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thats a good idea gilly, think i might try that too.

i wont see her again till next tuesday. i dont have her number, it would be pointless anyway cause get exteremely anxious about phoing anyone.

aw, thanks jon. i am trying to post more to help other people, cause i only really seem to post things asking for help ect. so trying to help more, didnt think im doing that good if a job though. sorry bit off topic!

hi, yes nightmares are part of ptsd. i have suffered from nightmares every night for the past 2, well nearly 3 years. i totally understand you feeling scared about going to sleep, i do too. either i amm too scared to get to sleep, or i can't settle with thoughts flashbacks ect, or i have disturbed sleep. generallly i get what sleep i can, sometimes avoiding it all together depening on how i feel, and eventually my body just crashes and i have to sleep [dont avice that though]. ii have been on sleeping medication too, but still found fear of nightmares made it hard for me to get to sleep. the medication did help some, but i would still have nightmares and would find it harder to wake up from them which cause more panic and anxiety when i did eventually manage to wake myself, and making me more reluctant to go back to sleep. im not great at dealing with nightmares myself, so not really the best person for advice, but [and i know this is hard cause at the time fear can take ovver] but try to keep as calm as you can when they happen, look around the room and describe things you see [can be in your head but i think verbally saying it is best, for me anyway] this should hopeflly bring you back to the now rather than the then. just remind yourself its ok the person isnt here, its just you [or you and whoever your with] and that peson isnt gonna hurt you again, its not happening. i found this exteremely hard to do, especially at first, but stick wih it, it got slightly easier for me over time with practice, still not easy though. Another thing, maybe speak to someone abot it, your doctor. once you have a diagnoses you will be more likely to get more support, and the right support. noone can make you though just advice you. one thing that a psychologist told me was to set myself a bedtime routine. somethig to wind down, so stff like a bath, calm music, reading, drawing, something like that which you enjoy. she said once your body gets in the routine you should find it easier to get to sleep. this hasnt worked for me so far, but i try to stick with it. hope this helped.

ive s/h quite bad tonight to cope

everything seems worse at night times atm!!!

thanks

thanks gilly, i wonder if thats why ptsd has been playing up more recently too.

thanks gilly, im gonna try write it all down for my counsellor again, cause i found that easier last time to give her something to read, then discuss it, cause ot sure why but feel awkward bringing something up verbally. i did mention to my counsellor last week that the cleaning was becoming a bit more regular and more of a problem. she asked why i thought that might be happening but i didnt know. and she sai she thought maybe its because the counselling is helping. cause things get worse before the get better because i am starting to work through thoughts/feelings i order to get better.

yeah i guess i see what your saying now. and its what gilly has been saying for weeks, months even, and i dunno i guess i didnt believe it or didnt want it to be true or something.

i didn't tell my doctor but i told my counsellor, i told her the same time i told her about the s/h and cleaning, and cleaning has kinda took the main focus. but i guess your gonna say i need to try bring it up again.

i guess, but even on this 'break' it's still so hard. i've probablly had one of the worst mornings ye for binging and purging! yet i still seem to want to keep doing it, like it isn't enough

thanks gilly, im not quite as llow this morning, thankfully.

just wish i didnt have to live with it day in and day out! wish i could just have a break, wish we could all have a break!

welcome, dont worry too much about not know what to say, thats normal. its haard to open open to people you have never met before. just take your time, tell us as much or as little as you like, in your own time. we're all here for you.

i just wanted to say thanks for last night, i couldn't have got through it without the support

im scared

i see a cousellor but wont she her till next week. and i am soon meeting someone from an adult mental health team not sure if they are a psychiatrist.

well i guess you know things are bad when you are sat in bed at 3am, weighing up all the pros and cons of living with ptsd or being dead! this disorder illness whatever you want to call it, is hell, everyone telling you to get over the trauma that caused it, but you cant, not because you dont want to but because the ptsd itself doesnt let you, constantly reminding you of what happened. i feel so isolated like noone understands!

thanks gilly. an i am i still havent heard back from the team meeting they had. the woman i met said i would hear someone within the next week or 2, but it will be 3weeks on tuesday that i saw her. i dont really want to be with that team though, i didnt like the woman i met, and i dont even think they want to help me cause they have been messing around since feburary.

hi, thanks for all your replies. im still really scared to go see my gp though. but i was thinking i feel a bit more comfortale about trying to talk it through with my counsellor. i know she cant diagnose me, at least i dont think, but do you think that would be a good place to start or not. sorry for being a pain its just sometiimes like im not me anymore, like ive forgotten to be me or something, i dunno. anyway thanks again.

Hi, thanks, but I don't understand, what's so wrong with self diagnosing, at least I'll know. Right?

hi, i've been looking into histrionics, googling it, and just trying to understand it really. but the one thing i can't seem to find or understand is, why does it start, what triggers it to develop. any responses will be greatly appriciated thanks. and anything else you could tell me about it would be great to, thanks.

hi, thanks. i dont like reading about this kinda stuff, hearing what people have been throough, and knowing thats what could potentially be waiing for me! i think it was briefly explained what it is when i was diagnosed, but when i heard you have ptsd, for some reason my mind just kinda shut down. i remember just sitting there thinking, i have another mental illness! could get it out my mind and what they were saying wouldnt go in, best way i can describe it is what they were saying was like background noise. i was diagnosed janurary but had it for about 2years before that unknown, as i'd never heard of it before. at first i was under a child and adolesence mental health team and had very regular support from them, by them coming to my house, going for a drive with them, or driving then going for a walk, going for a drink somewhere, as well as texting support. and on medication. had 12weeks of counselling. still on medication but been changed few times, and gp now deals with that. still awaiting o hear if i am going to be taken on by the adult mental health, been waiting since i turned 18 in feburary. but have a feeling the way they have been going on i wont be, as i dont think they care about me or even want to help! but i should be hearing from them very soon to hear the decision theyve made, and gp said to wait to hear what they decide, and if they arent going to take me on, even thhough i was refered by my old psychiatrist from the adolecent team, that my gp is gong to refer me to a mental health team i newcastle, which isn't as local, so he said not sure if they will take me due to area. recently started counselling again, with a organisation which specialises in sexual abuse and r. sorry i still cant say that word.

Hi, is it normal for, or can ptsd get worse over time?