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Hi all! I am so frustrated with this illness. I have been doing/trying everything and it just seems as if I take 2 steps forwards and 5 steps back. I just need your support, and hearing from others who are going through this or that can relate will truly help. Today has been so emotional for me, and I am so tired of living like this. Here's my back story: History: I had an amazing childhood! Was a typical kid, played sports, ran track from middle school all the way through college. I've traveled all over, vacationed, had lots of fun, made great friends and lived a pretty normal life. 2013: I still worked out but my food intake was pretty bad lol. I was married in 2011 and had a baby 2012. I had an awesome job and life was good. Around 2013, I noticed when I was driving my grandmother home at night on the freeway, I felt this intense "outer body experience" (unbeknownst to me as panic/anxiety). I was about to pull over but I didn't want to freak her out so I just fought through it, and wrote it off as some sort of gas fumes coming from the cars into my vents. This happened many once or twice more while driving at night on the freeway, but I just ignored it. 2014 My life started to change a bit, my job became extremely demanding, my marriage was crumbling because we were neglecting each other. 2 hour commutes each way, hustling to get to daycare, and scramble to make dinner, all to do it again for 5 days. Weekends were made to get laundry, groceries, and clean up our home as I also work a part time job Saturdays. There was no more time for me, I was always on the go! Feb 2015: This is when disaster strikes. My son was ill for a few days, so as mom, I didn't sleep. My husband and I decided to call out of work as we did not sleep. I decided to go to the gym. I started working out and noticed heart palpitations, but ignored it. Then all of a sudden I had the outer body experience again. I kind of brushed it off but had it in the back of my head. 3 days later, I taught my dance class after work, and 30 minutes later i grabbed my head and had a real intense "out body experience" . I thought I was about to die in front of the class. My heart was pounding, and my thoughts were racing "something bad is happening to me" and I didn't know how to go about things. As I drove home, I began to freak out on the freeway. I didn't know whether I should have pulled over or scream at the top of my lungs, I just felt like I was going bat Shyt crazy and I didn't know why. I thought maybe my workouts are too intense and I need to slow down. It seem to be the most logical answer since thats when these episodes started to occur most frequently. The next day, i was talking about it with my mother then BAM! It started to hit me again. The outer body experience! "oh Shyt mom its happening" I hung up on her so fast and try to calm myself. However the irrational thoughts started pouring in "what's happening to me?" "Do I have a heart issues?" The more I thought, the more my heart pounded, my palms became sweaty. I sat down and thought just calm down...but the more I tried to talk to morsel, it just seem like I was pouring gasoline on a fire! I felt like I had the Panic Demon sitting on my shoulder saying "guys she's not down yet, she's a fighter...lets crank it up a notch". They started to coming in like a Tsunami! My chest started to tighten up, I could breath, and my legs and hands went numb. I collapse in my husbands arms while my 3 year old son was eating dinner. At this point I knew I was dying. I told my husband to call 911 and I can't believe I'm going to die in front of my family. I was rushed to the hospital to only be told I was stressed. Stressed...really??? No way, this is bull shyt. In my mind, I was healthy and I worked out to relieve stress, and this couldn't possibly the cause of this non sense. I followed up with my primary care doctor who told me I had just had a Panic attack and I have anxiety. I heard nothing else after that, as she tried to explain what happened. Everything else sounded like Charlie Brown. I couldn't believe she was prescribing Xanax (which made me feel depressed by the way). After this, my life has never been the same, and a can of worms was now opened. April 2015 I took off work for a bout month and a half. I was devistated and crushed. I just felt like something terrible happened to me and everyone was brushing it off because I was young (32yrs old). When I went back to work, I could no longer sit in traffic, ride the metro, take the bus or cross the street without having a panic attack. I was miserable!!! I had people wondering and asking me why I was out so long, and I was so embarrassed to tell them because Im having panic attacks and I don't know why. I could no longer keep it up. The more I went to work, the worse my symptoms became. So I then made the hardest decision in my life, and that was to resign from my dream job (which was a blessing). As soon as I resigned my symptoms started to subside within DAYS! I WAS happy again! I was able to drive on the freeway and teach my dance class again. Life was great! So I thought. I gave up my dance class as I didn't want to add additional stress. However, it seem like once I stopped working out, my symptoms started to slowly creep back. July 2015 I had another MAJOR panic attack while driving on a dark road with no lights. I thought my life was over! I couldn't see, hear, or comprehend anything. I felt as if I had just taken 4 shots of patron, and mixed it with Jamerson. "This can't be normal! This has to be some type of brain disease!" Currently I eat EXTREMELY CLEAN. Almost raw. I still eat meat and I take magnesium at night. I have problems sleeping, and when I do sleep its not quality sleep. The only thing I drink is water. I do not spoke and I don't drink. I pray every morning and show gratitude before I open my eyes. I mediate and stretch before I do leave my bedroom. I speak positive affirmations daily and try to live in the moment. I try to stay optimistic even on the days I struggle with. I have migraines 2 times a month. My skin is extremely dry and now I starting to have stomach issues. I was told I may have an ulcer, and the GT wants to do and endoscopy. I really do not want to do that as I have never been put to sleep. My left arm is constantly numb. I've seen a cardiologist, neurologist, a wellness Doctors, and I had CT scans, etc. Everything is clear. I am slightly anemic but I have been that way all of my life. Today Was emotional for me. I just broke down. I feel like I walk around wearing a big "S" on my chest and try to stay strong, but today I failed. My son wanted to go to the park, but as we walked my Panic/Anxiety started to flare up. I tried to fight it but I couldn't, I tried to breath the way I do when I mediate, to no avail. I didn't want something to happen to me and he was left by himself, so I turned around. That was hard for me to swallow. He shouldn't have to suffer because of his mother. For that reason my entire system shut down. I just feel like this in no way to live life. I am so tired of taking 3 steps forward to be knocked back down. I love nature, I love walking, working out. I find it hard to just take a walk because my body starts prepping for another Panic attack. I feel like I am trapped in someone's body and I want out. I notice when I don't sleep well or eat enough, my aniexy/panic is heighten. I haven't had quality sleep since January 2015. I get tired of staying up to 2/3 am just to pass out to go to sleep. I have the greatest support system in the world. I just feel like I am a burden on my family at times. I just want to feel normal again. I apologize for the novel and Typos. I didn't re-read this post because I started to get a migraine typing this. I wouldn't wish this on anyone. I pray I wake up tomorrow with a better start. I just don't know what else to do. If you read this entire post. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. Even if you don't respond, please just pray for me Positive vibes sent you all. Peace and blessings to each and every one of you!

