I need some sleep . But I don't want to have to wake up with this feeling in the morning . If someone gets too close I will break . He ****d me and I considered him family . I thought about s****de when this first happened . I thought it'd be better that way . But then I got better and I got hopeful and even started enjoying being around people again . And now I'm back . I'm stuck in a hole with no way out . Mental illness is real . It's just as painful as physical illnesses . I need someone to hear me . I need someone to believe that I am in pain . That I am breaking into a million tiny pieces for only me to pick up . I need someone to understand this pain . Im screaming yet no one can hear me .