I feel like my Anxiety is driving me insane

[Amyahs97 0]

I made an account on this site because I don’t really have anyone else to talk to. I’ve been struggling with Anxiety since I was about 14 but what I’m experiencing now at 20 is a world of its own. I feel like I’m going to burst out of my head or that my brain is just going to come out of my skull, it’s not a physical thing like a headache or something, just a fear I have and this weird feeling of it going to happen. I am absolutely terrified of death and terrified of losing my memory or not knowing who I am. Lately I’m just on autopilot doing things I’d usually do like go to work, talk to my friends but in my head there’s a constant battle. I feel like I may have depersonalisation, because I lose sense of my reality frequently, I don’t know what we as humans are, what we’re made of, how we see, the way we exist. It gets so bad that I’m afaraid of sleeping because I think i’ll Die in my sleep.

Does anyone else feel this way? Is there a way I could explain this to my doctor without sounding completey crazy. 

[Bterflymom 155]

I have anxiety too but I take medication for it too, would be a wreck without it I think.  I just got done with treatments for stage 1 lung cancer so you can imagine what I've been through and it's not easy I can tell you.   Have you had your blood pressure checked lately?  That feeling in your head could be high BP but you're only 20 and I doubt that that is the problem. Fear is a terrible thing to deal with and I have fears too.  Write down your feelings and do it every day.  Also make a gratitude journal, things you are thankful for.  You work a job so that's a good sign, you get out and mingle with other people.  I am more nervous when I'm home alone than when I'm out with people so try to be with people as often as you can.  I would suggest some counseling too, I'm 75 and see a counselor every week to talk about my problems and get them off my mind.  You aren't losing your memory, that's anxiety that is scrambling your thinking.  Don't give up, you're not alone.