's actually done the opposite. I'm now more confused about the direction of my life, than I was before my trip. I loved Canada so much, i've even been considering the idea of living there for a while, but that idea terrifies me, more than it excites me. I guess i feel so low, because i'm 24, and I had a lot of hope that this trip would help me decide what to do with me my life, now i'm absolutely clueless as to where i should go from here.

So early this morning I got back from a 3 week vacation in Canada and the USA. This trip has been on my bucket list for the past 5 years, and I finally bit the bullet and decided this was the year I was going to do it, despite my anxiety. The entire trip I just couldn't accept what was happening was real. I had to keep pinching myself, because the experiences I had just felt too good to be true. I'm home now, and I feel so low. I keep randomly crying, and everything seems unfamiliar, even my bedroom. I had an amazing time, and am so proud of everything I achieved (including a 15 hr flight alone), but I just hate that today I am feeling so awful. Why does this happen? When something good happens in my life, I cant accept it's real, and then once it's over I get extremely emotional. Has anyone else felt this way?