I had my wisdom teeth removed 2 days ago. My energy and my body feel very weak and tired. I have a really bad and ache headace. And my anxiety is full blast the last few days. All my symptoms are coming up. Is it normal to have a headache and feel so drained and anxious after getting your teeth out?

Ive always been a person who worried but I never let it dictate my life. I seen someone pass away in front of me. It gave me horrible anxiety. I constantly worry about my health now. I used to do bodybuilding and ran a lot. But now I'm afraid to workout cause I get panic attacks while I workout. I'm worried about my heart. I had 2 ekgs chest xray and blood test and everything came back good and normal. But I still feel like something is wrong. I'm always on edge and I always have a nervous stomach. I can't eat cause I feel sick and constipated. I've lost 10lbs since not working out and eating. And when I'm laying down and get up my heart starts pounding and I feel like I have to throw up. Every ache makes me feel like there's something wrong. I feel like I'm in a constant state of Deja vu. Im still somewhat in shape but I do feel myself getting weaker. I don't know what to do. I'm tired of feeling like this. I wanna be able to go our and not have to worry as much. Please if you can relate or have an idea on how I can get better please let me know!!!

Why do we become so sensitive to our body when we suffer from anxiety?? I feel like I pick up on little muscle twitches my heart beat and other little things. Why is this?

So latley I've been having a super bad bloated stomach. I burp and pass gas a lot. When I burp I sometimes taste food I've eaten hours ago. Gross I know. But when I get up after laying down I get this feeling like I want to throw up and my heart races a little. I had blood work chest xray and ekgs all done twice and they came back good. So what's going on? Oh and I'm constipated and when I do pass stool it has some mucas in it and it's kinda patchy. Please help and let me know what it is or might be and ways to relieve it.

Hey! I'm Health Anxiety Nut. Lets start with this, I'm a mess. I am a member of other forums, but I have seen this one mentioned so many times. I'm a 22 year old who is a bundle of depression, anxiety, and health anxiety. I have gone through so many different symptoms, and Dr. Google has diagnosed me with so many horrible things. Everything from c****rs, skin diseases, blood clots, all the way down to parasites. Yeah... Dr. Google is a fun doctor isn't he? or she? Not to sure what Google would me. I have been going through a plethora of symptoms at the moment, but that will need to wait until I post.

