Where do I go?

[creative ineptitude 1]

About four months ago I lost the job I have had for nine years. I had tried a couple of times back then to get the help I need. It really didn't work, money and time were always a factor. Now I have the time being unemployed but no money. Is there anyway to get the help I need? As much as I hate to admit it, there is a small part of me that wants to get better.

I have a lot of both physical and mental issues and it is just overwhelming. There is more of me that wants it all to end soon and a very tiny part of me, like a single drop in the Atlantic Ocean, that wants things to get better. It seems though that when I try to do better something ten times worse takes it away.

 

Years ago I tried to do the healthy thing. I was working out and eating better. Nearly a year later I had problems with stamina and strength, I was also gaining weight. Frustrated I finally went to a doctor where he diagnosed me with low testosterone. I was given a prescription but could not afford it. The job I had I was finally putting money away and saving up, it wasn't much but for me it was a start. I was no longer just spending money like I would always have it. Well not long after the company closed it's doors. These are just a very minor selection of the problems I have had to deal with over the years.

 

So how does an old, unemployed loser get the help he needs?
 

[jonathan123 2368]

Hi creative. Old. 40. Loser!!!  Welcome to AC. My goodness you have your share of bad luck, no doubt about it, and you seem to losing heart which is not surprising. I won't jolly you along and say that it's OK, all will be well. I am a lot older than you and have seen some really sad cases recover so I never give up on anyone. Where there is a spark of hope then that is the part to build on. "Just a drop in the ocean". That's enough to start building on. After all, the ocean is made up of tiny drops. First of all try and forget your age. I know how difficult it can be to get a job here in the UK let alone the States. (I know you must live there when you said you could not afford the prescription). Also you are only a loser IF YOU BELIEVE YOU ARE. Do you think you can build on that tiny drop? Life is made up of trials and tribulations but most people manage to overcome. That does not mean you are deficient in any way but a belief in yourself is important. Try to cultivate that belief. We are here to listen so if you want to come back do so.    Jon.

[creative ineptitude 1]

I am not sure exactly sure where you are going with your post.

[Stones345 32]

Jon is saying that you have to start to believe in yourself even if it is with only that one tiny drop in that big ocean. And if you keeping telling yourself that you are a loser then you will ultimately believe only that.

 

First of all, look at only piece at a time. When you look at the whole picture of what has transpired for you it can be very overwhelming. Take a piece of it... lets say work. Have you looked on Craigslist for employment? There are multitudes of jobs on it on every level as well as full or part time work.

 

If mental health takes priority then try http://www.mhanj.org/nj-mental-health-cares-helpline/   explain your isssues to them and see how they can help/direct you to get the services you need.

 

If you need insurance, what about the Obamacare website? Surely you would quality for medical insurance on there.

 

The thing is, the power is in your hands to reach out and try and get the help you need. But ONLY one issue at a time. Decide what's most important to you and build on that for now.

 

You are not alone in this... as Jon said we are help to help and support each other.... keep us posted please....

[creative ineptitude 1]

Thanks for the link, in all my searches I never came across that site.

 

There is no first or small steps. I need a job but my anxiety makes it hard to even look for jobs let alone go for an interview. Thing is there is not much I can do anymore. I can't take a job that has me dealing with people. I don't have the strength to work heavy duty jobs, I am lucky I can stand for more than an hour or so before I get really sore. Lately I have been having memory problems so even if I get training for a job I will most likely forget what I was taught. If yesterday is anything to go by. So I am pretty screwed with the job thing.

 

If I go mental health, I just can't afford it. It also means trying to get to the doctor's office. And because this world is not equal I will have to pay full price and not be given any help.

 

I trust osamacare as far as I can throw the idiot who came up with it. The care program works for a few groups of people, the very poor, the illegals and the rich. I join that site they will have police here arresting me for not getting a job sooner and paying into the system.

 

Problem is to get anything done in this world you need money and a lot of it. Can't get a job until I can get help, can't get help unless I have money, it really is an endless cycle.

[workoutkid19 2]

Why do people fall before they can walk? The answer is so they can learn to get back up and keep moving forward. life is huge and for some it's a very very scary place brotha. No one can make you find that motivation or light again. But we can guide you and hope that somehow you find your path you should be on. One door closes sometimes it's the only door we ever go through. But another door opens. You may not like that door and you may even be scared to where it leads . But it takes you somewhere right? You never are stuck brotha. Life's a pain and it loves to make you give up. Loves when you hate it loves when your scared but why show fear to a bully . Just puts the gasoline on the fire so it's on you to show it no fear . Fear doesn't exist . Danger does. Fear is ones imagination telling them selves something dangerous will happen. But why let your thoughts scare you when future is always changing. You lost a lot but some how man you kept it together. Somehow you paid your bills somehow you get up ! Some how you found this site to help you get through it. Everything happens for a reason. Maybe all this was meant. Maybe your meant for a bigger purpose. Without struggle their will never be no importance of what you accomplished. You will be okay. Everything will be okay. ANXIETY comes with life. The doctor just forgot to tell us when we came out our mothers lol. You'll be okay.

[creative ineptitude 1]

I didn't need to fall. Forty years of dealing with this crap when is it supposed to get easy? I really hate those kinds of sayings. I am not being trained for what is to come later in life, cause if this is the training then I do not want to be here for what I am being prepared for.

[Stones345 32]

No one is ever guaranteed that life is supposed to be easy. We are all dealt the hand that we have and we try to make the best of it. It's understandable that you have the attitude that you do because you are in a very depressed place right now and you basically just keep asking yourself, what is it all for? None of us knows the answer to that creative and to try and rack your brain to figure it out it is a waste of energy.

 

You spoke in your earlier response to me about your issues just being a continuous cycle. Like I had stated, if you focus on the big picture you are correct, it is a circle game. You need to make a first step to stop the circle... contact the site I sent you to get some mental health help. You are assuming that you are going to need lots of money to get anything started. That is not always true. Because of my financial situation, the therapy I was in for 2.5 yrs was only $15 a session. They may also be able to help or direct you in the other areas of your life that need attention.There is help out there and it may just be only a few phone calls away. You have nothing to lose..

 

Take the first step and call...