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Overtime it will chill if you go to my profile you can add my skype if you want to chat its kool i hardly sleep anyhow lol but youll be alright liek i said teh support here is awesome bit quite tonight but good bunch of people will help you rthrough it them anxiety levels will lower in no time hun x

Hello Lana sorry you've suffered for so long like so many here you seem nice and genuine and the people here are the same its really sad to see so many good people suffering, i don't have the same fear you have but thats probably because im a bloke and agorophobic id probably quite enjoy being burglaled would give me somthing to do lol but all jokes aside always here for you on the nights you cant sleep for a bit of support you do well buy still holding down a job should be proud of that fact. but yeah your nto alone x

Listen mate from one bruva to anther its overrated anyhow unless it with a girl ya love now don't get me wrong i aint saying it aint fun because it is but its not everything i dont go out no more due to my condition but up until 19 i lived a full life tried a lot of things had a lot of experiences some enjoyable some id rather forget lol. Schools gone mate its an even playing field no one is better then anyone else you just got to realize yourself worth just because someone has had more sex then someone else dosent mean a thing highschool rules dont apply in the real world its not a test people arnt keeping scores plus has for what your saying being on same playing field its BS ive been with girls who have maybe slept with only 1 or 2 people and they have been better then some of the girls that have been with 20+ people im sure girls would say teh same about some men. just live ya life best ya can be a decent bloke start to realize that its not the end of the world and it will happen for you all good things come to those who wait youll get your chance hang in there.

Yeah its anxiety Alice ive had it it sucks but it is only anxiety i too have just had a cold i mean man flu and it made my symptoms perk up, that feeling about not wanting to be away from the home sounds like agoraphobia again i have it and it feels like you are going to have a heart attack when panic sets in but again it wont happen your safe and its just anxiety i say just its still so uncomfortable but it wont hurt you. And your right the breathing things is denationalization a lot of people get it when there depressed which most people in our situations are so your not alone and it can all be treated and dealt with. can try the following to help with anxiety. 1.Meditation build a dream house safe place in your mind make your self a sanctuary its amazing how relaxing this is and you'll be tired after every time you try it and good amount of sleep always helps with the anxiety. 2.cut out has much caffeine,nicotine,alcohol has you can and knock any illegal drugs if you do them on head this will all lower anxiety. 3.Use distraction techniques like come online and talk to people take your ind away from it or watch a movie or a favorite you tube channel 4.Change diet if you don't have many carbs increase it a little it will make you feel better and also do more exercise aerobic only has it naturally releases feel good chemicals into the brain and helps with health anxiety has it gives you anther reason why you may be having the odd pain and just makes it easier to deal with. 5. write all your anxiety's and thoughts out into a book for some reason it helps just to get everything out your head and down onto something else i don't know why lot of doctors recommend it and it does work. 6.Try to accept that it is just health anxiety and possibly OCD that is causing you to repeat these worrying thoughts has being anxious makes you hyper sensitive to all your bodily functions. 7. go speak to a doctor and get the right meds i found after 6 years of stupidly avoiding the doctors that these tablets really work first 6 weeks while they settled in sucked but my mind is so my clearer now i would implore you if you haven't already to speak to a doctor 8.Self help boks and CBT therapy are all good places to help change how you look at things overall 9.some people say teas and certain herbs are relaxing cant say ive tried them though. 10. dont suffer in silence when your down come online find some mates talk to people who can relate build some connections build yourself a little online network of support learning each others storys and that we arnt alone really does help and if you wanna chat can always get in touch. anyways all the best home your feeling better soon peaceeeeeeeeeeee.

"Her strong enchantments failing" by A. E. Housman Her strong enchantments failing, her towers of fear in wreck, her limbecks dried of poisons and the knife at her neck, The Queen of air and darkness Begins to shrill and cry, `O young man, O my slayer, To-morrow you shall die.' O Queen of air and darkness, I think 'tis truth you say, And I shall die to-morrow; But you will die to-day.

Wow Anneline new hear and just going through some old posts that's a sad story no one should have to go through that, he sounds like a dick anyway you be better off without him hopefully you've moved on with your life now i see this post is a little old i just wanted to say ya know i feel for ya your not alone life aint easy ya know but dont have to go through it alone if you ever need to talk get in touch all the best. Ben

Wow that's a huge step Hi btw lol big step though well done nice to see someone else from UK is agoraphobic well not nice but ya know lol, anyways just having a look through some posts an say this thought id say congrats it takes a lot to be able to do what you did when you have what we do you should be proud darlin anyways prob catch ya around all the best. Ben.

Hey not sure if your still about brad or how ya got on i quit the drugs myself a few years back when i got ill so i know what your going to have to go through and i feel for ya because it is hell but there is light at the end of the tunnel just see it through because life drug free is so much better you start to wonder why you even took them in the first place i wouldn't change any of the memories i have from my youth but if i could go back and re-do without the drugs i defiantly would but your doing a good thing mate takes a big man to admit his mistakes takes an even bigger man to put them right. Keep fighting the good fight fella.

Hey welcome i know how you feel its not nice but its always god to meet new people wh can relate and understand how we feel if you ever would liek to talk feel free to get in touch all the best.

lol Hahah them flags be flying high come the end of the season i would say enjoy the Europa league but my little bro a Pool fan and i still think your going to get 4th .

