momof3

Hi KH84 - the advice has been "think of all the good in your life" and "realize the 'bad' thoughts are irrational". The problem is that I can't make that work. If that was possible, I wouldn't be in this situation right now. As I sit here, I feel burning in my lower abdomen area and terrified that it's ovarian or uterine c****r.

How do I get these thoughts to stop? I have c****r in my hand. I have ovarian c****r. I have tingling in my feet - must be MS. I am on medication. I am doing therapy - although, not quite sure it is helping other than providing me with a place to say all my crazy thoughts. I have no one else to talk to. My husband WILL NOT listen to me anymore and is throwing this back in my face. I feel so alone and I am suffering. Help.

Thank you thank you thank you. You guys help me SO much. xo

Thank you so much. I am in therapy and on medication right now (as of 3 weeks ago). I'm hoping that it is still "kicking in". KH84, I think you are so right.

I can't snap out of this. I am SO depressed and anxious. I cannot shake the thought that I may be sick and my kids will have to grow up without a mother. This morning, after I left for work, I got a call from my oldest child telling me that the other two were crying and I could hear it in the background. For some reason, this makes my anxiety worse - like if I'm not there, things will fall apart. I hear my daughter yelling "I want to see mommy" and all I can think of is what if I wasn't there for her. It's tearing me apart. The only relief I get is sleep and the minute I wake up, my stomach goes into knots and the anxiety of the day starts all over again. I'm exhausted.

Is everything ok?

I completely understand - I am EXACTLY the same way. I feel like having to take care of young kids makes it a million times worse, as I am always worried about them as well.

Thank you again - you really help me with your words.

I'm glad to hear that you're ok and I know exactly the feelings that you went through. I almost fainted in my doctor's waiting room too! Last time I saw my doctor, I started crying on the way into the appointment. Anxiety is SO unpleasant!

Thank you Jon. I really appreciate it. I think it is part of my disease of anxiety to second guess everything, including my doctors. I'm asking myself - what if she didn't look closely enough? What if she didn't order the right test? I'm tortured by the thought of my children growing up without a mother if something should happen to me. That adds an additional HUGE weight on my shoulders.

Gilly - that's exactly what I have. A hard lump above my wrist, close to my thumb. Could this be a ganglion cyst?

KH84 - thank you for your reply! My logical brain tells me all of that....but I somehow cannot get the courage together to go. Going in the last couple of weeks to have my annual physical done was HELL. I was such a wreck. But nothing major came out of it. I'm trying to convince myself that not every lump and bump is terminal c****r, but that is the way I tend to think. It's horrible.

I continue to go through these "crises" and I HATE it

I'm literally paralyzed with fear and cannot go get it checked. Even the thought of it makes me panic. I feel that I'm not strong enough right now to hear anything "concerning" or bad. I am literally sweating thinking about it.

Do you think it's possible for anxiety to cause localized pain? I admit that I'm thinking non-stop about my hand....I'm not sure whether it hurts because I'm obsessed with this right now, or whether I'm obsessed with it because it hurts!