I was first diagnosed with minor depression about 20 years ago. Over the past several years it has devolved to include anxiety, then severe depression, then severe anxiety. Then came continuous thoughts of s****de. Then I decided to try to do it. Of course I messed that up. I committed myself to a psychiatric hospital for a couple of weeks. Now, about a month later, I get the most terrifying thoughts while sitting in my office at work. I am convinced there are people in there that mean to do me harm. I never have the nerve to look behind me because that is when something will happen. That goes on for about 20 minutes. It happens at home also.
