Thank u all for the warm welcome. It is such a huge relief to finally find people who understand. As for the benzo weaning, it's going very slow. I've went from 10mgs 3 times a day for so many llong yrs to 5mgs 1 time a day and found I can go bout 2 days without one but that 3rd day usually I start getting a sick feeling. Body feels heavy, vertigo and just yucky feeling kicks in. :-\ but I try to focus on how far I've came and not get upset about it. It's so frustrating that doctors got me dependent on these and now they don't want to prescribe them anymore. It's ridiculous. So anyway thanks again u are all sooo sweet and caring. Makes me smile. Peace....