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  1. I keep getting this throbbing pain in my right leg on and off. Sometimes its in the same spot, other times it moves up a little bit but not to far up. It's not swollen or hot or anything, It just throbs for about 3 - 6 seconds then stops.
  2. This happened after I just woke up, I leaned up and was on my phone for about 10 mins or so and then I had something that felt like a heart palpation but it was more like a reallt big increase in heart speed for like 8 to 10 seconds and then it went away, which chest pain around my heart area began to surface? I know I got anxiety that's for sure but why did this happen to me? Why now.
  3. Hello all. I have had a hellish week. I have had terrible back pain and abdominal pain for a 3 days with no sign of letting up. Went to urgent Care and was given meds for back sprain, but my anxiety is still flying high. The worst part is the pain I feel when I get up after sleeping. I haven't been able to get a full night's rest without waking up in pain. I don't know what I am worried about specifically, but I am worried there is something sinister that I am going to die from. Anyone out there was experience with back pain?
  4. 3 years ago my nephew died. He was two years old and it was the biggest shock my family has ever had to deal with. And today he finally got the white marble headstone he deserves x I won’t go into a lot of detail but a lot of my family, including myself, went through counselling. It took four months for anyone to get round to seeing us, that’s just how long it takes apparently. My mum, sister and brother (who’s child we lost) benefitted quite a bit, they felt they could vent and was being heard. My counsellor was young, not much older then I was and I was 19 at the time. It seemed like to me she didn’t have any experience with bereavement counselling. I felt sorry for her, she seemed new. She did everything by the book and in the end tried to take me down a different path, she tried to treat me for my worrying. Worry therapy. I was full of sadness, rage, frustration and hopelessness. But she didn’t know how to help me. And it was my fault really. I told her I had had one thought about killing myself and I had dismissed it because it wasn’t the road I wanted to go down, for myself and my family. We had all lost too much already. But every time she saw me it looked like she was glad I hadn’t topped myself and just focused on me filling out worry diaries. I began to lie to her. Telling her everything was feeling better. I was feeling more optimistic. I thanked her for her help and didn’t return to her again. I went to 6 sessions over 3 months. And because I pushed everything down it creeps up on me every now and then. I get Day dreams were I live out the events of the night he died. I get the pain as if it was happening all over again. I suppose I’ve shocked my nerves, I’ve shaken my core. I threw myself in to living again, saying that everything I do now will be in the name of my nephew, so he can carry on living through me. I went to university with the thought of him powering me forward. And I’m nearly at the end of that journey, I’m in my final year, I’m doing really well on my course. But still I get these attacks, visions and low moments. I didn’t get the help I needed because I didn’t know how to get it and I was tired and weak. But now is the time I suppose. Better late then never! To My Nephew, I love you, I miss you, I live for you and I’ll see you again one day Your loving auntie x
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  6. Hey all, I thought I was past this stage in my life however I am absolutely terrified at the moment. A week ago I went to the doctor for some mild testicular comfort. I'm aware of how out of control my health anxiety can get so I decided to bite the bullet and get checked out by a GP. He had a feel around and found nothing, afterwards deciding to get me to complete a routine urine test. Upon testing the test with the dipstick he told me there seems to be microscopic traces of blood in my urine. I mentioned that I'd had a doctor discover the same thing around four years ago who didn't seem concerned. This doctor said that was negligent and that there is always a cause of blood in my urine. He proceeded to send the test off for further analysis. Since then I have had terrible pain and discomfort in my lower abdomen and back alongside a dramatically increased frequency in urination. This is also accompanied by mild pain. Eventually the results came back to which the nurse said were "clear" although she couldn't elaborate on what clear meant. For example it could mean clear of infection which could further indicate a bladder cancer causing the blood. She was unable to elaborate as the doctor unbeknownst to me has now gone on a six month sabbatical and the clinic wont have a replacement for over a month so I'm absolutely in limbo. Has anyone out there had a similar situation? This is really starting to effect my personal and professional life.
