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I am a clinician too Benz and totally understand how you feel. I start feeling my panic rising with every patient that walks into my clinic - as soon as they tell me their problem I imagine myself in that situation or start feeling their symptom straight away. It is a horrible horrible feeling - this means that I'm in this anxious state my entire working day everyday. I wish I could quit but it's my career n I'm trained for that one post only. I do however feel I will overcome but when I get a set back it's so disheartening. Good luck with your recovery.

I don't know how to deal with it. Yesterday I started to feel really good and positive, I went to the gym n felt like I was getting myself back on track. This morning I woke up feeling normal, upbeat, got up and out early, went to the gym and felt positive-not overly upbeat just better than I have in ages. Then I've just come home and sat down and a feeling of dread washed over me and I thought I would have a big panic attack, I felt like i could just burst out crying and fell so sad. I then rmbrd to let the feelings come and do nothing and it all settled down as quickly as it came but now I'm left feeling gutted and drained.

It's true what Jon says - if you accept how you feel and give up your can be anxiety free. I read a fab book 'At last a life' by Paul David who says to do 'nothing' and so I took his advice and felt so positive I was on the road to recovery. It's v hard but I could feel it working when I tried it. Unfortunately just as I was getting a grip on it I slipped 3 discs in my neck and have had to have numerous hospital visits n scans that has sent my anxiety sky high again. It is v disheartening but I know as soon as I start to recover from my injuries I will be back on track. Get the book and just give it a go... do nothing. x

Thank you guys. I've just stopped watching a film 2/3 of the way thru coz I felt a stabbing pain in side of neck and wondered if an artery was about to burst so now im in bed worrying. I read a great book on it which basically says not to do anything when u feel panicky and it really worked when my thoughts were all mental but as soon as I get physical symptoms other than palpitations i start worrying like crazy and even when I have calmed down I feel crap as I'm just waiting to get the stabbing pain or whatever else again to start it all off again. Absolutely hate it. I was never like this, wasn't even registered with a doc for years as I never visited one and then I hit 30 and now I live at the docs.

Thank you guys. I've just stopped watching a film 2/3 of the way thru coz I felt a stabbing pain in side of neck and wondered if an artery was about to burst so now im in bed worrying. I read a great book on it which basically says not to do anything when u feel panicky and it really worked when my thoughts were all mental but as soon as I get physical symptoms other than palpitations i start worrying like crazy and even when I have calmed down I feel crap as I'm just waiting to get the stabbing pain or whatever else again to start it all off again. Absolutely hate it. I was never like this, wasn't even registered with a doc for years as I never visited one and then I hit 30 and now I live at the d

I too have avoided forums thinking I would make myself worse but then I found I always feel so much better when I've talked about how I feel so joined just now. Anxiety is the worst thing. Just when I think I'm beating it a get a physical symptom and bang the 'but what if it isn't anxiety this time' thought pops up and that's me. It's been like this for about 3months. I've had anxiety for 5yrs and usually I can stop the cycle before going to docs but this episode - I've been to docs, called them, begged for X-rays n MRI scans etc cried every day n now joined forum for some understanding! Right now I'm panicking about pain in neck wondering if my artery will burst

I too have avoided forums thinking I would make myself worse but then I found I always feel so much better when I've talked about how I feel so joined just now. Anxiety is the worst thing. Just when I think I'm beating it a get a physical symptom and bang the 'but what if it isn't anxiety this time' thought pops up and that's me. It's been like this for about 3months. I've had anxiety for 5yrs and usually I can stop the cycle before going to docs but this episode - I've been to docs, called them, begged for X-rays n MRI scans etc cried every day n now joined forum for some understanding! Right now I'm panicking about pain in neck wondering if my artery will burst

I've had anxiety for about 5yrs now, it seems to phase out then comes back even worse and usually there is a trigger. This last episode has lasted about a year now and it's really horrible. I've had a lot of time off sick recently and feel I can't do my job anymore (I'm a clinician but seeing patients all day makes me panic more as I keep 'feeling' their symptoms n think there's things wrong with me n am on a verge of a panic attack all the time. I can't stop focusing on every little twinge I feel and then the more I focus on it the more the twinge turns into pain n gets worse and worse and then I think if anxiety n my mind are causing it then what's to stop my minds long other things I think of happen like a heart attack or stroke. I have 2 young kids and my biggest fear is something happening to me like me collapsing or dying in front of them especially if there's no one else around. It's ridiculous I know. I also know all about anxiety n why we get the symptoms that my CBT therapist thinks I have it all sorted because I know exactly why I feel what I feel that she is thinking I'm ready to be discharged BUT I still feel crap! I may know all about why I panic but it doesn't help me stop.