Wingnut

Today I went out for a walk but to be honest it seemed to make me feel worse. I feel so disconnected or brain dead...I recently took a test called “GeneSight” which will show what genes are causing issues, and what medications will work best with me. I have been under quite a bit of stress with family and relationship issues. But I’ve never had this “brain dead” feeling for more than a day usually. Ugh I almost feel like this is a lifelong curse...I started having issues at such a young age that I’ll probably have it forever.

Thank you for the reply ? I have tried different things like walking, journaling, etc. but nothing seemed to really help. I agree sitting and doing nothing really does not help. Since the loss of my job that’s all I’ve really been doing. Currently I am not seeing a therapist, although I really need one. Here in Florida it’s just very expensive; maybe 200$ per session for an hour. I almost feel “trapped”. Or “stuck” that I’m so depressed or out of it that it’s keeping me from doing something beneficial.

I have been battling Anxiety and OCD since the age of 10. Massive panic attacks, paranoia, depersonalization. I’ve had it all. Recently I have felt really out of it and unable to even concentrate for the past week. Someone could talk to me, and I would forget almost instantly what the person just said. I have been having horrible fears that I have or am going to develop Schizzophrenia at some point in time. During my medication withdrawals in 2016, my doctor prescribed me Seroquel to stay calm as I was paranoid using google, crying constantly, and hypomanic. I was afraid and hugging my parents all the time, and would sit making things with my hands just to keep my mind from going crazy. However, my current psychiatrist believes this is all anxiety and OCD related. I ran through the whole gamut of medications (Prozac, Brintellix, Vibryd, etc. to name of few.). Eventually after seeing 3 different doctors, Luvox (Fluvoxamine) seemed to work the best despite the horrible startup feeling. It has now been about a year and a half of taking it, and I feel like I’m getting worse again. My doctor just raises the dosage or wants to add things that never works...I’m afraid I’m going to run out of options and end up in a psychiatric hospital. (Which is my worst fear). Is it possible that because I started having these issues at such a young age, that this can become worse??? I don’t mind taking a medication for the rest of my life, I’m just afraid of losing my mind and becoming catatonic. D’:

The past few weeks I have felt completely brain dead. I’ve been extremely anxious, my Blood pressure has been high, and I’ve felt really really really out of it. Disconnected from reality almost. I literally do something and a minute later forget what I just did. It’s like my focus and concentration are completely gone. I’m so scared of becoming a vegetable or something horrific. I went through a year of withdrawals after being on Zoloft for 9 years, and I feel that I would end up in a coma or something if it happened again D,:

There’s a brand of wipes called “Tucks” that my family has used for different things...Fissures, burning, etc. If you’re near a Walmart, Publix, RiteAid, etc. I guarantee they will have them. I think you will be ok! ?

Issue #1 - As some of you may know I have been having issues with my blood pressure. I am 23 years old, and recently for the past few months my BP has been about 155 over 94. It does seem to spike higher (178/96) at times. My primary doctor was concerned because since October of 2017, my weight has increased by 15lbs (Currently weigh 240lbs) and my blood pressure has increased. He ran an EKG (which came back normal) and gave a referral for a cardiologist. My blood test came back normal and also for the thyroid test. He also prescribed “Losartan” which is a potent medication used to lower high blood pressure. I have not been taking it out of fear of interaction with my other meds...and for being 23 years old.... Issue #2 - My psychiatric medications have been having issues. I have been taking Luvox and Klonopin for the past 2 years since I had a major withdrawal in 2016 from Zoloft. Since the loss of my past job my anxiety has increased, and the past 2 weeks have been almost unbearable. My psychiatrist prescribed Buspar on top of the Luvox and Klonopin I already take. I took it for 4 days and almost passed out from the panic attacks I was getting. So I was told to quit. With all of this, and family troubles, relationship issues, my fears and panic and anxiety....I literally feel like I’m dying. I cannot wake up in the mornings. I can’t go to sleep. I’m exhausted throughout the day. I feel like I’m slowly withering away. I just need some guidance on what to do. I’m ready to just walk from everything.....

After a week of Buspar I called my doctor and told her. I have been having SEVERE panic attacks everyday. Today is day 2 off of Buspar and I am much less anxious. Ugh...I feel “out of it” all the time. Almost like I’m “out f reality”. I just hope to feel better soon.

Ever since I was very little from the age of 5 until now (I’m 23), there has been multiple occasions where I would scream during my sleep. When I was little, I would scream at the top of my lungs, very high pitched in the middle of the night. This would happen maybe once every 3 weeks. My parents would fly out of their bedroom stumbling over eachother freaking out saying that it sounded like a murder. In present time there have been occasions (usually early AM 5-8) where I would yell out in my sleep. Usually a high pitch as well as it almost seems like I try to be as loud as possible. Sometimes they are from nightmares, and other times just randomly. I was curious if anyone else has seen this or know what it is? I understand a child yelling out in the night, but a full grown man now...seems odd. - Just wanted to add that sometimes when I yelled out when I was younger, I was awake but still in the dream. That fear and feeling was the most frightening thing. I’ve had it happen one other time a few years ago. Being trapped in a dream...

