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  1. I have been convincing myself that i am perfectly fine, my stool has been more or less normal. But i guess that i am unlucky and when i find peace of mind something happens to scare me again.Just half an hour ago, when i was going to sleep, i had to go to the bathroom. A normal poop, but the strange thing i already did 2 times today. It happened to me in the past to go 3 times, but it has been a long time i didn't go 3 times.So now you will say "it's not a big thing". But as an hypocondriac i'm already thinking the worst :- tomorrow i will go 3 times again _ it will mean i had a change in bowel movements and something is wrong with me_ i will wake up and i won't go to the bathroom and my bowel movement times will change.I'm trying to think what made me go 3 tmes today, maybe some boiled vegetables i ate for dinner made me go, since i don't eat boiled vegetables normally.Well, tomorrow will be a full day waiting and thinking about bowel movements !i thought i was gettin out of it...
  2. 1 - you do not have throat cancer 2- my dad had throat cancer. he was a pipe and cigars smoker, but he had it when he turned 73. I won't tell you how painful was his journey, but let me tell you as more users here told you : go out and buy a lottery ticket right now, you have way more chances to win the lottery than to have cancer at your age (ESPECIALLY THROAT CANCER, WHO'S TYPICAL IN OLDER SMOKERS)
  3. Hi guys, thanks for your words. My main problems are in the morning, and the thing that it looks like my bowel is a lot more sensitive to junk food now. I mean i literally cannot eat junk food or i will have really soft (mild diarrhea) stool in the morning. Yesterday in the afternoon i ate 2 chinese spring rolls in the afternoon and here i am, the same problem. Would it be my age? maybe i'm just more sensitive to some kind of foods? Another thing i want to ask you (if any here had colon cancer fears and did some researches), is the BOWEL ULTRASOUND a valuable exam? I read different things online, they even did a study and realized that if well done it can see cancers, polyps and obstructions of the bowel
  4. Hi guys, I've already told my story, but I can't find peace. It all started while I was in South America for work, I started to have abdominal bloating, small pains, and since I am a hypochondriac, it was enough to make me think of colon cancer. Back in Italy the abdominal swelling disappeared, but I still went to pay a visit to the gastroenterologist, who gave me a bowel ultrasound, search my abdomen for eventual masses, did an abdominal echo. everything turned out normal and the doctor told me not to worry. But I now control my stools every day. I became obsessed with their consistency, I always go twice a day, at the same times. My fears, however, are related to the consistency of my feces, which varies from number 4 to 6 on the Bristol scale. Almost always in the morning I have very creamy stools, which then improve in the afternoon and are a little more formed. I never saw blood in my stool, my bowel movement did not increase, I did not lose weight and I did a test for anemia, negative. Yet every time I have creamy stools I panic. I can say i felt better for some days, then something trigger my anxiety back, i start reading the stories of colon cancer survivors, and i start to think again "i am sure i have it too".As always, what triggers my fear is the stool appereance and consistency. I still go twice a day, and again, in the morning the stool is 8 of 10 times mushy. I started again eating long leaves vegtables two nights ago, rocket salad (arugula) especially. Yesterday in the afternoon i did good with well formed stool, perfect brown color, and i thought "WOW, maybe i just needed more of these vegtables". So in the night i ate more, and this morning i had an horrible looking mushy stool, a small quantity, greeny (i guess from the vegtables), with some gases, and that just was sufficient to make me feel horrible again, i started to think that something must be wrong, that i cannot have my stool changing so much without having something serious. And then...Dr Google did his job.It's so hard. I think i may ask for a colonscopy to the gastroenterologist that saw me, but he was the one saying i don't need one.Sometimes a voice rationally tries to speak to me, asking me "do you really have any bowel cancer symptoms?" . I have no blood in the stools, i did a quick anemy test (the home made kits you buy online) one month ago and came back negative, no weight lost.Do i have what may be called "change in bowel movements"? From what i read, a change is really going more, or going less, and i go like always, twice a day, morning and afternoon. Yes, my stool has been varying from 4 to 6 in the bristol scale, but as a doctor told me "unformed stool are not pathological", and also i must say, maybe i've always gone like that and didn't notice, didn't pay attention to it (i remember always going soft more than hard in my life). And sure, cancer does not show many signs, but if one that way, then i could be having in this moment brain cancer, lung cancer etc.My mind is exploding. I live waiting for the next bowel movement to feel better or worse. I don't want to live like that, i can't even work. Any help would be appreciated, thanks