  7. Background Information: for those that don't know a Vericocele is a problem that occurs with a damaged vein in the testicle that becomes inflamed, I was recently diagnosed with one and this question is geared more towards people who also have one and can answer my questions with personal experience, emotional support is of course always welcomed. So I've been researching the condition and I have some questions about it. 1. I had read that they are capable of causing chronic constipation but it was only one source, and I can't find any other information about the the relationship between the 2 conditions, and I've been experiencing chronic constipation lately and I was wondering if anyone else with a testicular vericocele has experienced constipation? 2. It's embarrassing to say but I can't shake the feeling that I'm having difficulties performing sexually, or at least I think I am. My long time girlfriend has told me that everything seems normal but I can't shake the feeling that something is wrong, I'm 22 and I shouldn't feel like I'm having a hard time maintaining an erection, now I've considered that maybe knowing that there is some kind of damage to my genitals is causing a mental block but I'm curious if anyone with a vericocele has experienced something similar, and I'm curious as to wether or not there is an actual physical link between sexual performance and this condition. Apologies for the long winded post, thank you in advance to anyone who can offer information.
  8. This is my first time posting here so I apologize in advance if this turns out to be rambly or long.. For about 2 months now I've been feeling a lot of discomfort on my left side. It started with a pain in my chest, then under my left breast, then in the ribs just below my left breast and then across the armpit and on my upper breast. Most times its a dull/heavy sort of feeling. Like I'm constantly aware of anything touching or rubbing against this breast. Sometimes I even feel a sort of twinge or pull in the armpit/upper breast area. I often get back aches as well- mostly between my shoulder blades and I'm convinced I have breast cancer which has gone into the bone. I've been to my family doctor who didn't perform a breast exam (he only pressed on my ribs, back and neck) and said sometimes pain can't be explained. I went to emergency where they did an EKG and said my heart was perfectly fine. I now have an appointment tomorrow with a different doctor to have a full breast exam done. I know I have terrible anxiety and some days I do so well with believing all of this pain is anxiety related but of course I end up on the internet and find articles describing breast cancer and of course I have every single sign and symptom. I'm just really hoping there's someone on here who has dealt with similar symptoms to mine.
  9. I've always gotten canker sores periodically for as long as I can remember, usually along my bottom gum lines and never any other symptoms beside local pain. Woke up Tuesday with one on my soft palate (behind wisdom teeth, not quite back of throat), never had gotten one that far back before, but I also have headache, tender neck, & upper body stiffness to go along with this, not to mention swelling around the sore and painful swallowing. I read some extreme symptoms like fever & diarrhea can accompany canker sores, but I am wondering how some canker sore spells can feel much worse than others? I haven't been sick or had one of these sores in a while. HPV is always a dormant fear of mine since having a 4 yr period of bad pap smears and procedures to remove cervical dysplasia. Been clear of dysplasia and HPV for over a year, so trying not to let my head go there.
  10. Hi I'm new to AC, im 24 and have experienced anxiety intermittently for as long as I remember. However, recently I've been having different issues that my doctor keeps telling me is just anxiety but I'm so paranoid that it's something more, it's driving me crazy. I got back to the US in January after visiting my parents abroad. About 4 hours after landing I felt this hard thud in my chest, I got super dizzy almost collapsed when I stood up, my heart was racing and my legs were shaking uncontrollably. I went to the ER thinking I was having some sort of heart episode, but they did a bunch of blood tests, an ekg, and a chest X-ray which all came back normal. They hooked me up to 2 IV's which brought my heart rate down, they attributed everything to dehydration and sent me home. A few days later I was watching TV when all of a sudden my legs started to shake uncontrollably again, my heart started to race, my chest was incredibly tight, and I honestly thought that I was going to die. I went back to the ER in the morning and they did more tests but couldn't find anything. They told me I most likely experienced a panic attack and to talk to a therapist it's now almost the end of February and nothing has improved. I've had 4 or 5 of these shaking panic attacks when it feels like there is a band across half my chest and fire in my veins in my neck and chest. On a daily basis I feel this weird aching pain in the left side of my chest radiating from my armpit to the Center of my chest and also causes discomfort in the top of my left breast. I've had multiple EKG's and echo tests done because I truly think it's physical. I've never had anxiety manifest itself in this way before, multiple doctors have told me I have a panic disorder and that the baseline for my anxiety is just higher now. I truly feel like this is ruining my life. It's present almost every day, it gets worse with anxiety and strain, and as soon as I feel the pain (which sometimes radiates down the inside of my left arm) I can feel the anxiety start. My neck gets tight and slightly spastic, and as soon as my legs start to seize (best description of what happens) I know there's nothing I can do at that point. Im just wondering if anyone has experienced similar chest/armpit pain? Is this really anxiety or am is it some hidden ailment? I've been in Zoloft for almost a month and haven't seen much improvement. My doctor dismisses this pain and basically just sends me home to deal with it on my own but it's difficult when you don't know what you're dealing with. Sorry for the long rant Any advice/suggestions would be so helpful Thanks!
