Ms.Moon

I had my annual with my OBGYN. I have thyroid nodules. I have been getting scans for a few years. The schedule I had been on was a scan every two years. I do not remember getting a new schedule of going every year. I didn’t go last year. I believed I had to go this year. I was sick since September with my allergies I have either had a cough or was outright fighting a cold since September of last year. I am still not 100% I still have post nasal drip and I am still coughing. My issue is my doctor told my that on my last scans I had new thyroid nodules and my lymph nodes were reactive. I wasn’t told that it was a problem or was asked to come back but now that I know that I am worried. One of my lymph nodes on my neck is engaged. It has shrunk down quite a bit because I am not as sick as I had been but I can still feel it. I got very sick in November and it was very swollen but it’s shrunk down but it hasn’t completely gone away. I have been googling even though I know I shouldn’t do that. The thyroid nodules and engaged lymph nodes are signs of thyroid cancer. I see that the lymph node engagement might point to the cancer spreading. I have an appointment for scans next month and right now I am terrified. Thyroid cancer is very fixable but now I’m worried that it might have spread because I was not paying attention.

I am back here with anxiety crawling around my mind and I am so scared. I have been having colon cancer fears for years now it’s not new. I have lots of allergies and one of them ended up being to the chemicals in butt wipes. I had pain in my butt area for quite some time because of this and that’s where the fear started. I figured out that the regular Charmin and other brands caused this and switched to hemorrhoid wipes. I found this really helped me have no more pain. I did get diagnosed with hemorrhoids a bit later. Earlier this summer I went out walking it was a very hot day and I saw blood when I came back in and went to the bathroom. I used the hemorrhoid medicine and I didn’t have any more bleeding until this past weekend where it was very hot once again and I once again went out walking about halfway through I started to feel the urge to go but there was nowhere for me to go so I held it until I got home and there was blood when I wiped. I started using the cream and I have not had bleeding until today I pooped once earlier and I didn’t have any bleeding but I ate a lot of grapes on an empty stomach and it made me very gassy. I was at work and passing gas in public is not the best because my stomach is making rumbling sounds and I knew it would be noisy I held it and went to the bathroom again. This time I had blood when I wiped. I know I should not hold my poop but sometimes I have to because life is going on and I cannot immediately run to the bathroom but this is causing my anxiety to get bad again.

I don't know what's going on. A little background about a month and a half ago I had been infected with COVID and didn't know since I had no symptoms and I got my booster shot. I had every reaction known because I was already infected with COVID and my body was fighting with the booster as well. Found out a few days later that I had COVID and after a week at home recovering I went back to work and living my life. I had swollen lymph nodes under my armpit after the booster because COVID and booster. The following weeks when my period showed up my breasts itched and ached because why not I thought nothing of it because it's winter and my skin is dry everywhere. I put lotions on my breasts, my period went away and I went on. I have had aching breasts before they sent me to my first mammogram nothing it's hormones. I now have a kind of sore feeling under the armpit of the arm where I got the booster. I am not sure if it's because I sleep on that arm because I do sleep on that arm, I sleep on my hands I bought bracers for them so I don't end up with swollen hands but now I am terrified I might have some sort of cancer because of the pain under my arm. I have had a breast reduction so I have fat underarms but I don't feel a lump or anything in the breast that it's on the side of so I am scared it might be lymphoma I gave blood two weeks ago I don't know if they contact you if there's something wrong with your donation because they do test your blood. I have to schedule my annual mammogram and I am terrified.

Have you tried acupuncture? I went through a terrible spiral of anxiety and it really helped me at that time. The last time when I was just spiraling I would go out and walk for and hour, an hour and a half (we were on lock down). I couldn't do anything else and that helped.

Thank you. I hate these spirals of anxiety. I was doing so well then I run right into it again.

My health anxiety is not willing to give me a break. I have a fluid filled lump that comes and goes on the inside of my lower lip. I pack the spot with salt and it usually goes away, I have had it come and go occasionally but now I notice it happening more now. What set me off now with the oral cancer fear is there are two tiny spots they are flat, one is a little yellow the other is fading already but whitish on the gums on either side of the tooth almost opposite that spot. I did pack on the salt in that area last night then flossed in that area and might have bruised the gums but I hate that anxiety does this whispers of cancer arose in my mind. My colon cancer fears have receded and now this is trying to take its place. I don’t know if my allergies cause the lump on my lower lip I couldn’t eat cherries they made my throat itch but now I can and I have been eating a lot of them. The last time I had this happen (the fluid filled lump) I had been eating cherries as well. I do need to go get my teeth cleaned so I can make an appointment at my dentist but with my health anxiety I actually am scared to go to the doctor. I am going to keep an eye on things, pack the lump up with salt and try to go see my dentist. I didn’t listen to sense and stayed away from Dr. Google and I did Google images of oral cancer and while what’s going on in my mouth isn’t what I am seeing oral cancer looks like it doesn’t mean that I am still not worried about it.