Challenges come everyday in our lives and they can be really hard and really daunting to face. It is terrifying to be honest when you are faced with a difficult situation of any kind, particularly when you have an anxiety disorder. I think its important to remember though that even when times are difficult, those challenges only make us stronger. I certainly find it hard to believe this myself but I try to remind myself of this each day. I have worked through a lot of horrible situations and hard times through my life so it hasn't been so easy. But I think that those challenges have shaped me as a person and even though they were terrible and made me feel horrendous, I have become a stronger person as a result. Of course I still struggle a lot and I have a long way to go but I'm getting there.

Hey all, I just wanted to share my experience with what i was going through over the past two weeks or so. I'll just explain it. So since the 22nd i experience something totally awful that i thought i was going to pass out. i felt really tired and i had a major panic attack. i keep getting these panic attacks everyday because my symptoms get worse. I have shortness of breath when i do some kind of physical activity, my ears feel clogged, I feel like my body will freeze up or something so that i don't move. My neck feels stiff, i have tmj and i did go to the urgent care and they said my oxygen and pulse was good. Before my symptoms got worse on the 22nd i had major depression and anxiety issues already due to a social incident that caused me some trauma and made me feel so mentally crazy. I also feel like I'm gonna pass out or something and i feel like I'm stupid and can't mentally function well. As if I'm going to lose my mind and i keep fearing I'm going to die. I keep freaking out thinking i have either a brain tumor, a brain eating parasite or just something wrong with my brain. I also have tmj which i read that it can cause ear problems. My tmj is so bad when that sometimes it's hard to open my mouth and i get a lot of cracking noises from it and other people can hear it so clearly too. Also when i was in the shower and put my head in the hot water i started feeling weaker and more tired and i felt so zoned out like i couldn't do anything so i panicked and quickly got out. A few days ago i experienced tightness in my head and my neck which made it feel stiff and i'm so scared and i don't want to die and it feels like i'm shutting down and i can't go to another doctor to get checked out because we just don't have the money. I dont get what's wrong with me, I'm a 19 year old boy who isn't even obese and i eat healthy for the most part. i don't eat anything with gmos and stuff but i'm so scared for my health. I had an ear problem for a few years and i would get dizzy when i rotate my head and i still do. also a week ago i got a big ball of wax out of my right ear and when i went to urgent care they got my left ear which had a good amount of wax in it and back in january of 2015 i remember my left ear felt blocked and i had to rub it to unblock it but that time it didn't work so i was feeling off balanced but i still don't know if it's an ear issue right now because the doc says my ears were clean afterwards and couldn't find any wax.

