Tbaldwin7 10 Posted November 1, 2018 This is the first forum ive ever been on, day by day my anxiety and its symptoms have gotten worse, I am 21 years old and suffering from a very bad case of everything. I had a anxiety attack a month or so ago and have had a bad case of depersonilization, ive had this before at 16 but it went away, now it is back and worst than before. Ive also developed new anxiety symptoms both physical and mental, ive had rapid eye movements but they arnt so bad anymore, shortness of breath, fear of a bunch of stuff, the MOST IMPORTANT issue I need help on, is that ive had some pretty dark invasive thoughts such as when picking up a baby, (throw it) other things on that line, racist slurs in my head when looking at the opposite color, things that are nothing like me, I'm a super nice person, I want to help people as a job one day, and thoughts like this are scaring me and above all that, I've been having very delusional thoughts such as ive been seeing 66 lately the number and I instantly think that I'm about to be possessed by the devil with super bad dreams as well, or every little thing that usually means nothing gets me thinking it means something more, and sometimes I even know its BS but I still keep thinking about it like its really happening or going to, like when I googled seeing numbers, someone said that people who see numbers got abducted by aliens, and so even for a breif moment I accepted it as that, I feel like I'm going to lose my mind and be in the looney bin, thinking about my future with my GF or future job is impossible now, wondering if in a year or so ill be completely delusional. My thoughts seem to be getting more and more crazy by the day and sometimes I even believe them, ...someone please explain this too me. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Bterflymom 155 Posted November 1, 2018 I strongly suggest that you see a psychiatrist asap, you have a lot of disturbing symptoms and might need some medication to help you. I have had anxiety and depression most of my adult life but I see a therapist and a psychiatrist and do take medication for it. Please see a specialist, could be something that is easily taken care of. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Tbaldwin7 10 Posted November 1, 2018 43 minutes ago, Bterflymom said: I strongly suggest that you see a psychiatrist asap, you have a lot of disturbing symptoms and might need some medication to help you. I have had anxiety and depression most of my adult life but I see a therapist and a psychiatrist and do take medication for it. Please see a specialist, could be something that is easily taken care of. Thank you! I am seeing therapy next week! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Bterflymom 155 Posted November 1, 2018 Glad to hear this and let us know how you are doing. 1 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