  11. Hi I am new here. I have ptsd and anxiety, and depression. Also get some depersonalization. I have a few major serious illnesses - the most serious of which are a heart problem caused by pneumonia and c****r. I also have sciatica in my neck with 4 herniated discs. And spinal stenosis in my lower back in 4 vertibra. Problems slow me down some, but I never allow them to stop me. I am here to learn and grow - and to receive help and to help others. In my spare time - i go to the gym 4 times a week and play between 2 and 6 hours of piano a day. DO you have any serious illnesses to mention/discuss and how you feel about them and deal with them? hugs
  12. I've already talked to two people on here who told me not to worry about it, but this pain of the left side of my abdomen has been freaking me out! It started in my lower stomach, I'd feel a sharp pain when I sat down. Now it's moved from my lower stomach to the entire left side of my stomach. It also doesn't help that I have back pain, but I've been having back pain on and off for months now, which believe is due to my job, but I never can be sure. I googled it. Yes, I used doctor google, and I google everything. I'm so scared of what this pain could be, even though in the back of my head I know its probably nothing serious. I don't know where it came from, but it started last week, and I've already had two anxiety attacks because of it. There's too many things that it could be, from kidneys, to ovaries, to bladder, to uterus, to digestive tract...I'm so confused. I'm seeing a urologist on the 31st, but I'm debating on whether or not to go to an ER or an urgent care. Advice!
  13. Hello! I wanted to share something going on with me that is separate from my anxiety/panic/depression. (The story of why I have anxiety/panic/depression does not seem like an important detail to tell. I only want to share the journey of recovery.) For a few years now I've had trouble with my lower back. Nothing too serious (so I thought). If I began to feel pain I would just take it easy for a few days and treat it with rest, ice, and Aleve. BUT about a month or so ago, right after my anxiety/panic returned, I woke up with excruciating pain down my whole left leg. I couldn't feel my toes or outside of my left foot. I could barely walk. I started taking heavy doses of Motrin and using ice, but it was no use. I figured the pain would eventually subside but it wouldn't let up. Finally I went to my doc and they kind of down played it, thinking I was just being sensitive. They sent me for Xrays and put me on a prescription strength Aleve (naproxen). They also put in a request for an MRI. Long story short they rejected my MRI 3 times. I went back my Doc for a different problem and I told him the problem was persisting. I received a referral to the spine specialist. Finally the specialist got me and MRI and I began physical therapy. Well, yesterday I saw the specialist to go over the results...it's not good. I have two herniated discs. One of which is so degenerated that there is practically no disc between the vertebrae. The disc is laying onto of the sciatic nerve completely covering it. If that isn't repaired, I could have permanent damage of the nerve forever. Which means numb foot for the rest of my life. (Oh, did I mention I am a dance teacher for a living so MOVING is my livelihood?) He said he may have to do surgery! I DO NOT WANT SURGERY! I don't want to take any narcotics because it messes with my anxiety. So for now, I will continue PT and they're going to give me cortisol shots! Yuck. And if that doesn't work I will get "minimally invasive" surgery to shave down the disc off the nerve. I'm in a lot of pain and I'm very upset because this is a lifelong problem and I am only 24. I'm scared it will ruin my career. I can't run, lunge, or squat. So my gym activity is very very limited. This is exacerbating my anxiety/panic because it is an additional stressor that affects my overall attitude plus increases my levels of tension in the body. Now I am seeing two types of therapists...a cognitive behavioral therapists and a physical therapist. I am not a healthy girl right now and I am frustrated and scared. I'm putting so much effort into getting better it exhausts me. My social life has suffered a lot but I everyone is telling me that I HAVE to take care of myself right now and put ME first. I have difficulty with that. If anyone is reading this, did you ever experience a significant injury like mine? How did you overcome it? Did it make your anxiety worse? How did you cope? Thanks for the read. Sorry to ramble.
