Hey all ! Haven't posted in a while. Just when I think I am doing well I realise how much worse I am. My anxiety has brought me great deppression more so than ever, I have caused harm to myself in the past few weeks, I have constantly been crying and avoiding social situations even to the point I wanted to stay home on Christmas. I have been using alcohol to cover up my anxiousness, after drinking a bottle of win, beers, and bottle of vodka to myself I can't remember majority of Christmas. So with it being boxing day it was time to. Visit my mums house (more booze!) , which I dread as she is full of criticism toward me. I'm just so terribly low and stuck. with noone to talk to. I hate myself so much I am disgusted and can't even look in the mirror anymore. feeling like giving up. Any advice or anyone feeling the same ? Apologies if any of this doesn't make sense I couldn't wait To reach out x