  5. well guys, after this morning i woke up and went to the bathroom perfectly (great stool lol), i was feeling fine and tried no to get anxious. But it looks like i'm not so lucky. In the morning i had a shake that i always have for the gym (2 eggs, protein powder, peanuts butter) and then after i ate pasta for lunch i had to go to the bathroom and i had a mild diarrea episode. My mom laughs at me saying anybody would have these kind of episodes having the shake i have in the morning...And frankly is the first time i have this powder and i put it in my shake. So a logic person would think that was the reason BUT since i'm not in a logic moment of my life, the worst thoughts fullfilled my mind again, and i'm thinking again that this wouldn't happen to an healthy person, that i must have colon cancer, that i should have a total check right now, that i can't wait one week for the gastro appointment, and then at the same time i'm scared he will tell me to do a colonscopy, because if he says so then he 's thinking that i have something serious....then i think that if he won't examinate me much i will keep with my anxiety... Horrible, i'm in the hole again
  6. MS was my "anxiety passion" last year. I had all the symptoms, especially tingling in one side of the body. I also remember waking up every day expecting to lose the view of one eye (typical ms symptoms), and so much i waited that i remember clearly waking up with eye pain one day. I went to a neurologist who immediately understood i was crazy (lol), and nearly kicked me out of the hospital. Since the second i was outside the hospital i didn't have a single symptoms. But don't worry, i already have new deadly diseases to think about
  7. MS was my "anxiety passion" last year. I had all the symptoms, especially tingling in one side of the body. I also remember waking up every day expecting to lose the view of one eye (typical ms symptoms), and so much i waited that i remember clearly waking up with eye pain one day. I went to a neurologist who immediately understood i was crazy (lol), and nearly kicked me out of the hospital. Since the second i was outside the hospital i didn't have a single symptoms. But don't worry, i already have new deadly diseases to think about
  8. Yes i tought about that too, since the bloating symptoms began when i was down there, i defenitely must do a stool exam for parasite. can i ask what were your symptoms? my question, while i wait for the gastro next week is, what really is a REAL change in bowel movement? Me, for example, i go like a clock, morning when i wake up and afertnoon between 5 and 6 pm. Isn't that a good sign? i don't have uncontrolled movements. My only concern is the type of stool, one week ago was creamy in the morning (sorry for being gross) and more formed in the afternoon. Now it's small pieces in the morning and bigger pieces in the afternoon. I am also thinking maybe the chaorcal i have been taking lately is changing my stool. I am happy to know i'm not the only one with this anxiety problems.
  9. in the afternoon i went again to the bath and no red signs, i hope i won't find anything tomorrow so i will be sure it was tomato
  10. already love this forum, thank you guys
  11. hi guys, i'm a first timer, italian, 38 years old, apparently healthy. This year I pratically diagnosed on myself all kind of cancers and issues. From multiple sclerosis to an anal cancer when I had a lump in my anus that turned out to be a thrombosed hemmoroids that now disappeared. Now, in the last month, my concern has been my colon. I started having bloating after a south american trip, bloating than now has gone, but my stools still look awkward, in the morning i go to the bathroom and i do little broken pieces, that infamously is considered a symptom of colon occlusion (even if i read on a book that actually is more of a misundersting and it does not represent a clear symptoms of colon cancer), then in the afternoon the stool is more of a normal shape and type. Still i feel like the quantity of my daily stool has decreased. This morning, checking my stool, in one of the little pieces i had, i saw something like a blood string, jelly, red. I tried to pick it up in my fingers, It went away with the water when i washed my hands. I panicked so much, i nearly fell on the floor. I still don't know if it was blood (my mind tells me it was) or tomato, since yesterday in my lunch i ate pasta with tomato and i am also taking charcoal, whose side effect is to leave pieces of food in the stool. I just don't know guys, i feel horrible. My anxiety is ruining my life, my wife has a lot of pacience but i feel like soon it will end, i cannot do anything i think 24-7 about me and my possible illness, now i'm pretty sure i have colon cancer, it's something i can't take off my mind. I will try to see a gastroenterologist as soon as possible, but it's never too soon for my anxiety, i feel like i need to be checked totally now, in this second. Could it just been tomato in my stool? Reality and nightmares just go together in my life, i can't distinguish one from the other. Thanks for your support.
  12. hello, first timer here. I am lately accepting i am hipocondriac. I understand your concern and fear, my fears are now totally concentrated on my bowel and today i saw something that looked like blood in the stool. Btw, try to understand which kind of test was your test : if the test is not called FIT, then any type of blood can be detected. I have had bleeding gums and i won't do the guaiaco test because it will obviously result positive. Check your kind of test.