  14. Hi everybody, i want to share my concerns.It all started one year ago when i suffered a major injury to my neck. I fractured my thyroid cartilage which is a pretty rare condition. 3 CT scans were needed in order to prove that. The doctors couldn't figure out almost, so that was the first time where i lost trust for them.Since then i'm always worried about my health and started looking things up on the internet to figure out what problems could i have. My phisiotherapist recognized that i have a mild scoliosis at my thoracic spine, a more severe scoliosis at my cervical spine and he sent me to the chiropractor to adjust it.Before i went to the chiropractor 2 days before i started to look up things on the internet that are related to spinal adjustments. I've found out some pretty scary things about that which are : stroke, damaged nerves and damaged discs.When i went to the chiropractor i remember that i was pretty much terrified of what could happen if he adjusts my spine. The adjustment went "well" so to speak, in that moment i've felt better my posture was better, my neck was longer.However at my way home 4 hours later after the adjustment was made, my neck started to become really stiff, and on the back of my neck, on the left side it started to burn really hard, and i started to panic , like i thought that im going to have a stroke.Since then i had many symptoms: shortness of breath, dizziness, blurred vision, my ears are ringing, sometimes i loose my balance ,some stomach turbulence, brain fog, and i have headaches ( mostly on the left and right side.)I asked my chiropractor about stroke and he told me that if i was to have a stroke i would got it immeadiately after the adjustment was made, or in that day. I asked my phyisiotherapist and he told me that when the adjustments were made it shocked my whole body and thats why i have these symptoms. I recognize that i'm pretty stressed most of the time mostly after the chiropractic visit.Sometimes i fell asleep and i woke up in the middle of the night, an im tired during the day.It's been already one week after the chiropractic adjustmetns and i still feel dizzy, with a lack of balance, my left ear is still ringing, i can't properly think, i have sometimes shortness of breath, and i have sometimes headaches on the left side and the right side of my head.I researched many things and the one thing that stuck with me besides after neck adjustments is the danger of stroke, and restricted arteries which causes blood insufficiency. I have some questions for you guys because im really confused right now. Am i in danger of getting a stroke? It's been already 1 week after the neck adjustments. How fast a stroke develops? Could it be long ? i mean weeks after the adjustments?Could it be that my arteries got restricted and i get smaller quantity of blood to my brain? Are these symptoms related more to anxiety or more related to chiropractic? After one week i still feel dizzy, unbalanced, blurred vision, brain fog, headache, ear ringing, stomach turbulance.. What should i do , think ? Pls help me out, im feeling hopeless right now..
  15. Hey, I'm Health Anxiety Nut. I'm currently going through some issues with my breast, as the title would imply. A little over a month go I switched PCP's, due to the 3 month long waiting period for a regular appointment as well as a 1 month long urgent appointment. This PCP also canceled appointments on me quite a bit as well. Thus led me to find a new doctor who ran her own practice with other doctors and had a walk in policy. Yay right? So onto the main story, I have been having issue with my left breast (I'm male by the way). My nipple has changed color, texture, sensitivity, and would constantly be hard. Now normally my nipples would be flat, and pink and fine. No... not this one. It's leathery, hard, dark brown, puckered in and just painful. So I took initiative and talked to my new doctor about it, who then so promptly freaked out. She scheduled an urgent ultrasound for the next day in the morning, then goes on that men can get breast "C" too. ban What am I thinking at that moment?! "Omg, this is it." Once I left I preceded to break down in the driver seat of my car for about two hours while Googling at the same time. Such... a bad idea. The next morning I brought my aunt with me to the Ultrasound to have some support. Her kind words were "You're young! I don't think things can happen like this to young people." The ultrasound technician was nice, and did not hold any concern to what was going on. But the gel irritated my breast, and my nipple to the point where no bandage big enough could calm this down. So many different symptoms came after that, itching, burning, hardness, skin changes, my breast was easily bigger then the other, and the skin on the outside was rough as well. The technician told me that my results should be in by the next day, I heard nothing till about a week later. All clear! yay! Why so late? Doctor was on vacation. Today my doctor gave me a call and told me, "Even though everything is clear? I still don't like your symptoms and I don't like what I saw. I wouldn't be too worried." So I asked if this is an urgent matter. She then preceded to tell me, "Yes, because that means you could have "C" in your nipple. I'm sending you to a breast specialist. Come in tomorrow to get your referral." Now with me in such a tizzy I ask her if I should be concerned? She then begins to tell me, "I don't think so, but things do happen to people like yourself." After that I began full panic mode. I haven't touched google, but that call was not a great help either. I know I shouldn't worry since I'm only 22, male and no family history of basically any "C". But then again "C" knows no boundaries. I'm new, and that's what is going on. Any ideas on trying to calm myself would be wonderful. Thanks for reading.