Thanks Gilly. although should really change that liverpool badge to Chelsea CAREFREEEEEEEEE KTBFFH lol

Hey my name is Ben im 26 from the UK, since i was 19 i have suffered from panic attacks and Agoraphobia,for the last 4 years i have hard Harm OCD to top it all off due to issues i have and the fact i can no longer go out and enjoy myself and the fact the Harm OCD means even my home is no longer a sanctuary i suffer with bouts of depression. Up until the age of nineteen i was pretty carefree did some things im not proud of but nothing to out there was always out and about loved meeting new people trying new experiences life was good one day it all changed i suffered an horrific panic attack which at the time i thought was a heart attack lol. funny now because i no what they are but at the time i wasn't laughing.Because of the person i am i felt embarrassed and didn't know who to talk to due to circumstances in my life i had just got my own flat which looking back made things even worse because my family couldn't see what was happening to me and i just lied has i didn't want to have to admit i needed help, i stop going out with my friends and basically became a hermit crab only leaving to go to shop at like 5 am when i knew no one would be around even then it felt like my heart would burst out of my chest like something out of alien and so this went on until the money i had run out at which point i could no longer hide it my mum bless her decided to drag me down to the job center it was on this day that everything came out i got down there shaking freaking out and i just flipped luckily a women said she knew what was happening and told my mum to take me home seek medical help.And so i did and go given some medication and went home and due to my past with taking cocaine and cannabis has a teenager i was terrified of taking medication so again i lied and for a year still no treatment day in day out same routine buy this point you realize that all those people you thought were friends are only interested when your okay only a hand full have stuck around and really helped Anyway it was a year later i was at my mums for Xmas and she noticed my pills hadn't been going down so she made me take them in front of her lol. So i did nothing happened the panic attacks slowed down but i still couldn't leave the house and this is how things went for a while i don't no how the rest of you feel but it just feels like a vicious circle to me the medication while helps doesn't cure the issues and the doctors iv had haven't been the most supportive in the past.And going through this alone and isolated has been the hardest thing but hey got to try make the best of the hands we are dealt right. So for the first time in 3/4 years i had a good year okay i could rarely leave house apart from small trips with varied people but inside the home apart from being bored i was relatively happy few panic attacks and i was in control, i went to my mums that Christmas and decided ya know ive done so well im going to have a drink for the first time since it all begin because hell that's what normal people do i used to do it every weekend and i wanted to have a drink with my younger brother, so i did and at the time was great for a week i was ok no issues.Then all hell broke loose in my mind anyone that can relate to this next part will no how bad it can get i was doing the drying up helping my mum out when i was drying a knife i had the thought/urge to stab my mum now this horrified me because it just isn't me i dropped the knife and blagged the drying up off i tried to sleep it off but next day i was having these thoughts 24/7 towards my mum and brother now im not a bible basher however i do believe in a god and why i understand how some people take there life's i would never do so i believe it is the cowards choice but on that day i almost opened up my wrists because i couldn't bare the thought of hurting them i even considered hanging myself buy the time my mum come in from work that night i snapped i did something i hadn't done in 4 years i run out of that house the fear going through me i cant really describe i didn't understand what was happening to me or why i was thinking oh the cannabis i smoked has a youth has made me go schitzo or that i was just evil i got to an alleyway at the top of the road and a lady/man who knows was walking down form the other end and in my mind i was adamant when we got on level i was going to take it out on them has they got closer i started to fight the feeling again and they passed and i went round the block i went home to a terrified mum and brother and told her to call the police and an ambulance because i think i have to be sectioned im afraid im going to hurt someone i honestly thought they were going to ship me off to the funny farm my mum was great she called the ambulance the paramedics were really good people took me to hospital and the doctor put it down to the fact i had taken alcohol and had caffeine for first time in 3 years all in one go and it was like feeding it to a baby and that they were blocking receptors in my brain so he gave me some diazipam i went home took it slept the thoughts didn't go and i had to leave my mums and go back to the flat i just kept thinking to myself its just happening because alcohol and caffeine in my system i remember being at home in bed tears rolling down my face because all my brain would think about was taking a knife from kitchen walking outside and stabbing someone the effects of all of this was just so much i didn't tell anyone thought i was alone thought i was a physco and that when y mum does pass id become a serial killer ive often wondered if the things i did in my past im now being punished for but hey anyways back to the story. So the thoughts started to fizzle out after about 3 months and life went on ive now moved into a house with my uncle and last year was great although again haven't been out much i did do some things like started going n odd fishing trip out for hours which big deal for me more car journeys which is hard because i get thought urge to jump out its nuts lol so yeah like before although life isn't great it was has good has it can be when your stuck inside 24/7. Then this Christmas just been oh my days lol the thoughts come back difference is this time i hadn't had alcohol or caffeine i mean i had had intrusive thought in the time in between but not on this scale before the thoughts were more milder like the urge to shout something random out when friends were round or wanting to punch them in face when they sat next to me so id sit on my hands to try help but not like it was at Christmas im not going to go into detail but the thoughts i had were sick very violent and scary ive only just come out of the cycle but ive been diagnosed with OCD now my doctor believe i may also have Bi polar so the fun just never stops lol. Ya see the thing is this time around ive now got names to put to what i have after spending so long alone ruminating wondering if i was some freak if anyone out there was the same and now ive come across so many of your stories some of you are the most incredible people seriously so many of you are so much stronger then you think i just thought if i was going to get something out of reading your story's i should put my own down and if it helps someone relate even one person it is worth it. i used to be so ashamed this was happening to me and i still feel week that ive choose to hide away but my body just wont allow me to do anythign else i have started making steps to get back out there but has you all know its a long and scary process my main ambition from all of this is to just meet some others who not nesseariy have OCD but are stuck indoors and could do with talking to others that they know they can feel safe to talk to without having to worry about ridicule so yeah look if anyone wants to get in touch feel free to message me here Pm me or add my on skype my name on there is bennnaaronnn hope your all well take it easy best of luck on your journeys peaceeeeeeeeeeeee.