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Thanks Mike! They didn't say over the phone. Only the 'full blood count'. So I'm not sure if the white is high, or low, platelets, or something else. Everything else they checked was fine, I don't know what they actually did check, but the lady on the phone said a bunch of letters that didn't mean much to me. I'm sure you know what it's like... Ignore everything that they say is ok, and focus on the one thing they say it did pick up. Thing is, I don't feel sick in any way other than the usual anxiety symptoms. So my mind immediately goes to it being something very much internally that I can't feel on the surface like a cold. Something like Lyme disease or Leukemia or something like that.

Hey all, I had a bit of an episode last weekend. I started having constant skipped heart beats, that went on for over an hour. That sent me in to a wild panic, nearly went to hospital but managed to resist. But the next day had to go to the doctors. They gave me a blood test and an ECG. My heart rate was very high, as expected, but the rhythm was ok. The doctor gave me some propranolol to slow it down. All seemed ok, and I'm slowly getting over it. But then today I got a call saying the doctor wants a follow up to the ECG, which I wasn't told about when I had it done so it sounds like he's spotted something else in the results. On top of that my bloods came back today which are normal, except for my full blood count, which shows a probable infection apparently, and to go in at some point next week to discuss both with the doctor. Now I'm starting to worry again

Thanks utrocket and Bobnnat. If only it was as easy as that to believe. In my mind I know nothing is wrong, but also in another part of my mind I know I still have all sorts of horrible diseases and not long left. Every day brings a new symptom and a new disease. Today's is kidney disease. Real helpful brain.

Thanks Mocha. It's pretty horrible isn't it? Work is one of those horrible things where I know I have to fix it, and I'm working on it, but it's not something that can be changed in an instant. I have to have a few weeks to transition. And in that time I'll probably just keep having anxiety issues until my work/life balance is sorted. I don't want to feel like this constantly for the next 4 weeks.

Hey! My first visit to Anxiety Central. I used to frequent Anxiety Zone when I was struggling 5-6 years ago. The past 5 years have been great, but I'm suddenly struggling again, worse than before. I over-work, so I'm super stressed out, (12+ hours a day, 7 days a week), which obviously doesn't help anxiety. I'm in the process of getting that sorted. But 3 weeks ago I strained a leg muscle, it swelled up, bruised, and hurt. The swelling went quickly, the bruising has just about gone, and the pain is much less, but it's still there. I'm terrified that I should have gone to a doctor and that its something much worse than just a muscle strain (even though I can walk on it fine, no motion issues, just the occasional twinge of pain and hurts if I press on the area). I'm terrified that there's a DVT in there, or that there's constant internal bleeding, it's infected, or that my leg is actually fractured or something along those lines. I know in my head that it's not, which is why I haven't gone to a doctor. I know deep down that there is nothing wrong. But I really can't stop worrying, struggling and thinking of the worst. It's so bad that any disease I can relate to it I have. Leukemia, I'm certain I have now, because why else would my "internal bleeding" that I obviously have not stop? I also obviously have a pulmonary embolism, because when it happened, the internal bleeding obviously clotted, and then travelled to my lungs. Sepsis too, because it obviously got infected, and I didn't get that infection treated so now I'm just a few minutes away from shock and death. I know in my head that it's all ridiculous. But I can't get it out of my mind. It's like a constant Anxiety attack for the past 3 weeks. Every night is a restless nights sleep full of palpitations, and I go to bed wondering if I'll get up the next day. I bought a thermometer and I check my temperature at least twice a day. Always fine. But constantly need to check it. Constantly checking my pulse rate. Everything is fine, but I can't stop. Sorry, that's a lot to read, but I just needed to get it out.