  16. My name is logan, and I suffer from frequent anxiety and panic attacks. It is affecting my quality of life. I am planning on seeking professinal help and medication soon, unless it stops itself. (Though I doubt that.) I would like to hear the oppinions of people who have/are going through this. Please help me choose my next course of action.
  17. I sometimes get real bad neck/throat pain, like in the upper part of my neck/throat it feels like really stressed, almost like the muscle is tight. My jaw isn't aligned correctly, so my dentist said my jaw never stops working and it's always moving and it could cause some discomfort, do you think this is what it is? I've looked at my throat and it doesn't look red or swollen, but I'm in so much discomfort and I'm scared it might trigger a panic attack. I'm drinking some hot tea to try to soothe it, it's worked some but not much. Do you think my neck/throat pain could be caused by my jaw or do you think it's an anxiety symptom? Also does anyone have any suggestions on how to alleviate the discomfort? Thank you
  18. Right, basically I've been suffering with anxiety for 6 months, I got plpitations one night after no sleep I was taking to hospital cause I think I was having a heart attack thought my heart would stop and that I was going to die. Ever since I feel my Pulse like ten times a day, I pinch myself to make sure I'm still alive, I can't sleep, be by myself, or stay over someone's house. It's really affected mine and my bra relationship. I don't know what to do. I'm in constant fear. I don't go out with my mates or drink anymore. Everyday I'm thinking when's it gonna happen again it's so scary. What can I do? I went to a therapist but she only made me upset all the time I feel so hopeless
  19. Hey guys. I just wanted to ask from people who may know... The physical side of my anxiety symptoms are out of control. I have shooting pains all around my chest area, where my heart's at, in the middle of my chest, on the right side as well as the left, etc... I also get them in my wrists, my neck, and occasionally my rib area and my gut. I'm also a chronic pulse-checker, and last night, I swear I felt my heart stop for a few seconds, on multiple occasions, which ended up keeping me awake all night in fear. I've been to the hospital several times, had several EKGs, several chest x-rays, and several blood tests, yet I'm still completely convinced something is horribly wrong with me that the doctors missed, or there's something wrong that the doctors didn't check for. Are these pains normal? Should I try to get another doctor's opinion? I feel like my heart is gonna just stop beating any second and I'm gonna drop dead. Please help, this fear is ruining my life!