I never had kids so I don’t know what that feels like but I do sometimes get pains where my breast reduction scars are.

I have had this. I went to get my first mammogram because of it. I am very fortunate to have fatty breasts and got my results right away nothing was wrong thankfully. It’s hormones. It might not be your period, it might be ovulation. I have been struggling with my health right now as well and as someone who will be turning 40 this year I am quite similar straits.

Please don’t do anything. A friend recently lost her daughter to suicide and it was devastating. I know it can be hard we are living in such stressful times but you are a blessing and you will be a blessing to someone else I promise you. Put one foot in front of the other it’s not much but it is enough, you are enough.

Thank you to everyone that responded. I did the epsom salt soak last night I really needed it my whole body was a mess of knots and I have shrinking going on already. I will buy the witch hazel and Cortisone 10 since I don’t have any. I thankfully have been prioritizing having good bowel movements (I have had constipation issues my entire life) and I noticed that when I go for a walk first thing in the morning between the water and the exercise I will poop as soon as I get home and then I shower after that and it’s been great for me because I am so allergic to Cottonelle wipes. I switched to hemorrhoid wipes but I prefer to shower right after wiping anyway because of my issues I would prefer to not have any more problems with my butt.

We had a party for my grandmother yesterday and I have been on my feet and missing sleep for the past few days with work and the party. I woke up this morning with swelling around my anus. I had been to the doctor earlier this year and the internist that saw me (not my doctor) told me it was hemorrhoids because I have a bit of skin that kinds of protrudes in that area. I am quite swollen in that area at the moment and my anxiety is through the roof. This will not help with the hemorrhoid situation but I cannot quiet the screams of THIS IS CANCER! That lives in my anxiety prone brain. I am going to try to sitz bath it and I have creams but I just need to calm down and get some sleep. I am still worried though.

Thank you for replying. I scared myself a lot because I weighed myself after exercise and I lost a great deal of fluid. I have been weighing myself after exercise and it wasn’t much of a difference when it was colder but now I am sweating more and it’s affecting my weigh ins.

I have been doing well. I went to the doctor a couple months ago and she told me she didn’t like my cholesterol and I had the beginning of fatty liver and she gave me pills for that but that freaked me out and I joined Noom to loose weight instead. It has been a journey to say the least. I have been working from home for eleven weeks due to COVID and I really used the time to my advantage I have been walking for at least an hour a day six days a week. It has been paying off I have officially lost over twenty pounds but now I am having anxiety over it. I had plateaued for a few weeks then I started loosing again. I have noticed that after my period I will drop like three pounds I am guessing I retain water during my period I usually go down like a half pound a day but this past week I have lost a pound a day and it’s freaking me out a bit because I started out with this sort of weight loss but I didn’t maintain it. I did walk a little bit more this week than usual because the weather has been nicer. I am trying to not sabotage myself by not sticking to my diet. I am on a diet I am supposed to loose weight.

I was a sickly kid. I had asthma as a child and went to the hospital several times because of it back then. My actual health anxiety issues began eight years ago after a friend of my sister’s died after falling asleep at the wheel of his car and she fell into a terrible depression that took her a long time to recover from. I tried to be a good sister and be there for her but she went very deep inside herself. Then when spring came around I was very sick with my allergies I kept getting sinus infections and my doctor put me on Singulair. I had a terrible reaction to that medication one of the very last side effects of Singulair is anxiety. I had to shut myself away in a train bathroom to keep from having a screaming fit of panic on the Long Island Railroad because my anxiety was so bad. I am scared of heights and I was on the train that was on an elevated line more than ground level and I was freaking out on the train. I struggled with health anxiety since then. I started acupuncture and it helped for a bit but since then my health anxiety has been going and coming.

Any time I hurt my mouth I swish around a little salt water in my mouth it usually helps clear up problems.