So recently I followed up with my psychiatrist about my current medication situation. On top of the Luvox and Klonopin....she wants to add Buspar. I've been taking it now for the past 2 days and my anxiety has been through the roof. Literally 2 hours after taking it I feel completely out of it, cannot concentrate, and panic until my legs go numb. I also told her about my Blood pressure being high, and my weight gain....I'm just soooo tired of all these meds for the past 3 years. I actually took the genetic swab test to see which ones will work the best with me. Any comfort would be appreciated as I feel like I'm losing my mind. ):

I just wanted to thank everyone! After crying for quite awhile, I’ve made big changes to my diet and have been exercising regularly. I have already lost about 5lbs. My blood pressure has lowered a little but not much. Today after walking 2 miles I came home and after resting for an hour I started to really sweat for no reason. Out of curiosity I took my BP and it came out to 130/102. I feel extremely tired and somewhat loopy to be honest as well as irritated. I’m starting to wonder if my antidepressant is causing this? So after crying today I’m finally calmed down a little bit, but still afraid.

I went to see my primary care doctor today as I had a follow up from a month ago when I was sick. During that initial visit my blood pressure was high (150/83) and my weight is bad (244lbs — I’m also 6’4”). Today, I returned to find my blood pressure is 150/101 and my weight is 246lbs. October of 2017 I weighed 230lbs. I am only 23 years old and this is really freaking me out. I’ve always had a higher than normal BP, but NEVER this high. Even when I was most stressed. He gave me an EKG which came out normal, and listened to my chest. Im crying tonight and fearful because he prescribed “Losartan 50mg” to bring my blood pressure down, and a blood test with TSH level. My family believes I need to just start exercising and eating healthier before I start using a medication. I agree, but I’m also afraid that I’m doing damage to myself. My fears are ranging from me having a heart attack or stroke, to not loving a full life and missing out on everything...I’m just really lost right now as my psychiatrist wanted me to take Buspar (and I haven’t), and now this medication which will probably react with my Luvox (which it does). Any comfort would be much appreciated.

Hey Manny! To be honest I’ve been having a similar problem except I’ve been in a lot of pain and just ill. You said you sleep with a heater? I know that sometimes that “dry” heater heat can make your nose stuffy because it dries your sinuses. Because of that, your body makes even more mucus, creating the stuffy dry nose. You said there’s been no pain or fever with your stiff neck? I would maybe say to make sure your hydrated, and relax. I have severe panic and anxiety; one thing that is a constant is tension in my neck. The tension you have could be from your anxiety, or at worst you could just be fighting off a bug! For now I would say to keep sipping water. Let us know how you feel. (:

For the past week I have had a constant headache that travels from my upper neck to the sides of my head. The pain ranges anywhere between nil and almost making me collapse. Tuesday night I woke up at 1AM in so much pain I almost drove myself to the ER... 2 days later I went to Urgent Care to calm my mind. The doctor said my vitals are good, other than my blood pressure being 150/92 (I’m 23 years old this is horrible). He listened to my heart and everything and suspects no brain injury or bleed. However if any new symptom appears to go directly to the ER. He also mentioned it could be viral as 2 others in my home have had the Flu. Tonight my temperature is elevated, I feel out of it, and I’m really freaking out as this headache still lingers, and now my arms have almost like a tingling pain going down them at times. I don’t know what to do, as my family is the “tough it out” type where I’m not....this is just really scaring me as my BP has never been this high, or have I had a headache like this.

Well out of still feeling stiff and weird I went to an Urgent care center to hopefully calm my mind a little bit...I told them I had a severe headache that came on quick, almost drove to the ER, and now feel sickly and weird. They took my blood pressure which is still high (155/92). The doctor checked my vitals. He believes nothing serious is going on based off of vitals. He said this could be a virus, it could be an injury or strain. He said to have a CT Scan done to really figure it out, but based on how I am there’s nothing he sees. I was freaked out about having a clot, menengitis or something horrible. I still don’t feel calm at mind as I do feel pretty crappy; plus he said to goto the ER if it worsens. I just want to feel better. D’:

Today I’m doing okay. Have just been laying in bed trying to relax. The pain is gone for the most part. That was horrific....I feel kind of out of it, and my neck is very stiff. I wonder if ALL of this is just from stress. )’: I was very close to going to the ER last night...

Thank you guys! I’m actually in a LOT of pain right now. I’m debating on whether or not going to the hospital actually...my girlfriend who’s a paramedic came by earlier tonight and tested my BP and for signs of brain bleed. All negative. I’ve just never been in so much pain in my life. When I stand up my entire head throbs. The back of my neck is so tender and sore especially up near my skull. Im really freaking out tonight. It’s 1:30AM. I had fallen asleep but woke up in severe severe pain.