  20. I've found one of the probable causes of my pain and I'm trying not to be terrified... If anyone has a kind word, or personal experience, or anything else to share, please do share it. I'm back to extreme anxiety again, even to the point of trembling. This comes after dealing with pressure in my left flank for six weeks, then beginning to feel sharp, intermittent pains in that area, and in my upper left abdomen over the last week. --- --- --- Here's the info I found. One of these must be the condition I'm dealing with, because the doctor ordered spinal x-rays and an abdominal ultrasound, both of which I had today: When people think they're having kidney pain, they're usually talking about flank pain, which is pain in the back between the lowest rib and the buttock. And, while true kidney pain can be experienced in this area, pain in the flank does not necessarily mean it is coming from the kidney. Other causes of flank pain include muscle strain, degenerative disease of the lumbar spine, fracture or infection of the spine, shingles, and problems in the back of the pelvis. The kidney can be painful from infection or injury. Infection of the kidney is known as pyelonephritis. This type of flank pain usually occurs on one side and is dull in character. Fever may be present along with other signs of urinary tract infection (UTI), such as bleeding or pus in the urine. It is also possible to have signs of a UTI without kidney pain in an infection of the lower urinary tract. Flank pain may also be felt when there is traumatic injury to the kidney. Bleeding in the kidney, whether due to trauma or other conditions, is another cause of pain originating in the kidney. In addition to injury, bleeding disorders or blood clots can sometimes cause hemorrhage into the kidney. Other possible, but less common, causes of kidney pain include polycystic kidney disease, horseshoe kidney (a congenital abnormality of the shape of the kidney), kidney c****r, blood clots in the veins from the kidneys (renal veins), and a lack of blood flow due to arteriosclerosis of the arteries to the kidneys (renal arteries). Kidney stones are another common cause of flank pain, but this pain usually does not truly arise in the kidney. Rather, the pain of kidney stones most commonly develops because the stones block a portion of the urinary tract, usually the ureter that connects the kidney to the bladder. The pain from a kidney stone is usually sharp and severe and may come in waves. This is known as renal colic. If you experience flank pain along with fever or blood in the urine, it is important to seek medical attention right away. You should also seek medical care if your flank pain is severe or is persistent or if you have signs of a urinary tract infection without flank pain. Source: http://www.medicinenet.com/kidney_pain_symptoms_and_causes/views.htm
  21. I've had to come on to this because its half 3 in the morning and I can't sleep. I had a doctors appointment today but I didn't go in the end. I just don't want to live, I'm not s*****al and I wont harm myself but why can't I just go to sleep and never wake up. I can't keep living this way its not fair on myself anymore, I can't tell anyone any of this cause I don't want sympathy and all that bullshit talk. Lloyd s back, as I get weaker, he gets stronger and he's winning these battles. I abuse myself all the time because I'm worthless. Im fucking disgusting, look at me! I always want to rip my hair out or punch myself because that's what I deserve for feeling this way. I know the way I am effects my mum and others and that's not what I want! It drives me crazy because I feel bad for the way I'm making people feel. No one wants to do anything with me because I'm probably horrible to be around. Do you know how easy it would be to take a early morning stroll and chuck myself of a bridge or into a train track? Im physically and mentally drained now. I can't tell the doctors any of this because all it will be is pills and therapy, I've wasted to much of my life already. Always tempted to grab a bottle of vodka and fuck off somewhere and just go, that would be better off, to leave this earth. I wont be missed. Everyone's moving on with there life's yet I'm stuck in the same place like I have been for the past 2 years. I say things all the time that people think I'm joking when I'm being serious. Everyone thought I was going a bit loopy when I was looking into the 2012 theory and thought I was just being fooled when in reality I was hoping for something like that to happen so I could die and not have to do it myself and cause that strain on my family. Anything I watch or do effects me so bad and I don't know why. I can't watch films because they just fuck me up even more. I can't think straight anymore, I can't speak properly anymore because my minds constantly racing. How long am I supposed to put up with this before I just finish what I started? Its just not fair