Hey everyone! I've been meaning to sit down and do this for a while, not only for myself but for the many other sufferers of health anxiety around the world who are constantly being told "not to worry". Apologies if my story goes off in many different directions but I am writing this off the top of my head! Last November (2014) I went to India on a trip with my mother and Grandmother, I had the best time and wasn't best pleased about returning to work! The Sunday evening before I was due to go back to work I met up with a few friends in the evening for a drink. On the way to the pub I was carrying a heavy bag and trying to hold a scarf over my head as it was raining (typical British weather!) On returning home that evening I noticed that my neck became very stiff, I put this down to the heavy bag and the rain. The following morning I had a driving lesson and thought nothing of my neck, however as the week went on the stiffness was still there, I tried to rest and not strain it and tried many different ways of getting rid of it. Later on in the week I then decided it would be a fantastic idea to Google my symptoms, the search returning web pages with the words "brain tumour" or "brain aneurysm" I brushed this off and tried to not think anymore of it, however those words were then cemented in my head and I couldn't get rid of them. A few days later I then started to develop short sharp headaches, I then of course started to worry more and more about possible tumours and other things. I decided it was time to book a doctors appointment, the doctor asked me my symptoms and I explained about the heavy bags and strain, also mentioning that I Googled my symptoms and I was worried it may be something more serious. she brushed this off and explained that I would know if it was something more serious. I left the doctors feeling reassured but in the back of my head I was still panicking and began to doubt the doctor. Over the following week the headaches worsened and were accompanied by dizziness, I've always been a nervous and shy person but not the extent that I found it difficult to carry out normal day to day activities, such as a walk to the shop, but the dizziness accompanied by the headaches became too much and I was finding anything other than the journey to work a struggle. over Christmas I tried to enjoy my time off and met up with friends, I walked to the pub one evening and had the most horrific journey, I felt as if I was going to faint, the dizziness was horrendous and I just wanted to go home. I had no idea what was going on with my body, I had no control over it and this then sent me into more panic. I didn't feel as if I could talk to anyone about it I knew they would label me as "mad" I tried my hardest to put any negative thoughts about my health to the back of my head and carry on with my life. One night it became too much, I went to bed, turned my light off and had an awful moment where I thought I had gone blind, the dizziness and the headaches accompanying this made it too much, I sat up all night worrying, when my mum came downstairs in the morning to find me on the sofa crying she knew that something wasn't right. I then explained what was going on, but not the extent I was worrying over the previous couple of weeks, I felt so alone and it was horrible, many nights after that I would sit up crying wondering what on earth was going on. I couldn't cope at work, I couldn't go out and socialise because the fear of the dizziness as soon as I walked out of the door was too much. I then started getting other symptoms such as white floaty lines coming across my eyes, chest pains, heart palpitations and other things, they all terrified me! Enough was enough, I decided it was time to go back to the doctors, I didn't feel as if any of my friends, family or even my boyfriend would understand or give me the reassurance I needed. Before going to the doctors I decided to for an eye test, as I heard they can pick up on tumours and other health issues. Sitting in the waiting room I looked up to see an article from a newspaper tagged with the headline "Routine Eye Test picks up tumour" or something like that, this then sent me into panic. I explained some of my problems to the optician and he said my eyes were fine but my prescription had changed and that could be the cause of my blurred vision, and that he couldn't see anything that would be causing problems with my eyes or anything that would be causing my dizziness. I left the opticians feeling slightly reassured, knowing I had a doctors appointment coming up also helped. Over the coming weeks I couldn't cope, I would constantly cry, still thinking there was something wrong that they hadn't picked up on (One night I even rung the NHS helpline asking for advice, and contemplated going to the emergency doctors at the hospital). I was beginning to tell family and friends about it now and they were at a loose end as to what to do with me. I couldn't sleep, I couldn't cope at work, I was on auto pilot I certainly didn't feel in control of my body and I didn't feel as if I was in the room a lot of the time. It was absolutely horrible, no amount of positive reassurance was going to help, I was completely lost. Deep down I knew these thoughts were irrational but I couldn't control them, they then started to control me. Going back to the doctors I explained everything, by this point I was beginning to except that although I may not have a serious illness I certainly had a serious anxiety problem. He asked me general questions about my life, told me to come off my pill and booked me into see him a month later. I walked out of the doctors feeling positive (As I did after any health check) But knew within a few hours I would be feeling low again, the symptoms were still there but after stumbling upon a Health Anxiety forum one night I started to accept that these were just Anxiety Symptoms, and would constantly tell myself that. I pushed myself and would start walking to town, and doing the things that my anxiety controlled. I realised that this would be the only way of exiting the horrid rut that I had got myself into. Everyday I would push myself to do something that made me anxious and would usually feel better for it, some days were bad some days were good, but I tried to remain strong. the hardest thing I found is that people just didn't get it, they told me not too worry and not to let it consume me, but once anxiety has its grip on you it is very very hard to let go. On returning to the doctors for my follow up appointment he gave me two options, these being counselling or medication, I wanted to learn how to cope with my anxiety myself, I didn't want the side effects of medication and I wanted to know that if all of this ever comes around again that I can deal with it. In the end I never went to counselling, I found that every day I was getting better and better, the symptoms were becoming better and that it would just take time, almost as if my brain had to reset itself. All in all it took about 4 months to finally feel my "normal" self again, I could then start thinking of the future (something I couldn't bear to think about when I was in the midst of all this) I signed up to go back to college in September, where ill be doing a course in social sciences, with a view to go to university and become a Mental Health Nurse. My life is now as normal as it ever was! There are still moments where I feel anxious and the thoughts come back, but I brush them off and try to remain busy (something I've found to be very beneficial) Next week ill be joining a gym where I will be attending regular exercise classes and have booked to go to a festival in august. all these things sounding silly but things that I love and was worried I would never be able to do again. I have found that my anxiety has shifted away from myself and onto others, but not to the extent that it was. I know that was very long winded and I apologise if parts of it don't make any sense, but I wanted to get my story out there to others so you know that you're not alone and that you can get out of it, Even If my story helps one person then ill be delighted, I know when your in the midst of it all it doesn't seem like its going to end, but I really hope it does, I've come to except that ill always be an anxious person and worry, but I've learnt to control it now. If you've made it this far then thank you so much for reading this, I wish you all the best on your journey, and send you huge amounts of love! Freya. x P.s, I vow NEVER to Google my symptoms again.

