The thing that broke me

[RachelStorm98 12]

This is kinda health anxiety related, but not about anxiety itself if that makes any sense. I don't know if this was the right place to share this, but I wanted to share it with everyone. The thing that broke me out of being a hypochondriac (health anxious.) Is actually being sick.  I have been sick for 4 weeks now, and I am no longer scared about health related things now that I am actually sick. I was officially diagnosed with C DIFF which I am currently trying to treat with antibiotics. (Sadly I can only afford one type of antibiotics so I hope that this takes care of it.) Well on top of the C Diff, I also was diagnosed with a liver hema-something (I can't remember exactly what it is called off of the top of my head, but basically it is a benign tumor.) I may have to have it surgically removed, since it is large enough to be causing me symptoms. So it has been hectic. The rectal bleeding was caused by an anal fissure. (Have to get that fixed.) and I also have a hiatal hernia. I regret being so anxious about things because now that I am actually sick I feel like I wasted my life. I'm hoping I can feel better soon, and I am working on getting better so I don't have to suffer with health anxiety anymore. I will say that being actually sick has really opened my eyes. I don't even want to be anxious anymore. I want to help other people who are going through what I was going through. 

[bin_tenn 1252]

Dealing with a legitimate illness, no matter how severe or harmless, is always a good display of the body's ability to distinguish (and properly handle) a real threat, of sorts, versus a story / ailment fabricated by anxiety. With anxiety, we believe we have things wrong with us, but deep down we always know it isn't true. If we truly believed it, we would genuinely attempt to find answers.

Good luck, I hope you feel well soon. Sounds like your provider(s) will take great care of you.