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Hello ibelongathebeach and welcome! I know exactly what you are going through with the SA I dealt with it for many years but have managed to beat it with the help of thearpy and slowly exposing myself to the situations that scared me. I would talk to one person, then a few people. I slowly built myself up from small to the bigger situations. The people here are great and very helpful and I'm often lurking around

An ultrasound is a good idea if your really worried about it, I have two lymph nodes in my neck that are always swollen. One has been swollen for almost 7 years and I've had my doctor check it out about a million times and always giving me the same answer lol and the other one has been swollen for almost 3 years and again same thing doctors all say nothing to worry about unless it changes size or feel so im trusting them, or at least trying to

Thanks Jon, it's a work in progress.. I'm getting back on to medication along with therapy and putting all the suggestions I get on here to use I will get this under control and someday I will be able to do it on my own without medication but for now I think I need it.

Well like everyone kept telling me all is fine, doctor checked me out and said there's nothing abnormal... But he gave me a knowing look the minute I brought up that I have health anxiety and told me not to hesitate to see him again if I need to, I guess we'll find out if he has the same attitude as my old doctor and get sick of seeing me lol

I am starting off slowly with just 5mgs for a few days to see it goes, so far so good but I only took the first one an hour ago (I was very jittery, dizzy, etc within an hour the last time) hopping the rest of the night and the next few days goes smoothly

Thought I'd give an update as to how things are going, I have both started and stopped taking paxil, it gave me some really bad diarrhea within an hour of taking the first pill and didn't stop until 2 days after I stopped taking them. Got back into the doctors this week to talk to them about it and they agreed that it was a side effect I couldn't cope with so we decided I'd try the cipralex again after looking up in the computer that when i had tried to go back on it is 2012, my doctor I had put me right back on 20mgs instead of easing me onto it, so I'm hopeful that jumping back into the max dose is why I reacted so badly to it. I start them tonight, so here's hoping it's not a very long side effect filled weekend.

Dany those are some good ideas. I will for sure give them a try. I was keeping a journal for a while because the only person I feel comfortable enough to talk to is my mom and I know I drive her crazy with some of my thoughts and she feels like she needs to help or offer advice but doesn't know what to do when all I need her to do is listen. The cold room I try to do anyways because I love snuggling up under a heavy blanket but lately I've had it warmer in the house with kids being sick so that may be having an effect on me that I never would have thought of.

I can normally get my mind away from the what ifs, I've gotten much better at that but sometimes it will work it's way in when I am alone so night time it the worst. I sure hope I'm back to say all is well, I always seem to jump to the worst thing possible and having a family history of c****r it's a major one, and last year in the months of December and January I had 3 family members and 2 family friends pass away from c****r so it has been on my mind a lot. I keep trying to tell myself that no matter what it is, there is nothing I can do until I know and nothing I i do, no matter how much I worry and play the what ifs it's not going to change the outcome.... I was able to get to sleep after I posted, I am truly glad I found this place it's nice and helps to know there are people I can hate with that understand how I feel.

So ther other night I was sitting on the couch watching a movie after getting kids all tucked into bed and felt a pressure/pain in my ribs.. Not uncommon with the way I was sitting, so I stretched and kinda massages my ribs to get the kink out... And I felt a bump, right below my ribs on the left hand side I moved and poked and felt from different angles and compared the right side to the left.. Now I am convinced I have lymphoma or spleen c****r. I have had issues getting to sleep since and am exhausted but here it is 2am here and I still can't sleep. I keep playing all the what if's in my head and my brain just won't shut off. I'm gonna call the drs monday and hope they can get me into see the other Dr in the office since my new doctor doesn't come until May.... But until than I'm one tired person

Yes I've been on ssri's before so I know all about how hard it can be to come off them and not to do it without my doctors help/advice, but I was never eased into them before was jut kind of given them and told to take it once a day, so wasn't rally sure how it worked... And yea I am aware it can take up to 6 weeks to start helping and my Dr told me side effects can last up to 3 months so to give it at least 3-4 months if I can push through any side effects I get but to come back sooner if I can't cope with the side effects. It's been over 3 years since I've been on anything and almost 7 since starting any new meds so trying to figure it all out again

Thanks I just wanted to see if I should be starting it at what they said or lower, my doctor didn't tell me anything about starting them other than info on side effects. Yea I figured the 3 weeks off school would give me time to see what if any side effects I'll get.

Ok so I've had my meds for a while now, but I haven't started them yet because I was starting exams at school and figured I'd wait incase I got any side effects... I'm starting them tomorrow since I now have 3 weeks off of school. What I'm wondering is if I should start with a low dose and slowly increase it or follow exactly what my pharmacist told me, which is 1/2 (10mgs) a pill for a week then a whole pill (20mgs), taken in the mornings

Yep they did, they want me back if I have side effects I can't deal with on my own but want me to wait 3 months if I don't get any or can manage them on my own.. They said I can get mild side effects for up to three month.

Just wanted to update I had my appointment today and pick up my med tomorrow. My doctor and I decided to go with paxil and I go back in 3 months to see how it is going unless I need to go back sooner

Sunnybunny thanks for the in put I see my doctor on Monday so I will let you know how that goes and what she suggests I go with I'm in Ontario and I agree that winter may not be the best time, I know I tend to get worse in the winter but it may be different for you, but only you can decide that. I have some family out in BC but have yet to be out there myself.