For the past few days I have felt quite "out of it." A couple of days ago I had a SEVERE neck pain headache that caused pressure in my neck and it caused my whole head to throb. I have had this pain for 3 days now and It is still not gone. I have seen our family chiropractor who says everything is aligned properly....my blood pressure has been fluctuating between 140/80 to 170/95. I am out of shape for my age (23 years old). But the pain and the anxiety over this is really crippling me as I fear it could be my heart or something worse?? Update: Just wanted to add that my sister has been ill for the past few days as well. Her cough is very bad and she went to the doctor just now. She called and said she tested positive for Influenza Type A. Is it possible I could have it which is causing just different symptoms for me? I mean I was the 28th case of Swine Flu in Florida....I seem to catch everything. ):

Since the loss of my amazing job/potential career, I have been a mess. I haven’t been able to fall asleep, in fact I feel antsy before bed. During the day I feel exhausted and out of it, while still feeling anxious. I’ve been having trouble even getting out of bed in the morning. Currently I’m out with my girlfriend and I feel almost irritated yet brain dead with everything. Im reallyyy freaking out my meds have stopped working, or that I’m about to go through withdrawals. Or worse. I’m bipolar, schizzo, etc. I don’t know! I don’t even remember if I took my medication twice this morning. (Luvox). I’m 23 and I feel like just...my life is scraping bottom constantly.

Ever since I was a child I’ve always had very large tonsils. I was also one of those children who spiked high fevers often, and had a sore throat with every illness. Recently I was ill and the pain in my throat was so severe the doctor gave me a steroid. I never took it, but eventually I healed. However, I still have pain going up to my right ear when I bite down.... I went to the dentist a week ago and they made a remark about how red and big my tonsils were. I told them they’ve always been huge. However today, the left side of my throat is really sore and swollen. It seems my tonsils can never get back to not being swollen and red. Im kind of afraid of my throat closing up, or I’m still fighting some horrible illness for the past 2 months as my nose is even congested....

Hi Jdgate! I’m down here in Florida and probably only snorkeled 3 times...It sounds like maybe you inhaled some seawater? Breathing through a tube like that also increases the amount of carbon dioxide you inhale (someone told me that I’m not sure if it’s a fact) which can also cause some weird feelings. I know I’ve felt lightheaded or “full” in the chest after snorkeling. I would say to drink lots of water and see if it passes! I highly doubt it’s anything serious from snorkeling. Are you prone to panic attacks?

I just got fired today from an awesome job/potential career for being absent too many days (even having doctors notes for those days - I was on probation). My throat is not as bad, but still sore. Just really very heartbroken and lost tonight.

Just an Update: Tonight I have severe pain in the right side of my mouth. It seems to travel up my glands towards my ear. My tonsils and mouth are completely red and there seems to be pus coming from the tonsils. Blood vessels can be seen all across my tonsils. Even a little blood. I am really freaking out tonight and can barely swallow. Tomorrow I may go back to an Urgent care and get swabbed. It’s just hard to believe this is viral D’:

Ive been sick for about 2-1/2 weeks now. It started with a fever, fatigue, and severe muscle aches. A couple days later I was slapped with a SEVERE sore throat that made me visit the doctor. The doctor did not swab my throat or really do anything except prescribe me an antibiotic (amoxicillin) and a steroid (for the pain and swelling - i did not take the steroid out of fear.) For 10 days I was taking them.... I started to feel pretty good after a few days with no sore throat but day 8 of antibiotics the sore throat started to return. I’ve had a bad sore throat since then. I visited my primary doctor who said this sounds like a “viral” infection since it seems to be lingering....I don’t know who to believe, but Im going insane! My throat is so sore I can barely swallow. Being a hypochondriac my mind has been racing and freaking out over everything. I don’t know what to do as my work is already angry with me missing days.

Im so sorry Lugrad! My last post was directed toward Mumfie.

Hey Lugrad! Ive been taking antidepressants since I was 12 years old. I am 23 now. I was given the meds because of severe and I mean SEVERE panic attacks. My life was at a stand still. I was taking Zoloft for 10 years until it eventually “pooped out” and I had to change to Luvox. During that change though, I had to find the right medication. I tried Trintellix, Prozac, Cymbalta, and Viibryd. Each one reacted differently with me. Some making me feel sick and weird, and others working but not as good as they should. I agree with the above posters about reading the side effects and people’s reactions because I can honestly tell you Everyone is different. Celexa (Citalopram) May be the best thing for you, or at worst it just doesn’t work. If you FEEL that it is worth trying, then I would say try it. Maybe there’s more people on here to give their input about medications, or talk to someone you know taking some? They dramatically changed my life.