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that was sensible, so thank you for sharing. im actually finding more interesting things to do. im trying to step back from the things that make me feel anxious but it is kinda hard at sometimes especially when its a person. and he is special to me. but, from what i am seeing, our relationship doesnt working good. i love him but the more i hold on the more i become anxious. i dont know what to do.

thank you guys.. its just that there are times that i feel like my head is heavy and i dunno how to carry it. im trying to divert my attention in interesting stuffs but when i start to feel bored, my thoughts rushing like a river.. then ill get stuck and drowned. ugh

i need someone to talk to. but i don't know whose the right one to approach. i dont have family or friends.

Well, i would agree with your perception, Jon. I really found that verse interesting to share here because of of worries that i have before. worries makes anxiety. If we will just give our trust in God then we will not worry that much and our anxiety will go away little by little. I am wishing to encourage some hearts here that is suffering from much worries. I love posting here, to give even just a little inspiration to everyone. Cheer up guys and embrace the precious life that God gives to us.

Luke 12:22-26 22. Then Jesus said to his disciples: "therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what will you eat; or about your body, what you will wear 23. For life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. 24. Consider the ravens; they do not sow or reap, they have no store room or barn; yet God feeds them and how much more valuable you are than birds! 25. Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life 26. Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest? This is one of my favorite verses in bible. I would like to encourage everyone to read the Bible. And of course to have a relationship with our God. He listens all we need is to call him through our prayers. God can stop the storm we are facing, all we need is to trust Him. With Him, we will never ever feel alone because we are all His child. God is our best provider and He would give us the great courage. Let Him live in to our hearts and lead in to our lives. God bless everyone!

Thank you Jon I would be interested to look for that article. I am glad that you continuously sharing sensible article that make me feel more brighter. I hope that everyone here were ding fine all the time. God bless us.

i agree with that saying. If we will just strive hard to show some love for ourselves each day (though its kinda hard during our dark days) we could lessen our anxiety. and im working on that by making myself busy in good things like shopping a little at the grocery to buy some thing healthy to prepare and eat. you know just making a good meal for yourself feels like a success especially when you feel like you cant do anything good. and whenever i got extra time i surf the net about something inspiring or funny so that somehow i could laugh. every time i feel bad i write it down, by that i am releasing the tension inside. i share this because i am thinking that it could also help others.

Thank you very much Jon i am really glad to be here and i find it helpful to speak out what i have in my mind, and release what i have in my heart through this good site. And i am encouraging everyone to post any positive thought they have in their mind even if it just little, even if it just one sentence because one day you'll just see that you'll have more. i believe through this way you would start to feel hope. And as you continue counting your blessings it will grow. One day you'll wake up free from negativity. Lets love ourselves, lets believe to ourselves. Maybe it is still dark, but on the right time, sun will shine for us. Just don't ever give up.

there are lots of thoughts lingering into my mind right now. and while thinking about it, my tears fell down to my cheeks. i have a lot of question to myself. for the past 24 years, i live in lies and regret. im getting 25 this year. and yet, i dont have anything in my hands. i dont have anything that i could call my own. this year, i say to myself that i must think wisely, use my time wisely and spend it to people wisely. there is no room for major mistakes. i must be very careful when it comes to decision making whether its about small things. i need a regular job. i need to save even little by little. i need a peaceful and safe shelter. i must strive hard to live well so at least, i would never die in regret. i must start filling my heart with positive thoughts even without others help. i know i could make it as i let go all the bitterness i had in my life. i realize that i want a better future. im stuck blaming myself for everything that cause me not to get all of this and it ruined me, it stop me for believing in myself to achieve what i want and what i must have. i realize that i must use my mistakes as a stepping stone to move forward. even no one is here for me. self confidence is much enough to build a better future. and when we do it right, God will surely be with us.

Actually i didn't seek for any professional advice yet. I want to, but im afraid. My bf is counselor, he always cheer me up.. but sometimes, i am making him upset especially when i cant do what hes asking me to do. i know that he is trying his best to help me a lot. but you know, i really find it hard to put my focus on. I easily forget things, i am being careless. And those are things that he don't like about me right now, we are having understandings and its really hard for me, especially because i only talk to him. i feel really really down right now. hopeless that people around me could understand me. PS. i read that "fake it till u make it" its encouraging thank you.

thank you, i will read that. its just that i feel so down and i cant control being sad. its really painful inside. like its killing me. but then after i cut my wrist i feel better. it helps a lot. now i am feeling calm.

at some times, i feel like i want to get cured. im really looking forward to live normally like others. but every time i try harder it feels like im stuck, as if i will never be normal. i always failed and some times it makes me think that i better die. striving hard is useless. im still worthless.

Whew, thank you a lot.. I hope that one day everything will be ok. Im tired to fucked up things over and over again, i never intend to do it on purpose but sometimes im helpless when my illness starts to control me. poor desicions making me look like im stupid. thank goodness to this site, somehow i feel like i am normal.