MorganL0831

Hey worried WorriedJayHawk, it's crazy that i came across your post because last night while my anxiety started to kick in i too was having weird pains in my jaw. I do have TMJ but i don't notice it much. But last night it was like a dull throbbing. While showering i noticed it died down and i brushed real good when i got out. It happened earlier today also, as i started to get worked up over something. After your appointment you should let us know the conclusion, because if it's not some side affect of anxiety, then i think i need an appointment also!

I'll have to look for it and try it out. I'm not on medication yet either... I do have a couple of ativans the doctor gave me from my hospital visit tucked away but she suggested that i hang on to them in case i have an attack like i did the night i went in. I will look though and if i try it out i'll let you know lol sometimes i feel like that too when i'm describing things to people! Well, i think i'm due for a hot shower. Tomorrow i have decided to try and get up and go to church. I haven't went in years but... i always felt so relaxed when i would go (So relaxed i would often start to fall asleep haha) so i think i might check it out, get out of the house and try something different. Thanks for the recommendation!

Thanks Gilly, last night was pretty rough, i ended up being up till 4:30. worrying and over analyzing. i knew what was going on so i got up and hopped on here, fooled around on the internet for awhile. After i was finally tired enough i was able to fall asleep.

Today was actually a really good day, all day... Then sure enough just like every night the last two weeks, I get ready for bed. I start sweating, my chest starts hurting, the muscles in my arms start to ache, dizzy.... And again I start thinking about going to the hospital, wanting to go to the hospital. I feel like I should be in a facility, and i would check myself in if it weren't for my little girl. I don't know where to vent.... there is so much more than the anxiety going on.... If i don't clean, who'll clean? If i don't give her a bath, who'll give her a bath? If i don't play with her, who'll play with her? Who'll keep up the good spirit and make her laugh and tell her she's beautiful, or tell her she's a princess.... or drink 60 cups of pretend tea with her? I feel like everything just adds up and adds up and the answers i get are "if you need help all you have to do is ask." But... why do i have to ask? why do i have to say any thing at all? You should just do it to do it. I feel like i'm going crazy, i feel like i'm failing but i don't want to fail. I'm trying so hard to stay positive and bright and i feel like my light is just going out. and that no one understands....... ....i just wanted to go to sleep....

fcoll 9123 I Private Messaged you. Gogoatgo, yes i love the mythology too! Like i said season 9 is getting a little complicated with all the heaven story lines they have going on but its still pretty good, i just hope they find a way to kind of get back into the basic story line but Seasons 4-6 were my favorite for sure! Do you have a favorite episode that you can remember?

I LOOOOOOOOOOVED this movie, laughed through almost all of it. Bradley Cooper and Jennifer Lawrence were AMAZING. The scene where he was looking for his wedding video and woke his parents up, and the fight that ensued.... oommgg i was laughing so hard it was ridiculous! =)

I've been addicted to this now for a couple of years.Good story line, although this past year i feel like they've dragged on the whole heaven bit of things for too long. I like getting up in the morning and watching old reruns while i wake up. I like how in the episodes they always make referances to other movies, shows, characters in history that type of thing. I feel like each time i watch there is always something to google. Plus add in a bit of the paranormal stuff and i'm there!...and how could you not resist dean? =) Anyone else watch this?

yes... it was actually shortly after dinner and i had been drinking water all day! I've actually been drinking it alot more bc i'm trying to not drink caffeine since i had that attack last week. Every time these things start up i just want to go straight to the hospital. I just want to have tests ran on me daily... just to prove to myself there isn't anything bc i keep thinking that something is. Something undiagnosed, something someone missed, that i'm going to die from. I feel safest when i'm there bc things can be explaine to me. But i know that isn't the case.... it's the anxiety. I like to shower too lately when i start to feel like this. It takes my mind off of everything and puts me in the moment. Thank You everyone.... i appreciate the answers, it really helps.

Thanks, yeah thats what i did a few minutes ago. Just went into the bathroom and started taking a couple deep breaths. It does seem to help, i just read an article under the recommended posts about "nerve x" and how you can strengthen that through breathing. I didn't know that. But i've definetly got to get a routine down for myself. Thank You!

After having a pretty good day at home, cooking dinner, and watching the lion king for the first time with my tater tot, i was in the kitchen peeling her an apple when suddenly my chest began pounding. It felt like a heart pounding but instead of being on the left side it was right in the middle. Has any one else expieranced this? I stopped what i was doing and told my sister if anything were to happen to call 911 right away.... Part of one of my fears is that we are almost 30 minutes away from the nearest hospital, and i'm afraid of driving fast. So having one of them drive me to the hospital scares me, bc i think we'll get into a wreck. And at the same time for some reason i'm afraid i'll stop breathing before the ambulance is able to get to me. Also, when i'm already feeling like this the people in my household seem to ignore this fact that i feel like i'm suffocating and decide to start asking me all kinds of questions i don't know the answer to. "Is there lotion in the living room?" "Do you know where the big nail clippers are? I need them." without even looking for either by themselves. It seems to just push my limits when i'm already feeling like this. I wish i could live closer to town, if i had the money i'd pack up right now and just move into a house or apartment closer to town, but it's not affordable right now. Does anyone else go through this? or know why it happens? It scares me.... but it seems as though right after i told my sister about 911 it stopped. I was in the ER a few days ago for an anxiety attack and they did a chest xray and took blood work and what not.... everything came back fine, so i have a feeling it's part of my anxiety.