Yesterday and today I've felt really weak and I'm always tired. Also I get really hungry so I eat something then my stomach will start feeling weird so I'll lose my appetite for a little while, so I haven't been eating much. But then I'll get really hungry, but nothing looks appetizing enough to actually eat. This is obviously not helping me with feeling weak. I feel like something is wrong with me. I've noticed I'll feel more weak when it's night. I'm feeling weak right now and I'm starting to get anxiety, like I've said in older posts I'm so scared of fainting because I have before. My solution to this is eating a lot to try to get my strength back, but then I come to the problem of not knowing what to eat and not wanting my stomach to feel weird. I'm scared I'm coming down with something because I've noticed that I'm prone to getting the stomach bug, whenever there's one going around I end up getting it. One year I got it three times in the span of two months. I know there's a bad one going around and I feel like I'm going to get it and that's making me nervous because obviously when I get them I don't feel like eating because I don't want my stomach to get upset but then I get anxiety thinking that since I'm not eating that much I'm going to faint again.

I've been doing good with my anxiety, I actually had a whole week without having any, but that ended today. I was with my cousin and she looked something up on google and she started reading me symptoms of having a heart problem and I immediatly started having anxiety again. I started yelling at her to stop and that I don't want to hear it and she just kept going. I asked her why she was reading that to me when she knows I get anxiety about that stuff and all she said was "your fine, you don't have a heart problem" and I was like still just stop and so finally she did, but I still had anxiety. I hung out with her for a couple more hours and I ended up getting distracted so the anxiety thankfully didn't last long. But now it's coming back again and I'm feeling light headed/dizzy, and I'm mad because I was on such a good streak and then this has to happen and I know I'm just going to go back to having anxiety every night. I will say the symptoms aren't as bad as they have been, but my head feels so weird and I know I can't sleep with it feeling like this. I can feel a headache coming on and also I feel kind of warm, like a stuffy sweaty feeling even though it's only 10 degrees where I live. Is this normal for anxiety? It's almost like I feel suffocated in my clothes and just my room in general.

Hello! So I was thinking that as a form of motivation, a group of us could follow a 21 day clean eating, health kick challenge. I think that if we all keep each other updated on how we are doing and are there to support each other it will be really helpful! We could maybe work out a sort of points system so that it is sort of a mini competition to provide us with more motivation to do well. This could really work if enough people want to join in! Let me know if you think this is a good idea or not and if you would want to join in! Thank you!

Just yesterday I got a cold, or maybe allergies. Basically I have a runny/stuffy nose and yesterday before I went to sleep I had a soar throat. I've been having a lot of anxiety because in some areas near where I live there's been a sickness going around. It starts off as the flu and then it turns into a respiratory infection, no one has died from it, but they've been hospitalized for it. This has been stressing me out because with my anxiety I have shortness of breath and I keep thinking that I'm going to end up getting a respiratory infection and going to have to go to the hospital on an oxygen tank. Does anyone else ever fee like this? Also is there anyway I could ease some of this anxiety? Because just yesterday I had a panic attack during school and I hate when that happens because It's so hard not to freak out and look like a psycho.

Hi everyone! My name is Grace and I am new here. I am 18 years old and am healthy, work out all the time, eat fairly well. However, I have major health anxiety over the occasional heart flutters/palpitations/skipped beats I get. They come and go, but now it's gotten to the point where I'm so worried when the next one will happen. Sometimes I get a few a day, and ONCE in a while, I get them lasting for hours and hours, but then they will go away. But yet, even now when they aren't happening, I am so worried about it. Can anyone relate to these flutters and give me any advice? Yup, I've been to the doctor twice about it and they saw it on the EKG and just said it was adrenaline, didn't give much thought. 2 of my family members on my dad's side have flutters too. I just need advice for peace of mind! Thanks!

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