  22. Looking back, I guess I always had anxiety. I just didn't know what it was. I remember telling my best friend, when we were little kids, that I felt like I could not catch my breath. This would happen quite often. Never gave it much thought.....then I grew up. All throughout my marriage, I always felt like my husband was into someone else. I am JUST now putting this together and realizing it was an anxiety/OCD issue. I just thought I was insecure. He was not real nice to me, but was very friendly to the wives of our friends. Ehhh....okay, no biggy. He became pretty verbally abusive through the years and I was, honestly, the perfect wife. I just wanted to be a mom and wife and live happily ever after. (I know all of this sounds like nothing to do w/ health anxiety, YET!) We had a stable marriage and did well for ourselves financially. Had (I still live in it) a nice home, nice trucks (yes, we are in Texas) and lots of friends and family. Skip forward to 9/11....I had my first emotional breakdown ever! Without getting into too many details, I thought we were all going to die in a nuclear war. This emotion was brought on by a friend whose husband was in the Secret Service and she called me one day to tell me to stay home w/ my family that weekend. FREAKED! ME! OUT! For two weeks....I was a basket case. I could not eat, sleep or function. I cried constantly and had claustrophobia just going up to the 2nd floor of my office building. I snapped out of that two weeks later and went about my life. Six months later I started getting a mild burning sensation on my upper arms. Didn't get upset....but after it continued, I went to the doctor and talked to him about it. He sent me to a rheumatologist thinking it was a connective tissue issue like Lupus or something. I saw the rheumy and he found nothing to be concerned over. All tests were negative. He even did an MRI of my c-spine to check for anything that could cause peripheral neuropathy in my arms. Nothing was found. I ended up at a neuro's office doing EMGs, etc. No answers. I believe this is when I was first told it was probably anxiety. I started reading stuff on the net.... Jump back to 1994 when I was dx w/ Pars Planitis in my left eye. A rare eye disease that CAN be linked to MS, in fairly small percentages...but linked to MS, just the same! I recall being told that in 1994 and it upset me....but we didn't have internet, nor did we have medical literature at our fingertips like we do now. I was clueless as to what MS really was, but that MS seed was planted in my head the day the nurse mentioned it at the eye doctor's office. Well...at this point (in 2002), I'm reading and starting to worry! The husband is NO HELP. He would tell me I was crazy and all that entails. He also was NOT supportive of my emotions when I was scared to death after the 9/11 incident. Which, of course, made it worse. My partner in life was supposed to support me and make me feel safe. Didn't happen. So...basically...anytime I had a concern or worry, I was to suck it up and deal with it. I will have to cut this short, because I'd have to type all day. I went through 2 rough years of hurting all over, not sleeping, skin pain, skin burning (which had started to cover my entire body), depression, etc....until I FINALLY took my doctor's advice and got on Zoloft. The first week was ROUGH. It made it all worse. I remember talking to him on the phone and telling him it was making me worse. He told me to stick with and I would soon feel better. He was RIGHT! A week later, I was my old self again. Pain and burning were GONE! I was sleeping again and felt great. A couple of months into the Zoloft, I would have breakthroughs of the burning, but never called the dr. I think it's cause I was on a low dose and probably needed to be bumped up. I would get off and back on the Zoloft after about 6-8 months and a month or so later, the symptoms would come back. So...I got back on it in 2007 and said I would NEVER get off of it. My husband left me for our next door neighbor in September 2007 and, luckily, I was on the Zoloft at that time. I had breakdowns and was in misery, but I was not hurting physically. I got off of it in November 2007 and felt great, physically, for almost 4 yrs. On Mother's Day 2011, the x husband pulled a nasty stunt that REALLY upset me and had me hysterical....and low and behold two days later, I was waking up in the middle of the night, started hurting...and then the burning came back. I was a WRECK for 3 straight months!!!! A complete WRECK. Even had to miss my 2nd day on a new job because I had attempted to get back on Zoloft and it made me worse. I woke up crying uncontrollably. My story is very spotty, but for the past 2 yrs, I have bouts of fatigue that lasts for weeks (somtimes w/ the burning - sometimes not). When I talk about burning now, it's usually on my face for the most part. My face will feel like it's on fire. No redness....nothing. I had a brain MRI in 1996 due to ringing ears. I had the c-spine MRI in 2002. I had another brain MRI in 2003. Then after taking myself to an MS specialist in 2004 and 2005, he finally ordered a brain MRI in 2005. All of my MRIs were clear and I was sent home w/ the anxiety/depression diagnosis. I went and saw a new neuro in 2011 and again last year in 2012. She said it's anxiety/depression. She did an EMG of my arms due to me waking up w/ numb hands (only during the night) and find something abnormal in my neck, but I never went for my c-spine MRI. This is the basics of my story. I do believe I have PTSD/OCD/depression/anxiety all packed into one nice package. I am now a single mom of a 15 yr old son. I have a great job and make great money...I maintain my house, pool and yard. I function pretty well despite the crap I've been through. ANXIETY SUCKS!
  23. Am I missing the section or should I recommend a section on chronic pain, not fibromyalgia, or RSD? I suffer from RSD (regional sympathetic dysfunction) which is more commonly known as Chronic Regional Pain Syndrome. It is a very real disorder that I often get accused of faking, despite the fact that I have NEVER been a lazy person and despite of the fact that at times I am doubled over in pain. Does anyone else here suffer from chronic pain? RSD is different from Fibro because unlike Fibro it affects the sympathetic nerves, causing your brain to always think it hurts. I would be happy to explain it more to those who aren't familiar.