Hi all. I’m new here. A little background on me...I am 36 years old and have three kids. I’ve always had anxiety, but after my first husband died 4.5 years ago in a car accident, my health anxiety has been so much worse. I am terrified of leaving my kids behind. I don’t want them to lose their mom too. Just the mere thought of it makes me cry.
So I’ve worried about ovarian cancer before, and had an ultrasound about 2 years ago where all was fine. I didn’t worry about this particular thing again until recently.
One night I noticed I was having to urinate much more than usual, and not much would come out when I did go, but I still felt like I had to go. I thought maybe a UTI. I took one of those over the counter AZO tests and it was negative, so I turned to google to see what else could cause it. And of course...ovarian cancer.
Weird part is, since then, the urinating more frequently thing seems to have gone away. But I am experiencing lots of pelvic pain off and on, sometimes it’s dull and achey, sometimes it’s sharp and stabbing. It comes and goes, but happens at least a few times a day. And now it’s like I am having pains EVERYWHERE. MY leg / thigh, even my kidneys feel like they hurt. Little sharp shooting pains all over my body. Then my son was crawling all over me playing the other night and I noticed the area where my right ovary would be really hurt when he pushed into it.
I do have bloating, but that seems to come and go, but I am overweight and carry a lot of my weight in my stomach, so it’s hard for me to tell sometimes what is bloat and what is just my horrible eating habits.
I’ve been fatigued and wishing I could just sleep all the time. But could this be because I’m so stressed and anxious?
I am eating a little less, but Is that another symptom showing itself or is it just from the stress? I don’t even know anymore.
Its mostly the pain, and the urinary problems I was having, that is freaking me out so bad. The pain has got me so worried and upset and making me feel miserable. I can’t focus and feel like I’m failing my family and my kids because I’m not entirely present due to being so worried. I’m constantly googling new symptoms and finding new evidence that points to me having ovarian Cancer. I do have an appointment scheduled with the OB-GYN on February 5. The anxiety is just making me crazy.
I know you all can’t diagnose me. I guess I just needed somewhere to post about what I’m dealing with where people might understand. I just don’t know how to cope with this anxiety anymore. It is taking over my life.