Imthi

I know how to make a post, it's just that I don't think I should for some reason

Well, another update. I should probably make another post but I don't know, I'm scared to. Anyway, Since the last time I was here, I joined the World Scholar's Cup for my school, I didn't really want to do it but we had no one else to participate and everyone wanted me to join for some odd reason. So I did, after weeks (or months, I honestly lost track) of endless work, we passed the regionals! It was so draining but I'm so glad I participated, I honestly enjoyed it a lot and I even got a hug during the event. It feels like forever since someone hugged me. It was nice. Though, because of the hectic schedule, I sort of became a bit sloppy with my medication... I didn't take it during the weeks leading up to the competition and only on the day of the competition did I take a pill. I also think I've started getting an eating disorder, no matter how much I eat I always end up hungry. It's starting to make me fat and I've sort of become self-conscious about it and now I've sort of started to starve myself a little bit. I know it's bad but I just can't help it for some reason. Well, that is all for now I guess, there was a sort of relationship thing that made me really depressed but I'd rather not talk about it now.

Welp, Time for a little update I guess: The doctor said that he thinks I might have severe Social Anxiety Disorder and possibly panic disorder but he's not 100% sure about it. I'm gonna be starting therapy starting next month. Got prescribed with Fluoxetine. Nothing else really

Well, I finally did it a few days ago and I'm going to see a psychologist in a few hours. Feeling a bit anxious. Hope it all goes well.

Old post but I thought I'll share what I'm listening to: Sunny by Papa Ya

I told someone I met on Reddit about how much I worry about stuff on a regular basis (studies, relationships, how lonely I feel, as well as other stuff such as how I can't sleep sometimes and how I think I will die) and he introduced me to this site. He also said that I should get medical attention. I've told my SO about it and she's been really supportive. But I'm scared of telling it to my family. I recently got bad grades (average: 64% C) some people tell me it's not bad but it's not good for my parents. So I'm scared they'll just say that I'm using anxiety as an excuse for my poor grades. I just don't know what to tell them and how to tell them.