feel like a complete failure

[Gizmo1607 8]

My anxiety started 18 months ago, hit without any warning, 1 minute I was sociable loving life, working, being a great mom the next day I was agoraphobic no explanation! For 18 months I have felt like such a failure to my son, hes 3 an because of this horrible horrible anxiety he is forced to stay in side with me day in day out. Obviously I've had good days, but the bad seem to come full force. Its a beautiful day outside an all he wants is to go to the park an I can't even do that. He is so bored an I feel so bad. I always believed everything happens for a reason but what reason is the for this?! I was 22 loving life an now i don't even have a life, an neither does my poor son. There is nothing fair about this.

[JOYCICLE 654]

Aww Gizmo, I'm sorry. You're not a failure. This is a rough patch.  Are you seeing anyone to talk with ? 

[Gilly 1086]

It is not fair, you are right. But you are NOT a failure, anxiety can be cruel but please don't blame yourself, you are a warrior like all of us and it won't always be like this. There are fun things you can do with your son to keep him occupied indoors, make a fort, or do face painting, something like that. Agoraphobia is rough, but you will get better again, I have faith you will.

[KMilner71 7]

I read something once and it has stayed with me and when things seem to be endlessly difficulty I remember what I read, " Anxiety is not a weakness, anxiety comes from trying to be strong for to long." Don't loose faith, you can get better and lead a normal life.

[LawrenceBell 3]

You love your son so much and not being able to make him go out doesnt mean you are a failure. You never want this anxiety, no one wants. Dont ever lose hope, one day you will the courage to face your fears and your life will be normal again. You will get to play outside with your son again. You are stronger than your anxiety. Are there any family members of yours, you can ask to go out with your son?