The mountain

[GMan 5]

Lately, it’s become harder and harder to climb this daily mountain. With nocturnal attacks disrupting sleep, my day starts at level 10. I have to climb this mountain of panic disorder and anxiety just to be somewhat functional. By the time I get to a point where I can move around a little, it’s bedtime. I dread going to sleep because I have to start all over when I wake up. Rinse, wash, repeat. I’m tired 

[Ironman 190]

On 8/30/2023 at 12:30 PM, GMan said:

Lately, it’s become harder and harder to climb this daily mountain. With nocturnal attacks disrupting sleep, my day starts at level 10. I have to climb this mountain of panic disorder and anxiety just to be somewhat functional. By the time I get to a point where I can move around a little, it’s bedtime. I dread going to sleep because I have to start all over when I wake up. Rinse, wash, repeat. I’m tired 

I know the feeling.  It has been starting to creep back for me as well.  It takes thought training to assess what you can work on and what you can't.  Break everything down.

[Wonky 92]

Post here and lets climb the mountain together... we can do it....

[Thrufaith 9]

 Im climbing with you....each day the climb gets harder and the struggle becomes more real, but knowing we are not alone and we can climb this together will help us through  it. 

[GMan 5]

Thanks! I’m not sure why it’s been so difficult lately. Usually after an intense attack, my body comes down after a while. Now, it comes in several waves. When I think I may be coming down some, the wave comes again. Every thought, every sensation brings another wave. Eventually, I’ll come down to a point where I can somewhat function. I don’t really know how to deal with this… since panic disorder always manages to find something new to attack with. These waves are like one big panic attack that lasts for over an hour, or 2 or 3. I’m trying to find a doctor to transition to since my insurance changed. Hopefully medicine, or something will work. I’m just not sure if I can deal with the attacks enough to go inside the appointment. At the moment, I can’t really go inside anywhere without the attacks. Even trying to sit outside and enjoy a breeze causes attacks. Not really able to handle the sensation of how warm it is outside, the sun, and feeling like I’m too far from anywhere to lay down. I hope I can find a telehealth doctor that can prescribe something for the panic. 

[Ironman 190]

1 hour ago, GMan said:

Thanks! I’m not sure why it’s been so difficult lately. Usually after an intense attack, my body comes down after a while. Now, it comes in several waves. When I think I may be coming down some, the wave comes again. Every thought, every sensation brings another wave. Eventually, I’ll come down to a point where I can somewhat function. I don’t really know how to deal with this… since panic disorder always manages to find something new to attack with. These waves are like one big panic attack that lasts for over an hour, or 2 or 3. I’m trying to find a doctor to transition to since my insurance changed. Hopefully medicine, or something will work. I’m just not sure if I can deal with the attacks enough to go inside the appointment. At the moment, I can’t really go inside anywhere without the attacks. Even trying to sit outside and enjoy a breeze causes attacks. Not really able to handle the sensation of how warm it is outside, the sun, and feeling like I’m too far from anywhere to lay down. I hope I can find a telehealth doctor that can prescribe something for the panic. 

The waves are trying to fuel the nerves.  The thoughts are fueling the nerves.  That is the cycle unfortunately.  The key is to take each thought captive and find out how much it is worth worrying about or whether you can do anything about the issue.