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Thank you Ironman and Zesty. I'm having the scope tomorrow and I am deathly scared of the results. I fear they will confirm something like the big C or a chronic condition. I am so close to backing out.

Yes, I am getting a colonosopy this week. I am just deathly scared of the results.

Thank you. I just hope I can stay away from negative thoughts until the test. I keep Googling stuff and I cannot take it.

Hello Marc, thanks for your reply. I would've freaked out if that happened to me. But I'm glad everything turned out fine. Do you still get the bleeding issue now and then?

Thank you for your response. I'm glad that everything turned out well especially with the polyps they found. I just wish I could stay away from catastrophic thouoghts until then. 😞

Hi all, I am a 31 male who has had on and off health anxiety for more than a decade. Now this isn't the first time it happened, but just a while ago, I pooped this evening and when I wiped, there was some amount of blood on the tissue paper. Not just drops, but a huge smudge of it. It wasn't dripping or anything, but it was enough to freak me out. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to see the poop itself because I had already flushed it before I wiped. Believe it or not, I have developed this habit of not looking at my stool and just flushing them immediately because I have this tendency to overanalyze it from the consistency, color, texture, etc. I've tried to make it a habit to only look at the stool if I have other abdominal symptoms. Now I kinda regret it because I wasn't able to check if the poop was the usual brown or was it bloody or tarry black. Anyway, I know that my issue is most likely caused by benign things like anal tears or piles, but I cannot help but think the worst. For the record, I have done some things recently: 1. My partner and I have recently tried anal stuff in sex like fingering and putting small toys. Sorry if this is TMI, but not sure if I had bled during those times. The last time we did it was three weeks ago which I guess was already too long ago if I only noticed the bright red blood on the tissue paper tonight (tho there might be a chance I did not notice it). We haven't done it since and we probably won't do it anytime soon. 2. For almost two weeks, I've tried reducing the amount of food I take because I want to lose more weight. 3. Bowel movement has been okay so far. Right now, I just keep reading how the big C is becoming more prevalent among younger people like me. :( I am just so damn anxious at the mere thought of anticipating my next poop, thinking ahead it might be bloody or black once I take a look. :( I was able to see a nice gastro who said that it could be just an anal tear. She put her finger on my butt for examination but said she couldn't feel anything like hemmoroids. She did say I should consider a colonoscopy, which I finally did. I am scheduled for one next Friday. She said she doesn't seem too concerned given my age and medical history although she said it's more of peace of mind. I am deathly scared of the results. Has anybody else had bad symptoms down there like pooping and bleeding but had a clear colonoscopy? Please help :(