Thanks Joy and Gilly!!! Nice to meet you both I'll deffinetly check out the chat room. For now it's dinner time and Family Night, Watching the Lion King with my 2 year old for the first time. I don't know who's more excited her or me. lol have a great night ladies!

Ola Staemosk! I hope getting a little bit of that off your chest helped. What you wrote about not being able to be yourself really hit home for me. I went through the same thing in highschool....and i actually still go through it now just not as bad. Sometimes it helps to go to a small place like the bathroom, close the door, and take a couple deep breathes. Come up with a plan to steady yourself and take one step at a time. Just an idea, maybe you could find a time when you can catch your ma alone and try to casually tell her that you'd like her to make you a doctor appointment, tell her about the anxiety... even if you only tell her a little bit, that you love her but lately your not feeling like yourself, that you feel trapped, and just that you feel anxious and you'd like to see a doctor so you can talk to him about it. That way when she makes the appointment maybe you'll feel like you can open up more and really tell the doctor everything thats going on and he can help you from there. The "shaking" that your expierancing is very common with Anxiety also. Sometimes it helps me when i open a window or step outside for a few minutes to get fresh air. Have you done any online reading on anxiety? Things will get better, Anxiety can be treated, There are things you can do to manage it. You just have to find what works for you. And you CAN do it. Whether it's medication, someone to talk to, Going outside, Music. Or a combination of a few things. Just remember... whether you feel it right now or not. You are important... everyone is different in their own ways, and brings different flavors to the table. Do you drink alot of caffeine? I know that might sound random but i read online that if you ingest alot of caffeine that it can trigger anxiety. I'm a huge redbull fan so for the last couple days it's been no redbull, no pop. I think it is helping a little bit along with a few other things. If you want to talk more get ahold of me! Even if it's just to vent. I've definetly been in a situation similar to yours, so i can understand. Hang in there, It'll be alright man!

Hello Out There, I'm Morgan I'm 26 years old, and ...I have Anxiety. I'm very new to this joining a forum thing, i've never really done it before, But I'm excited to try something new. I never really understood Anxiety. My mother also has Anxiety as well as Depression, and she has suffered from this for many years, Trying lots of different meds... Having the really bad break downs... and has tried to take her own life...twice. I didn't understand when she would say "I can't help it." I didn't understand when she would want to talk about the same thing over and over. Or even before starting something new, whether it be a job, or meeting someone, would plague herself with negative thoughts of "it's not going to work out" "This person hates me" "This person is trying to sabotage me" "I'm going to fail...because I'm not good enough." I would feel this way alot of the time also but instead of voicing it i would try my best to just ignore it, put a smile on my face even if it was fake. I've heard of the term "weak minded." and would feel like this applied to me. I have a hard time voicing my opinion, standing up for myself, and sometimes i can be incredibly shy. But mostly it's because I think I just didn't love myself enough. And then on top of that... The Anxiety would kick in. Over the last couple of years, i'd notice that my thinking has changed. Instead of feeling invincible, happy, out going, and positive, i would begin to worry over little things. We're driving to fast...we're going to get into an accident. I'm alone....I'm always going to be alone. No one wants to be around me if i'm having a bad day because no cares.... i thought feeling this way the majority of the time was normal for some people, so i never talked about it. After getting into a car accident a few years ago, i began to try to and control situations. If someone started speeding i would point it out, even if it was just a few miles over. I felt as though by me asking them to slow down i would prevent us from getting into an accident. And thats really where my anxiety started to take over i think. In 2011 I was blessed with a beautiful baby girl, and my boyfriend and i moved into his grandma's until we could get our own place. After we did... I began to stay home alot. I liked being at my own house because i felt i could control things better here, i felt more comfortable here. My relationships with other began to deteriorate because i would keep to myself. I didn't want to go places with other people because i felt like i would get into an accident if they drove or if we went in their car. If i left the house and no one was home i began thinking my neighbors would break in to steal things we have. Two weeks ago, I had my first full blown anxiety attack. I couldn't swallow, My chest felt tight and heavy, My heart Rate kept speeding up and slowing down, I felt dizzy. My sister took me to the ER, and on the way there my heart rate was so high i thought i was having a heart attack...especially after both my hands went numb. When we arrived i told the nurse that i was pretty sure i was having an anxiety attack. While at the ER they did blood tests, took an ekg, took an xray picture of my chest.... I was fine... the tests all came back normal. The doctor was very good to me, sat and talked to me, let me get things off my chest and helped me relax. She suggested i follow up with my regular doctor to begin treatment, and do as much reading as i can. And to think about finding someone to talk to. While doing some reading on a few different sites on ways to also self help your anxiety including excersizes, diet, and keeping a journal, i came across this site. I want to learn as much as i can, I want to understand and Grow from this. I also like to help people, I like meeting new people, and if nothing else, maybe i can be ear for someone else. Feel free to add, or message me. Especially if you have words of wisdom or even suggestions on ways to help with Anxiety. It's nice to meet everyone! Have A GREAT day and Godbless.