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thanks jon. just want to chill tonight though, so stressed out after today!

sorry for the slow reply, haven't been on until now, cause just haven't had the energy to even pick my laptop up and turn it on. im sorry about last night my anxiety just got higher and higher and needed to tell someone cause I was past the point of scared. they seem to just be getting more demanding and more angry if I ignore them. I was terrified last night, honestly thought they were real was so scared I forgot they weren't.

I really really really need help tonight the voices are shouting and getting really mad. they want me to do stuff but I don't want to but they keep threatening me saying I have to I don't know what to do im scared. please help me

sorry posted before I was meant to. I would love to say I knew what you were going through, but I don't. though I do understand how hard anxiety can be, and I haven't really told anyone before, but I did go through a lot of confusion at one point about my gender. not on the same level, it was more just questioning myself a lot. and don't think that just because I don't fully understand what your going through that I wont try my best to support you, cause I will.

welcome Abigail, everyone here is lovely i'm sure you will get lots of help and support and make lots of friends.

well, I don't know if she should of, but she didn't. she was telling me how its common, and explained its in response to fear of the nightmares.

no shes looked after me long enough! its my turn to look after her, she doesn't need to be worrying about me any longer! I need to do all I can to look after her and make her life as easy as possible, so not worrying about me! im sorry I cant do it, I cant tell her. I told my counsellor she said its common in people with PTSD, so its all ok, no one else needs to know.

im fed up! I didn't get to sleep till after 5am this morning, had to even get my mum to come in my bed, but just as I was eventually dozing over I paniced tinking that I might wet myself again while she was in my bed, then she would know all about it, so I had to wake her up and tell her to go in her bed so I had to start all over again. im just tired of trying to get through each day!

Everythings just getting too much and had a sht night lst night!

im scared

whhy is it so hard

hi, thanks guys. i did go, and the woman i met was actually really nice. she didnt push me to say anything i didnt want to. im going to have 4 sessions with her so i can get to know her and share more with her, so she can build up a picture, she read my notes, but said there not clear or something. she going to help me understand why stuff is happening flashback ect. and then once i understand we're going to have a session with my mum to help her understand why i do the things i do. it was quite interesting cause she said whenever she went near the topic about what happened i would tense up and look away, and kinda go into my own little world, i think she said it was disociating not sure though, bt i never noticed that before, until she said. thanks for helping be confident enough to go, im glad i did.

ok, i totally forgot, but i have an appointment with the adult mental health team tody, im so scared, i dont even want to go. i feel all panicy and anxious and just awful i ned help to calm down and go or something,

well your in the right place then, they know tons about anxiety ect. im sorry you have been having a hard time, ive only had this for 2 nearly 3 years now.

welcome, im not the best with words or advice tbh, but i will try my best, and im always here to listen. im glad you found us, everyone here is great, and i hope it helps you too. dont worry youill probablly get more replies later, always quietier at this kinda time.

i suppose, thanks guys. but going out has now just got alot harder!

thanks guys. i understand now joycicle, thanks. im gonna trry accept things more. one thing that reallly gets to me is when i see al my old friends have been out and had a good time, and i cant do that anymore. i cant be normal

so if im not fighting it, am i just letting myself be anxious, and trying to manage it. its just hard to do anything atm i dont even want to get out of bed. thanks for your help, i really appriciate it.

but i dont want to be self-centred. but fighting anxiety is so exhausting.

what do you mean

gilly i dont think i can do this

paranoid, thats all this is, but even normal people get paranoid

but i feel like evreyone is. like there all watching me and judging me!

i know the embarassment is just so big for me though. it took me the whole session pretty mch to tell her, and even then i couldnt tell her verbally i had to write it down, and i had to get her to leave the room while i wrote it!

thanks gilly i will. at the end of the last session i told her something that felt massive! i feel so embarassed and right now i dont even want to see her agin, how am i gonna face her!